Dissociation was my way of coping with life. It first happened during my assaults and then continued even when everything stopped. It was an automatic, natural survival instinct to me. I would dissociate myself almost in every situation, situations that I wasn’t supposed to. But since I was always on the watch out, my brain would just automatically dissociate me without warning. I wasn’t able to explain people this whole feeling dissociated until I learn about it. ( I will cover a chapter about it) but here is a quick link to explain dissociation: https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/dissociation-overview With years I can now see the a difference in my dissociation, I can feel my body connected to the earth and it feels so good. And that is a victory for me, a step closer to being whole with my body, mind and soul. #traumarecovery#healingjourney#ptsd#rapevictim#anniversarry https://www.instagram.com/p/CcAYmyxMtNM/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=