An Imaginary Living Body

It is heartbreaking to watch the fandom you once felt a part of become the very fckn obstacle holding our favorite artist back. All this toxicity has reached a point in which she can no longer express herself comfortably or feel safe in her own body, forcing her to hide from us just to get a moment of fckn peace and quiet.

We are watching a human being who’s actively trying to heal herself from deep trauma. Why do we need to add more pain to her wounds? Hasn't she been through enough already? She deserves a life where she can both love and be loved.

It actually feels great ngl. I don’t know what’s going on in the game and I’m not bothered by it.

I’m literally in what i consider the “honeymoon phase” of this relationship. I’m just living off of my feelings for the experience.

∞ ☼｡𖦹 ° . ⋆♡

Just came back from the Eternal Sunshine Tour ATL night 3…

I am an absolute wreck right now but I have never felt this incredible sense of euphoria before. I’m a new person now.

ONE OF MY FAVORITE TROPES OF ALL TIME…

IS WHEN A BTCH GETS PROVEN…

Somehow it feels like years have passed but also like it was just yesterday that I began this process, this journey to this specific event in my life.

A lot has happened. I C E raids, fear, pnic attcks, deprssve episodes, heartbreaks, friends and coworkers being unfairly stripped away from their daily lves, families and loved ones, being diagnosed with a heart condition, my home country being bmbed by the u s just for some oil, earthqkes that dstroyed so many homes and took away so many families. Waar everywhere I look.

It’s truly been a roller coaster ride this past year and I do apologize to everyone if my mental state hasn’t been very positive. In these times all I could do was holding on to the things that made me feel secure and grounded me to some level of comfort and peace. The Eternal Sunshine held my hand firmly and made me see clearly there are indeed Brighter Days Ahead.

I cherish these albums and Ari so much for all the love and comfort they brought me. And now I’m on my way to pay the proper respect to her and express all my gratitude for the support she gave me.

Let’s go, to that sunlit garden ∞ ☼｡𖦹 ° . ⋆♡