falling again

Been on here for a long time now and I love reading through all your posts and blogs. Thank you all. Its been an absolute pleasure. But I gotta go now. I've been gone for a long time but now I'm going to have my eyes closed

And now I know its time to go. After 18 years my marriage is over. I was sinking before. And now I'm sunk.

Hay. Don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out, or looked down on. Just try your best, try everything you can and don't you worry what they tell themselves, when you're away.

Working your ass off at something to be told you're too old and fat to do it, that my friends, is soul crushing.

I do believe I have found the end of my rope. All that's left is for me to be swinging from it by my useless fat neck.