desiderata.

too tired to believe in love anymore, in happily ever afters and all that crap.

some days you fight so hard for some people. you believe they are more than what meets the eye. You have faith, believe in the best versions of people. They disappoint - yet you believe anyway. You fight anyway. You invest anyway. Is that love? or just pure stupidity? Probably the latter. 

Doesn't understand why every time she opens her heart to someone and gives it her all, her heart only gets crushed, her spirit broken into a million little pieces, and she's left shattered having to pick up the pieces all over again. Why don't I get that happily ever after? Why don't I get that love story? Why am I never enough?

Dear mind, Please stop. The daydreams are unreal. They will only cause pain. Stop. Stop. Stop. And focus. Focus on what matters now.

spiralling downwards. heart breaking. mind wandering. losing focus. yet again, not enough. why do I keep making the same mistakes? silly me. silly, silly me. time to wipe off the tears. and hope that this time, i will get over it.

to cure sometimes, to relieve often, to comfort always. but what about us?