Soujun Kuchiki

Oxygen.

I’m  A L I V E!!

Minke whale, great barrier reef, Queensland, by John Rumney

                               i want to escape myself

“If you love me and I mean truly love me. Then show me.” “I’d kill for you.” “Get on your knees and beg for my forgiveness.” “Turn around.” “If you don’t stop talking I’ll gag you again.” “You ran away once stop asking me to untie your hands.” “Good. I don’t want you to see this madness.” “The next time you run away I’ll shoot your leg and drag you back in the house.” “If you look at him/her one more time I’ll make them disappear.” “I saw you go into his/her house again. What was it for this time?” “Don’t you lie to me.” “The ropes not too tight so shut up.” “Maybe if you beg a little more then I’ll accept your pathetic apology.” “You’re mine no matter what you tell yourself otherwise.” “All these little head games you like to play. I’ll show you what true games are.” “Sweet talking me to gain my trust isn’t going to work.” “It’s not a noose it’s a leash.” “What did I tell you about not using pet names?” “I already told you why you can’t come out of the bedroom.” “If you’re good then I’ll unlock the door so you can roam the house.” “Will you be my good girl/boy?” “That’s my girl/boy.” “Give us a turn.” “You have five seconds to put that on and I’m not turning around to give you privacy.” “You’ve mistaken me for someone who is merciful.” “Your tears are a waste of good suffering.” “You can scream all you want. I reinforced the walls just for you.” “You’ve got the phone. But are you fast enough to dial the police before I catch you?” “Even if you did escape the animals would get you first.” “This will help you sleep.” “I won’t let anyone hurt you. Ever. Because I’ll hurt them first.” “Try not to move too much. I had to give you a heavy dose.” “Don’t make me do it again.” “I couldn’t stand the thought of you being out of my life. I just had to have you. You can understand my reasoning for that right?” “I’m not crazy. And I’m not obsessed. I just don’t like others touching my things.” “Next time don’t run from me or the consequences will be worse.” “I’ve waited so long for you. Don’t tell me no.” “I’ll show you my definition of love.” “Quiet. We’ll just wait until they pass by then we’re gone.” “I wish you could accept me the way I accepted you.” “Where did this little act of defiance come from all of a sudden? Guess you didn’t learn from before.” “If I let you go now you’ll go to the cops.” “It’s too late to turn back now. We’re already here.” “Don’t ever try to escape again.” “I’m the monster that’s haunted your dreams.” “Why can’t you just love me?”

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No one had said he had to be gentle.

“Who are you?” He murmured. Soujun was still easing in and out of consciousness, the pain being almost as bad as the burning that was still waging a war in his body. “You... where do you plan to take me?” 

“I’ve been fucking the neighbour, okay?!” “We haven’t been intimate in weeks. That must say something about how I make you feel.” “I was only ever here because I pitied you… and then it escalated and I didn’t know how to get out.” “To me you’re nothing more than a mercy fuck.” “I can’t believe you were lying to me all this time.” “There is nothing I want more than to be with you, but I can’t.” “You’re nothing but a warm mouth to me.” “You can’t just lead me on for weeks and expect me to be okay with that all being made up!” “No, I’m not okay! You hurt me and now you expect me to feel sorry for you? You can’t blame your mistakes on your ‘problems’ all the time, okay?! I thought you loved me!” “I can’t believe you actually thought I was in love with you.” “I knew you were cheating on me. Well, guess what: last night I cheated on you too. I wanted you to know what it felt like.” “I had no idea you felt like that about me. I thought you were just interested in me as a friend. I’m sorry.” “I wasn’t leading you on! We were just having fun, right? It’s not my fault you got your hopes up.” “Woah, it was a one night stand, nothing more, okay?” “You mean this as a sex only thing, right? I don’t do relationships.” “No, you can’t come over. I’m married and have kids. Wrap your head around that.” “If you thought I could ever be into you like that, you thought wrong.” “You’re not my type.” “So, who is it that you’re fucking? Is he/she hotter than me? Younger? What is it?” “Oh my god, you’re in love with me, aren’t you?” “I’ve met someone.” “You’re getting too clingy. I don’t like them when they get clingy.” “You just don’t make me happy anymore. It’s as simple as that.” “Do you even still love me? Or have you just grown bored with me? What is it? I can’t go on not knowing anymore.” “So now you want me to believe that you didn’t want to fuck him/her?! Like that sort of thing happens as a mistake– Or, you mean…?” “We fell in love too quickly for me to realise what I was getting myself into. This wasn’t a good idea.” “Please just kiss me one last time?”

“Can you walk?”

Soujun did not remove his back from the alley wall though. He had a feeling that if he did too early, he could easily be overwhelmed. He did not yet trust these people.