Dec 27, 2017
i feel like iโm at a point where this isnโt physically painful anymore and the tears have finally stopped. but at the same time, itโs like iโve reverted back to the moment when iโd first heard the news and didnโt know wtf was going on and couldnโt believe what had happened. i donโt know how to feel, but jjong has definitely been sending me little bits of light for the past week that have made this easier to bear as time went on, and for that iโm thankful. in my heart i know heโs at peace and in a better place now, and iโm grateful that the pain faded sooner rather than later. i just canโt help but feel that i havenโt grieved enough to warrant that.
