SecretDumping

be careful what you wish for they said and i wished for devotion and obsession. I got a cat that wont let me shit with the door closed or shower without serenading me. I’m allergic.

I still miss you, please stop plaguing my brain

I should have been less afraid, i know it now. Out in the open with all my wounds that are not healing. The fear made me waste it, we wasted so much going so fast but in that speed, i should have had less fear considering the results would have been the same even when i was being extremely careful. I tiptoed as i always do and i cared beyond what i could. I still cant get over the feeling of your eyes on my mouth when the space was none and we could have done, what we could have done, all we could have done but now its done and nothing was actually ever done.

I remember how your eyes would fleetingly stay on my lips for a bit longer, where is that now? why is it gone? why is it so far from me? Maybe i made it all up but at least i know i wont have to wonder again if it was ever meant for me. If i am so far away then i will never have to guess if it could have been. there is nothing left for me if you don’t hold my hand again