you have no power over me

Michael it's your birthday today, cake and ice cream is on its way and

Michael you've been a good boy this year, open up your gifts while we all cheer

(rats rats we are the rats)

Felt like my brain was being squished and turned into a frosty

"swirling his way through the crowd for a moment before spotting locks of dishwater blonde hair."

-out of context sentence from a fanfic

-out of context sentence from a fanfic

Lightning Brain

If I make the poetry will I forget it tho

Got amnesia from 18 fucking years ago

And I do wish I was bold

Like a lightning strikes the fold

In my brain to take hold

Of these feelings I impose

On myself

I'm so tired of putting feelings on the shelf

I wish I was bigger and better than myself

But who decided what was "myself" in the first place

I've always been in third place

Trying to get some footing then I slip on some

Last Tuesdays forgetfullness

Wish my life was as full as I see the rest will get

I just need to get some rest then I'll get

A better footing

Until I slip again

But what is life but gods biggest and craziest slip and slide

We always try to grab hold of the sides to

Think a little clearer but then the water rushes down

Until you think oh God maybe I will actually start to drown

this time

But it's just a slip and slide

you'll get to the end but it's supposed to be fun right?

Man why'd I even have to pay to ride

This was supposed to be fun, right?

What's the point of poetry if it makes me feel worse

Maybe because this sounds more like a verse

In my head more than anything, I'm tired of spitting silly things

I do want to get better but I was half hooked on

What would yesterday bring

I just wanna be myself, so, why can't I?

That's a question I often ask

Thoughts start to spin and swirl in my head, like, nobody asked

If I do get better then will I finally have to stop asking

Myself

I sure hope I can take these feelings off my shelf, and maybe

keep em on my bed with me

Cuddle and hold em tight and pray they never leave me

But, all things go when they need to,

So ,

I will pray to God I'll leave when I need to

And for the first time finally,

Not