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mutable signs (gemini, virgo, sag, pisces) fall in the end of the season. these natives are the old souls, teachers, flexible ones. 

for me it’s not even the guy. it’s just a constant not being able to let go of the fact that he didn’t want u as much as u wanted him kinda of thing hahaha. it feels like it’s about the guy but when i look closer it’s really about not being able to accept that im just not the girl he wanted or enough. but that in itself is enough for me to move on & get over it. because (ik ive said this) but i don’t like guys all the time. & it has nothing to do with them. they’re all dope guys. but they just aren’t for me. & if someone doesn’t think im right for them then no part of me wants to be that person. even if they change their mind. i just don’t want someone to even second guess it. & understanding that someone second guessed you or didn’t want you is enough for me to move on. i don’t want that. no part of me wants that

1. is it really that deep 2. do i need to make a situation out of this 3. if i do make a big deal out of this, what would be accomplished

“We met on a dating site twelve years ago. I sent her a message saying: ‘I want to let you know up front that I’m in a wheelchair, because I can’t hide it.’ And she wrote back: ‘Why? Is it bright yellow?’”

also i wouldn’t try to necessarily tryyyyy to fuck with guys head. especially if they’re sweet guys. but i mean it happens

i think we have moments in social settings where we go back into this shell & it’s like we’re not really there. but it’s kinda dope in a way i guess but it also feels uncomfortable because we can’t control when it comes. u just have to accept it for what it is & vibe hahha