i feel like i was the first one to see the post? and? i feel so numb and empty. but i also really want to give a goodbye to this group as well. and because it’s probably going to be really long and super emotional i’m going to put it under a cut in hopes you will all take some time to read it if you want to/care enough to see how much i love and appreciate all of you !!!
first i want to admit that i was honestly not sure when i was going to be coming back. the person fixing my hard drive is taking longer than i thought but i’m trying not to complain because they are doing it for free. perks of mom knowing a lot of people !!! but, within the past few weeks, my own depression and anxiety has hit an all time high and i havent even been able to properly take care of myself the way i want to because i’m either at work or at home sleeping or stressing about something going on in my life that i pretend i have no control over. it’s influenced both how much i come on to roleplay and my motivation to come back from this hiatus that i can’t seem to put an end to. i know i ignored ims, i did certain replies i liked more, but i loved all of you guys just the same. even so, the decision to close the group still is a SHOCK to me and will be for some time, but, i think, in the very end, it is a decision i support because of all the admins meaning so much to me. and i feel like everyone should know that this group as a whole meant so much to me. both yoonsik and taeil became a part of me like no other muse has and i don’t know if any other group/muse will ever top that. it’s kind of sad, but a bittersweet sad.
a lot of you have made a very big impact on my life, specifically my bts buds, su, luna, alli, && parker. the admins always have a special place in my heart, and so do others that i talked to a lot on here. i felt like as more new people came in, it was less of a home for me because i was inactive at the time, but these people always reminded me that i was always welcome in the group and i had their endless support. i will never forget this group and if it ever opens back up, i will definitely be one of the first to reapply given i have the time/opportunity to. maybe you will even see me around in another group with taeil, yoonsik, or another muse of mine that i have been itching to play.
in the end, i think what i want to say is this group has really played a big part in my life, even if i haven’t been in it that long. you’re all important to me. you’re all loved by me, and i hope that if you all see me somewhere else in the roleplay scene, you will say hi and talk to me like we were always friends !!!
if you want to keep in contact with me, follow/message my main @joohoneybees or add me on discord @ hot diggy king #0264 !!!
happy roleplaying, and remember you always have me if nobody else !!!
i love you all with every fiber in my body.
