Art Exhibition

I will kneel before you,

So grant me my wish,

Let me be the mark you leave,

A stain of your love,

I realize now, that I find comfort in stinging pain. It is the only thing that never leaves.

With this never ending pain as my companion I seek to unearth the secret to solace.

I was always embarrassed by you. I loathed you for the way you danced without a care in the world, for the way you ate, for the way your voice changed when you introduced yourself.I despised you for being mean and even more because you wouldn't express your affection.

And yet, I couldn't stop caring.

I couldn't stop hating either. You were this monster I created.

But as Ocean Vuong said, "A monster is not such a terrible thing to be. To be a monster is to be a hybrid signal, a light house: both a shelter and warning at once.

You are my warning and you're my shelter Amma.  I run away from you just to realize all I want is to run into your arms.

I apologize for being unable to love you, while all you were was unapologetically yourself.

A mother. A woman. A human.

I learnt that I still did not understand the essence of your beauty. But, I promise, I will.

I love you amma