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My mum is mad at me because I told her she wouldn't need G-Data, Windows is enough. And she she didn't want to hear that. And she told me I'm not a Pro and I said jokingly yes. And now she is mad. Like why? Always when I don't act like she wants she is mad.

I hate it when something embarrassing happens at work. Like, I don't know how to solve the problem and then I see that if I had that one piece of information then I could have solved it. This is embarrassing to me, like really

Ok, aber der schmerzliche Moment, wenn man seinen Arbeitskollegen vom Fenster sieht, weil er grade kommt und du extra auf den Balkon gehst, um ihm den Mittelfinger zu zeigen, weil ihr das immer macht und er null reagiert. Wieso ignorierst du mich?? 🥺 Keine Ahnung aber iwie is das peinlich

I'm looking for a 00Q fanfiction, where Q was new at MI6. It played before Q started his work at MI6. He was attacked I think but saved by Bond and Trevelyan. The three of them lived together in a hotel room. I can't remember when I read it but if someone remembers that ff please tell me the name of it since I want to reread it... Thank you

Work has been really tough today. I always in disbelief about myself. Constantly worrying and overthinking what am I doing. Is this really the Youth from today? Always being unsure about everything? Are we all 18yo to 24yo  like that? Our generation has to worry about so many things. Like being good enough for literally anything. Work, Love, living on our own. Or am I the only one? I always feel like that I have to worry about my future. And I am not a lazy person or think that everything I want is coming to me without having to put work in it. And I know I have to get my shit together for work life and I really do try and developed a lot to hold my shit together. It was much worse back then. But still I have doubts and I know I have to do something against it

Struggling really hard at university rn. First semester was already bad because everything was new and I didn't get anything. Second and current semester went a lot better. I understood everything, had 70-100% in homeworks and had a good feeling about the exams. Since we have to study from home, we also had online exams (open book exams) and they made the exams alot harder and really unfair. We all think we won't pass any exam. Students complaining about the exam. University doesn't give a shit. Me already very depressed about it and fearing my future and existence. Feeling pressure because I want to be successful. Feeling like I'm just a whole disappointment. Me wanting to talk with someone but I know I can't with my parents since they don't understand. Also not with friends because they don't know I struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts. Only my boyfriend kinda knows but being afraid to talk to him because he already has so much stress because of his company which makes him sleep not enough and him being always tired and I don't want to come to him with my shit when he has already enough problems... So I'll guess I just sit here on my own. Studying for the next exam I know I'm gonna fail even though I perfectly understand it, and crying while multiplying two matrices :)

Ok but is it ok to lose respect for a parent that has been and is still toxic and manipulative? Or am I just an unthankful person? I have respect for many people but somehow it died on my mum. Today I looked at my phone when she was in my room. We weren't currently talking, our convo was done. I felt uneasy because she kept looking at me intensly, so I took my phone and answered a message. She told me that this is disrespectful and I thought for a sec to what I should answer to the message and then layed it down. She then told me she is leaving (she went somewhere) and I still felt uneasy under her stare... What if I am rly the bad child like she tells me? Maybe I am a brat but I somehow assigned to a victim role? Does this make sense? Idk. My boyfriend tells me that I am not like that but I told him that maybe I am different at home. Idk