I haven’t been on here for *years*. I thought about making a new account but for why? I thought I would feel better than I felt when I used to be on here 5+ years ago. I find myself struggling with the same feelings of loss, loneliness, struggling with relationships. However I am more sober than I’ve ever been, i have my life more “together” than it’s ever been. I’m trying to turn a new leaf in my life. I don’t know if the problem is my mental health, the relationships I’m in, or if it’s just me... some things I am grateful for are my dog, my job, my body, my will to keep trying despite being knocked down time and time again. I don’t really like the way I’ve been feeling lately but I remind my selft this isnt WHO I AM, it’s just a period of time... I’m trying to pick myself back up. I know I can as of done it so many times before. I would have never imagined some of the bullshit I’ve been through in the last few years... it feels like my existence on this earth has been painful experience after painful experience. I just want some stability for once, I want peace, I want to enjoy life. I should be.. but I cant. I’m healing from all that has happened I hope one day I will be able to release this pain. I’m tired of carrying so much weight with me. each. and every day...
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