(aftermath)

favorite characters ≡ Brooke Davis

-I’m happy and I hope that you are too.

Thank you for bringing me so many wonderful things, even if I may not have realized how wonderful they were in the moment. This past year has taught me so many worthwhile things and has been an immense year of personal growth. I’ve never grown as much as I did this year and I’m so incredibly thankful and proud of myself for transforming tough situations into exotic roses and for experiencing as much as I did. It was an intense year full of so many loses and so many gains; every moment wasn’t wonderful but I have learned from every day I pushed through, every tear that has fell, every moment that I gave in to darkness. For every loss I experienced, there was a gain that I helped myself to get to. And for that, I cannot say it was a bad year.

🧡Things that 2017 has taught me:

1. Bad things happen. While it remains impossible as to why these things happen to us, it has only helped me to keep my eyes and faith in hope open and to make the best of it, to always push through and kick ass. It has helped me realize to always keep going because life only has better days to come and that there’s nothing gained from simply wasting away. 2017’s frequent attempts at keeping me miserable were only wasted because I learned to use all of the pain and hard days to my advantage and only pushed myself further.

2. Everything happens for a reason. Things fall apart so better things can come together later in life. Eventually all of the pieces will fall into place but until then I need to push on and make the best of everything. It’s taught me to never live life with guilt and regret. I am my own person with my own journey and my soul is here to learn to grow and experience. And what’s experiencing without hard times? Experience gives you strength and nothing gives more strength than pain itself. Keep love and light in your heart and always let it help guide you. Say soft under all of the toughness that you use to shield yourself.

3. I still have a long way to go and I still have so much to learn and experience. And that only excites me. Just when I always grow confident enough to think I’ve reached my development and no matter how many stubborn moments I have of thinking I know everything, deep down I know that I am wise, but that wiseness and intelligence can only expand. It excites me to not know everything because from there, I can only learn and grow.

4. You cannot keep everyone with you. Holding onto the past and to negative energy, people or things, only keeps the door to personal expansion and better days locked. Not everyone is going to give a fuck about you, you’re going to have people that don’t like you and you’re going to have people that leave you. Use that rejection to your advantage and move onto better people with love and lift you up. Never hold on to negativity. Seek the new and welcoming.

5. There’s deeper meanings and lessons to everything you experience. The answers you seek are within yourself. Never take anything at face value. Seek knowledge and deeper meanings within the universe and within yourself and you’ll receive your answers. Trust your gut, your intuition, YOU and your beautiful soul is your best guide in life. Don’t seek things based off of insecurity within other people. Look within yourself. Raise your vibrations up and trust them with everything you have.

6. Not everyone gives a fuck about you. It’s okay to take care of yourself and it’s okay to put yourself first. What you see people not giving you, give to yourself. Surround yourself with people who lift you and make you love yourself, not people who do that self lovin for you.

7. I’m a fucking warrior and I can literally overcome any battle if I put my mind to it. As long as I use love, hope, strength and resilience as my weapons, I can overcome anything.

8. I’m saving my most important life lesson for last just because it’s brought me so much passion. With all of the struggles I’ve faced this year, it’s only brought me a new passion and that passion is for life. LIFE IS SO FUCKING SHORT. And life is undoubtedly risky. But the only big risk you should be avoiding is the risk of doing absolutely nothing at all. Go out there and fucking LIVE. Don’t restrict yourself, don’t let people hold you back, let go of restriction, value freedom and the gift of life itself on the highest level. The purpose of life? It’s so simple. It’s to fucking live. Just to simply live. Live freely, wildly and passionately. And do everything with so much fire and love.

🧡 Things that 2017 has made me very thankful for:

* Life. The Universe and it’s higher energies. God. All of my angles and spirit guides that I know are watching over me. I’m so thankful for it all. The beauty of the unknown and the divine. Without it, I wouldn’t have the experiences I’ve had and I’m yet to have. I wouldn’t have the passion I have for learning and growing and seeking. Especially in the higher powers.

* The wonderful and lovely people that I’ve gained and the people that I’ve lost. To the ones I’ve lost and to the ones who hurt me, fuck you. But I also wish you the best in life and I want to thank for you making me face such difficulty and pain because all you ever did was help me grow and become a stronger person. To the ones I’ve gained, you have no idea the amount of undying love and passion I have for each and every one of you. I don’t have many but I’m perfectly okay with that. I don’t need many. I know I will only meet more amazing people down the line who I will love and protect with everything in me. And to the ones I have now, you know who you are. Thank you for helping me see the beauty within myself and my potential. Thank you for all that you do and thank you for being you. I will love and protect each and every one of you with every fiber of my being.

* I’m beyond thankful for the art that displays all of my strongest emotions. All of my passions. You’ve given me yet another thing to live for and a unique way to express myself and to help connect me to myself and my emotions and the people around me, for art is our language.

* I’m thankful for personal growth, adventure, learning, whether it be of the unknown, things I’m passionate about, other countries/places, peoples minds, myself, another reason to love living.

* This may be cheesy but I’m really fucking thankful for Lana Del Rey. She was the start of me getting to learn myself better to connect to my emotions better, all through music, which is something I’m incredibly passionate about. I could go on and on about her and what she means to me. Cheesy but I don’t give a fuck.

* I’m thankful for astrology, for it has made me realize so much of myself, my potential, of other people and this universe. It’s opened my mind to so many positives of life. It will forever be a passion of mine.

* Thankful for freedom and love. Couldn’t be my true self without it all.

* THERES SO MUCH THAT I CANT THINK OF BC IM SO OVERWHELMED AND IM JUST SO THANKFUL FOR SO MUCH FUCK WHAT IF I MISS SOMETHING

🧡Things I was to accomplish/do more of in 2018:

* To finally have true freedom!

* To live more and to get lost a little more. Can’t learn and find my potential without getting lost.

* To travel more, I want to travel so much. It’s a passion of mine already and I know in my heart it will bring me great experiences, some of the best ones of my life.

* To meet people who share the same passions as mine, who share the same mindsets as mine. But to also meet people of all walks of life because I love difference and learning such differences in people

* To lean and grow even more in any way I possibly can!

* To become more spiritually in tune with myself and to this universe, to become healthier in that sense

* Challenge myself more and try so many new things!

* To get myself out there more and to just fucking start living

* Did I mention more freedom?

* Expand my mind and knowledge more

* Probably a lot more considering I come up with new hopes and dreams every 5 minutes

This is so long but I really wanted to just make this as a personal little note for myself to look back on and to share personal growth and knowledge and things I’ve learned with other people because hey, maybe we realized the same things. We are all beautiful individuals with beautiful fucking minds and potential and the beauty of life is that we’re all learning and trying our best. We’re all learning new things and different things at different times and we’re all on a journey. Let’s make these beautiful journeys count. Here’s to 2018, a year of amazing new experiences for each and every one of us. Let’s make it count and show this universe how fucking strong we all are. We’re all a force to be reckoned with so let’s kick ass this year. Here’s to life, freedom and love and everything in between. Here’s to 2018.