Silver Spoon

and four years later you’re dancing around your kitchen with a pint of milk in your hand. the windows are open wide, the neighbors are still awake, and they are watching you. they are watching you fall in love with being alive.

Here’s to the ones who dream, Foolish as they may seem.

Surround yourself with people who talk about visions and ideas, not other people.

Why does it feel like time is moving quicker every year?

Here's what you do on your 13th birthday. 1. Throw out every drop of alcohol you have in the house. I know right now you can’t picture yourself drinking it, but in two or four years when you're frantically searching for something to smother the pain you’ll be thankful. 2. Throw out every razor you own the second you start thinking about cutting your skin because once you start there’s not really a stopping. There is no real recovery there is just surviving every mistake you made with a sharp object. Don’t look back. 3. When your best friend starts dating the guys you love, forgive her. Everyone else will pity you but when that relationship goes to hell who will pick her up off the floor?Tell her you love her even if it still hurts. Even if you can’t talk about it. 4. If he is more than 2 years older than you, you should run. Far and fast because sweetheart he doesn’t think you’re mature and doesn’t think you’re special. You are young and you are beautiful. He will kill things inside of you you need when you get older 5. Do not fall in love with stereotypes. Do not try and become the girls you idolize in books. Because on page 225 they get to walk away. There is nothing beautiful about destroying your life for a happy ending. All that’s ever left is ashes. 6. When you think you love him more, walk away. Delete his number. Because when his hands on you it may feel good but I promise you 3 years later crying with a bottle of vodka on the floor isn’t beautiful it’s just pathetic. He gets off on you running back to him so stop going there. Have some self respect. 7. First time he calls you stupid leave him. First time he says ‘you’ll like it’ leave him. First time he tells you to lie to your parents, leave him. Oh my god leave him. Tell your best friend the truth and have her hold your hand as you walk away. But for the love of god leave him. 8. The first night you skip a meal stop. You weren’t meant to be this small. Weren’t meant to look like a magazine. You’re better than that. Better than anything anyone could say about you. 9. THe first time someone you called a best friend calls you a bitch tell them to fuck off and move on. From that moment on nothing they say has any truth. Nothing they say has any genuine. Because secrets spilled at 3 AM don’t matter when casually brought up at 2 pm 10. Don’t ever relight old flames. No matter what you hear cigarettes never taste the same and if you drink enough vodka you’ll never drink it again. He fucked up the first time going back won’t heal any of those wounds or make him any better. 11. Even if you have that test on Monday if you’ve laid in bed all night wondering how you can overdose on Aspirin it’s time to grab your favorite movie and food and lay the fuck down. A grade won’t matter if you’re 6 feet under. Nothing will matter if you’re not here. I promise.