hi

i hate knowing that ill never be a normal girl like genuinely what the fuck happened to me for me to turn out like this

i disgust myself

i have this weird problem where i want bad things to happen to me and want to surround myself with people who will just enable me i don’t but i want to and i feel jealous of people who have these issues and stuff that i want which is sick but idk just somethings that’s wrong with me i guess