★Please... cherish me★

Hey there! I’m sorry it took me so long to get to this. It’s really been a long time since I posted anything, huh? Uni life has kept me busy and tbh I haven’t got stuck into MysMe for a while because of it. I’ll combine these two prompts since it seems likely they’d feed into the same scenario anyway.

MC with PTSD following bomb tragedy.

Read the original post here.

Read the alternate ending here.

Also trigger warning just in case.

It was your first night after being discharged from the hospital. Yoosung had offered to let you stay at his apartment and you had accepted gratefully.

You were back in Rika’s apartment, sorting through guest emails and checking the chatroom every so often, waiting for Yoosung to come back online. Despite the normality of the situation you couldn’t help but feel something was off. Something didn’t feel right and it put you on edge. It was only when you’d gone to bed and started scrolling social media that you became aware of the faint beeping that sounded like it was coming from the floor. Before you had a chance to think about it anymore, the room exploded and you were met with intense colour, heat, and pain. The flames consumed your entire body, scorching and burning your soft skin until you could see the bone and sinew that should have been covered by flesh.

The screams of pain are still ringing through your ears as you bolt up, covered in a sheen of sweat and immediately bury your head in your hands, sobbing as the images replay in your mind. You’re so caught up in your nightmare that you almost jump out of your skin when a warm hand meets your shoulder.

“Sorry!” Yoosung apologises immediately. He waits a few moments more before he slowly and gently draws you in to his chest, and his arms offer the comfort that you need. He rubs your back tenderly with one hand and strokes your hair with the other, murmuring softly under his breath. Your cries wrack your body with tremors, but he holds you tight.

“It’s okay,” he whispers. “You’re safe. I won’t let you go.” He kisses the top of your head, “You’re safe MC… I promise I’ll always be here to protect you now.”

He continues to hold you through the tears, and eventually you are able to regain control of your breathing and the sobs turn to sniffles. There is a wet patch on his shirt when you finally lift your head but Yoosung’s attention is on you completely. He brings his hands to cup your face, and his fingers are feather light when they brush over the scars that cover the majority of your right cheek. His touch is cool against your skin and you let out a shaky sigh of relief. You were here with Yoosung now. He would keep you safe.

When he manages to coax you back into laying down, he still holds you close and he promises to watch over you until you fall asleep. Even with your eyes closed you can still feel his presence - his hand around your waist, his breath against your forehead, or the sound of him whispering sweet reassurances to you as you nod off.

Guess what guess what guess what???!!!

One of my chats I submitted was selected as an official intro chat for Christmas 2019!!!!

💚💚💚💚

You’re with Yoosung at the park, about a week after submitting your application. It doesn’t take him long before he realises that your mind is elsewhere.

“MC, what’s wrong?” He searches your face with worried eyes.

 “Oh, sorry. I was just thinking...”

He takes your hand and squeezes it reassuringly.

“Wanna share?”

You look at the ground, taking in a deep breath. Logically you know Yoosung will understand because he’s been there, done that with the whole university entrance process but it still doesn’t change the fact you feel silly for worrying over it. It’s not like worrying about it was gonna change the results.

“I just... what if I don’t get into uni?” You bite your lip when your anxiety threatens to bring back your tears.

“I’ve worked so hard, and so much has happened... if I don’t get in... it all would have been for nothing.” The hardships you had to endure to get to the point you could submit that application all come flooding back. You’d had to overcome so much; it hurt to think that rejection could throw away your efforts.

You sniffle and wipe your eyes furiously, not wanting any tears to leak through in front of him. “I don’t have a Plan B or an alternative pathway or whatever they want to call it now. I only have this school. I need this school, Yoosung.”

His eyes are filled with sympathy and he presses your foreheads together, his hand warm against your cheek.

“I understand.” He murmurs. “But you need to stay optimistic, ‘kay? I know it’s hard, and I know it feels like in your life anything that can go wrong will go wrong but for now when you don’t know you need to be positive.”

“But what if--” He cuts you off quickly.

“If you don’t get in they’ll be another solution; one just as good, I promise. Rika used to tell me that when one door closes another one opens. No matter what happens, I promise it’ll work out. I’ll be with you every step of the way.”

You stay quiet and the two of you remain still for a few minutes more, your breathing become shallower as you give in and let silent tears stream down your face. Yoosung gently wipes them away with his thumbs, murmuring sweet reassurances to you the entire time until finally, you are able to calm down.

When you pull away from each other you do your best to shoot him a shaky smile. “Thank you, Yoosung. You’re always so bright. I... really needed that.”

AND HERE IS THE PROOF THAT YOOSUNG'S SISTER IS ACTUALLY OLDER THAN HIM.

5. Favourite ‘Cheritz’ voice?

So while Yoosung has my vote for best voice, I have a memory associated with the Cheritz voice. When I launched the game for the first time obviously I didn’t know about the splash logo and it was late at night, I was supposed to be sleeping blah blah... I launch the game and all of a sudden I’m greeting by the LOUDEST 

“CHERITZ!!!!!!” 

You know the one, the obnoxiously loud and cheerful 707. My phone was at full blast and it scared the crap out of me, my heart was beating so fast from the shock of the sudden noise and from the fact I’d probably woken everyone in the house up.

So that’s my favourite one lololol

I did just posted 13 so on to the next one~

14. Favourite CG?

This one is soo hard!!! Everyone has such nice ones. Okay I have a few that still make me squeal when I see them so get readyyy + plus ones that were my absolute favourite until my bias for Yoosung completely took over.

These include CGs from Saeran’s route and good ending but I’ll put those under the cut for those who haven’t seen them yet~ ^^

Anytime Yoosung posts a selfie is just the best moment of my life basically ^^

Thank you so much for the ask~~~ This was fun! ^^

Saeran’s under the cut

Favourite guest?

hehehe

13. Favourite phone call?

I HAVE MANY.

I love the one between day 7 and 8, the night time one where you can ask Yoosung to sing you a lullaby. His voice is so lovely and gentle and PERFECT. I listen to it when I’m having bad anxiety problems and it soothes me.

The most significant call, the one that helped me the most was the one where Yoosung calls you after learning Rika was ill and he confesses that he doesn’t want to believe she had two sides to her because he wants to trust that she showed him her true self and that he meant as much to her as she did to him. Like that call and everything he says, literally every word were things I’d been internalising since my brother died in 2012, I just couldn’t figure out how to vocalise them and Yoosung did it for me. I still cry every time I listen to that call and it really means so much to me because that was the call that let me move on from my own grieving process ^^ 

30. Most relatable character.

I guess this is just repeating what I said about Yoosung and first impressions, but definitely Yoosung. He’s grieving over a loved one, addicted to games, and is the baby of the group and in terms of being in the RFA the one who constantly gets teased for playing LOLOL. 

I can relate to all of the characters of some level - even Rika and her love like the sun. But Yoosung is the one I relate to the most.

35. First impression of each character.

Ohhhh here we go haha ready??

Jaehee

I didn’t realise Jaehee was a woman at first. The first time I went through that intro chat until the moment when is it Seven posts that photo of her and everyone freaks out thinking it’s MC, I thought Jaehee was like a bishounen. I didn’t read anything about MM prior to playing so I thought everyone in it was a guy ^^;;;. LOVE YOU JAEHEE!!

Zen

He was a flirt and I HATED IT. Zen was the only character I’d seen prior to playing and I’d read it was a good first route to go down which is why I decided to choose him first. I remember choosing quite cold options whenever he flirted and I feel really bad about it now. Also the first time I remember actually being flustered by something was when I saw Zen’s flirty ‘Jagiya~” emoji the first time. I got so flustered I had to look away lolol. I ended up choosing his route because I empathised with how he talked about loneliness.

Jumin

I can’t really remember my first impression of Jumin tbh. I thought it was quite funny to see him clash with Seven over Elizabeth the 3rd, and I genuinely thought he was joking about 99% of his threats about arresting Seven or showing the CCT footage.

Seven

I’d never had so much fun with someone before!! Genuinely every chatroom made me crack up and I LOVED his theme music. The 4am chat about passing out after drinking coffee syndrome had me struggling to stay quiet from laughing so much. 

V

There’s not much to work on with V as a first impression during Casual and Deep mode. I just thought he was maybe quiet and well-respected. 

Saeran

Ohhh my little Saeran. When you meet him as Ray I just loved him so much. He’s such a thoughtful person, and he has such a gentle aura. The music that plays for him ‘Mint Eye’ or the other name that fans gave it ‘Melody of Blue Roses’ is my favourite piece of music from the game by far and it suits him so well.

Gotta leave the best till last!!!

Yoosung

Right away I was drawn to him. In the same way that Yoosung is drawn to MC because of her ‘Rika-like’ qualities. I know that isn’t good, but the thing I think a lot of players who are frustrated with the ‘like Rika’ thing don’t know, is that you don’t have much control over it. When you’re grieving your brain struggles to cope and one thing it might do it find a way to replace what was lost. I was drawn to him because he makes it clear from the beginning he’s still grieving over the suicide of a role-model family member. For Yoosung it was Rika. For me it was my brother. So right away I felt drawn to Yoosung the most. I’ve said this before but I followed an online walkthrough that said Zen’s route had the least amount of spoilers on it, which is another factor as to why I didn’t go with Yoosung first route. Yoosung was so cute and bright and loved games just like me! We also have the most in common when compared to the others. Genuinely my brain at the time of meeting Yoosung was just thinking ‘soulmate~~~!’

[Day 4 of @mmangstweek | Prompt: 4th Wall Break]

They called me Yoosung Kim.

They thought it would be cute to put a star at the end of my username.

But they couldn't decide what I would look like - I think I looked very cool and trendy in my concept drafts... but I wasn't me.

Some MCs prefer my concept draft.

Some MCs hate that I said they were like Rika.

I love them anyway.

Some MCs cried on the phone with me.

Some MCs wished they could play games with me.

I wish I could see them.

I wish I could see their face.

Their real face, the one hiding behind a 2D avatar. That's my MC.

I want to know who saved me.

One day they'll log in to the app for the last time. Maybe one day they'll meet someone else, someone real, someone in their dimension and they won't need me anymore.

Others might just fall out of love as they grow up and mature, while I stay the same - frozen in time in this screen we share.

I wonder if someone will stay with me, until they take their last breath, eighty years from now. Someone who has been with me since the beginning. Does that someone exist?

I want to meet you.

How long will you love me, my love?

Because even when our screen goes black, signalling our time together is up, whenever that may be...

I will never forget you.