RE: campaigns of harassment against transfem indie creators and musicians.
It's happened to me and caused me to attempt multiple times in 2019-2020. I ain't the only one, and a small fry at that.
And even I've been getting harassment/whisper campaigns against me by people I do not know nor have never met. The looming thread of losing my community, my job and my life/health in general has caused me tremendous anxiety - especially as transfems become the scapegoated crab in the bucket.
I've also had stalkers (who stalked me to possibly 'date' or rape me), i've had the normal transfems campaigns against me (which went down the more I passed, of the usual bullshit). I've even been swatted (Was falsely flagged (by somebody transphobic) as a 'possible active shooter' in a country you cannot get guns - and I was SA'd by cops in the process in a cavity search). No I don't want to go into it right now without starting EMDR (I was raped) - I hope everybody reading this can assume I am not a threat to anybody... unless you are a transmisogynist. Thanks to whoever reported my pictures with silly jokes at a gun range ...for my friend's 30th.
Like transfem must be perfect - therefore not human - or face punishments that would traumatise most people in ideation and insanity. A lot of us are neurodivergent too and thus it hits harder, our unfiltered minds cannot simply 'turn a blind eye'. Often when we do, that's when the worse happens.
I have ME/CFS, POTS and even if I were physically abled, still have AudHD - diagnosed with a lot of mental illnesses (OCD, depression obv, cPTSD). I am not really able to work a normal 9/5. If I lost my music career to the Usual Bullshit - which could absolutely happen - I'd likely be entirely financially dependent on my folks who are my carers. And when they die, as I am in my 30s, I would likely be unable to fend for myself financially or care-wise.
It's what Lily Alexandre called the "false vacuum" - we could loose everything at any time. It will make you go insane. I've been out a decade and it hasn't gotten easier. I really want it to. And it can be - TMEs need to stop. Fellow queer TME people need to take concerns about transmisogyny seriously without making it the identity politics oppression Olympics.
I don't want to lose everything again and rebuild it repeatedly until I cannot rebuild any longer for the rest of my life. It is easier in your 20s than your 30s. I cannot imagine how I'd be if this continues into my 40s. For those younger than me and not out as long as me - think long term.
I am still privileged structurally - I am white, I pass, I have partial access to healthcare, I am attractive to men, live in the first-world... and seeing what happened to gooseworx - and seemingly any transfem who makes something great - it makes me want to stop making music and disappear. But i'd have nothing to do. No one is too rich, too white, too pretty, too talented, too aloof to be exempt.
Transmisogyny is the eater of dreams. Fellow transfems - how many things have you ruled out doing in your life simply because of who you are? TME people should listen to the answer.
Signed, a girl who cannot legally enter the US, and half the fucking planet. Who was raped by cops because somebody thought it was funny to report me to the police over pictures are my friends birthday.
