X'O.Addictz

"Too Late" “No-no, no-no, no-no-no” “I let you down, I led you on I never thought I'd be here without you”

I made mistake, and I told you all these lies, but I never thought it would lead to you leaving me.

“Don't let me drown inside your arms Bad thoughts inside my mind When the darkness comes, you're my light, baby My light, baby, my light when it's dark, yeah I'm too high, baby, too high, baby 'Cause I know right now, that I lost it (Hey)”

I’m suffering deeply and emotionally, I’m trapped with my thoughts for a long time, and I don’t want to be alone anymore. It’s crippling and sinking deeper into darkness, and you’re my only source of light.

“It's way too late to save our souls, baby (Oh, oh, yeah) It's way too late, we're on our own (Baby, on my own) I made mistakes, I did you wrong, baby (Oh, oh, yeah) It's way too late to save my—”

I can’t make you change your mind about how you feel, I’m a lost cause, and a burden. I know you want to save me, but I’m too far gone... “I can't trust (I can't trust) where I live (Where I live) anymore (Anymore, anymore, anymore) Sources say that we're done, how would they know?”

I have people watching me all the time, I feel like my privacy is no longer mine. The world assumes they know what’s going on in my life, when they really have no idea. 

“We're in Hell, it's disguised as a paradise with flashing lights I just wanna believe there's so much more (Hey, hey, hey)”

It’s all a lie, this world that we live in is all for show, a fallacy, disgusted as an oasis for escape. I've been played by a fantasy and I can’t escape it. 

“It's way too late to save our souls, baby (Oh, oh, yeah) It's way too late, we're on our own (Baby, on my own) I made mistakes, I did you wrong, baby (Oh, oh, yeah) It's way too late to save my—” “And, ooh, I tell myself I should get over you I said ooh, I know I'd rather be all over you”

I know I should just let you go but I can’t, I think I’m addicted to you, and not just you, but your essences, you’re energy, you’re voice, you’re words, everything about you.

“I'm trying, trying, but I, I just want your body Riding slow on top of me, girl, on top of me I want you, babe, ooh-ooh”

"Save Your Tears" “I saw you dancing in a crowded room You look so happy when I'm not with you But then you saw me, caught you by surprise A single teardrop falling from your eye”

I ran into you on accident one night. Seeing you out with your friends, away from me, you seem honestly and genuinely happy. But then you looked up and saw me; you didn’t say a word to me, but your expression immediately changed. You went from happy as hell to deeply sad and broken. “I don't know why I run away I'll make you cry when I run away”

I have deep commitment issues, and as our relationship fell under, I abandoned you instead of trying to make it work. And in the process of doing so, I made you feel inferior.  “You could've asked me why I broke your heart You could've told me that you fell apart But you walked past me like I wasn't there And just pretended like you didn't care”

At this point, you could’ve asked for closure, an answer, hell an excuse for my why did what I did. But you did something much worse; you completely ignored me, made me feel irrelevant, like I never meant a thing to you. “I don't know why I run away I'll make you cry when I run away” “Take me back 'cause I wanna stay Save your tears for another Save your tears for another day Save your tears for another day”

I promise you this, you don't ever have to worry about me hurting you again; you wont have to cry for me, or because of me ever again. I’ll do whatever I have to do to be with you again.

“I made you think that I would always stay I said some things that I should never say Yeah, I broke your heart like someone did to mine And now you won't love me for a second time”

I fed you lies, made you believe that we were gonna last forever, but I just ended up manipulating you and hurting the same way someone hurt me. But you’re to smart to let me do it to you again.  “I don't know why I run away I'll make you cry when I run away” “Girl, take me back 'cause I wanna stay Save your tears for another I realize that I'm much too late And you deserve someone better”

I know it’s pathetic of me to ask for forgiveness, but maybe I am a little desperate. I didn't appreciate you when I had you and I didn't know the value of you until I lost you. All I'm asking for is another chance.

Snowchild

“I used to pray when I was sixteen If I didn't make it then I'd probably make my wrist bleed Not to mislead turn my nightmares into big dreams Whole squad mobbin' even though we only six deep”

I always told myself that if I never amount to anything that I would just end it all; I wouldn't be missed because I wasn't contributing anyway. Ironically, it was this darkness I had about myself that led to my very success. And all the people who should by me then are still with me today.

“I was singing notes while my niggas played with six keys Walking in the snow before I ever made my wrist freeze I was blowing smoke, had me dizzy like Gillespie Niggas had no homes we were living in the dead streets”

We did whatever we had to do to survive, and I’ll admit it wasn't easy. We struggled to make names for ourselves for a long time, being caught up with drugs, women, and a fantasy that we didn't think was possible. We roamed the streets, like scavengers, stalking the world around us until we found refuge.

“You couldn't find me like I'm Hoffa Cover girls jumping out the page like they pop ups Spending all my money on these niggas that I brought up Taking care of families for my brothers when they locked up”

At one point I was isolated. I had these women all around me, telling me what they thought I wanted to hear, my friends were depending on me so much; I had so much responsibility.

“And I had nothing to believe in Double cup leanin' Couldn't even breathe and For that money I was fiending Cali was the mission but now a nigga leaving”

I really felt alone. I was getting high all the time, I felt like I was suffocating. It was like I was looking for something better even though I was already settled. I thought I needed the luxury life but the truth is, I just needed to fins myself. “Leaving, leaving into the night Now a nigga leaving, leaving Leaving into the night” “She like my futuristic sounds in the new spaceship Futuristic sex give her Phillip K dick She never need a man, she what a man need So I keep on falling for her daily”

This girl is really into me, and I've never met someone like her before. She holds herself in such high regard, and that quality is what attracts me to her

“We was at Coachella going brazy Stack a couple M's like I was Shady Now I'm in Tribeca like I'm Jay-Z Rockin' Sorayama like he pay me”

We went outand had a wonderful time together; we grew and build together, we came up and rose to the top together. We were untouchable together.

“I just signed a new deal with Mercedes Got me movin' dirty like I'm Swayze All my diamonds dancing like they Swayze All my diamonds hitting like they Swae Lee”

Next thing I knew, I was signing deals, dripping in jewels, making a big name for myself. It was overwhelming but I loved it

“Jet so big got a business and a coach Always livin' on the road, rockin' Louis a la mode, nigga And for that money I been fiending Cali was the mission but now a nigga leaving”

I had the luxury that I always dreamed of, living a lifestyle that I didn't think existed. I had things for myself that I never thought I’d ever have. And with all this, I still feel the need to find myself. I’m not complete. 

“Leaving, leaving into the night Now a nigga leaving, leaving Leaving into the night” “Twenty mill' mansion, never lived in it Zero edge pool, never dipped in it Superstar neighbor in my business Paparazzi tryna catch me slippin' and”

I have this big, beautiful house, but I’m never there, a crystal clear pool that I've never stepped in, I live next door to lavish A-list celebrities but I don't socialize with them, and every chance they get, the tabloids try to catch me doing something scandalous.

“Going on tour is my vacation Every month another accusation Only thing I'm phobic of is failing I was never blessed with any patience” But I’m always working, its how I enjoy life, touring the world, meeting new and interesting people, it fills me with joy. but its so hard to enjoy this part of my life when some people re only focused on making me look like a bad guy. And even though it can be a bit frustrating at times, I always find my peace when I venture out. it helps me stay together. 

"Alone Again" “Take off my disguise I'm living someone else's life Suppressing who I was inside So I throw 2,000 ones in the sky”

I feel like I’ve turned into a completely different person, or perhaps I’m turning into my true form; this horrid, miserable being that feeds off the highlife and my own insecurities. 

”Together we're alone (Together we're alone) In Vegas I feel so at home (In Vegas I feel so at home) I'm falling only for the night So I throw 2,000 ones in the sky (The sky)”

Even though I’m with you now,  still feel like I’m by myself. But when I’m in Vegas, I feel like I belong. And this is supposedly the gate way to hell, but I feel like this is home.

“How much to light up my star again And rewire all my thoughts? Oh baby, won't you remind me where I am? And break, break my little cold heart”

Can I reboot, start over? I’m overwhelmed and exhausted  from being this way. Can you help me find myself again, and be a better me? I don’t think I can stay like this forever. 

“Call me up and I'll send for you Take me down to your altitude I don't know if I can be alone again I don't know if I can sleep alone again”

Whenever you ask for me, I’ll come and get you. I need to be on your level, your frequency. I can’t stand being like this, by myself, with myself. “Check my pulse for a second time I took too much, I don't wanna die I don't know if I can be alone again I don't know if I can sleep alone again”

I’m afraid I’ll over due it, I’m afraid I won’t wake up. I’m afraid I won’t make it out of this place alive.  “Count it up, it's all for us, count it up Count it up, it's all for us, count it up I don't know if I can be alone again I don't know if I can be alone again”

"Faith" “Light a blunt up with the flame Put that cocaine on a plate Molly with the purple rain 'Cause I lost my faith”

I need to roughest of the rough, the hardest you can provide, I’m spiraling downward and I need substance to cope with my stressful and depressing life. 

“So I cut away the pain, Got it swimming in my veins Now my mind is outta place 'Cause I lost my faith”

I’m experiencing things I never had before. This has all been so overwhelming that I just don’t know how else to function. My mind is gone, my body is weak and my faith is diminishing “And I feel everything I feel everything from my body to my soul Well, I feel everything When I'm coming down is the most I feel alone”

This isn’t a numbness, it’s an ultimate stimulation; usually I put myself in a state to feel nothing, but I have to feel something so I don't feel alone. And when the high comes down, I sink back into myself and cripple.  “I've been sober for a year, now it's time for me To go back to my old ways, don't you cry for me Thought I'd be a better man, but I lied to me and to you”

I took some time to better myself, but in all honesty, it did nothing for me. I might as well revert back to my old ways, at least then, I didn’t have to face them alone. I know you only want what's bests for me, but I can’t be that for you, I can’t even be that for me... “I take half a Xan' and I still stay awake All my demons wanna pull me to my grave I choose Vegas if they offer heaven's gate I tried to love, but you know I'd never stay I'd never stay”

This darkness is consuming me, my nightmares are becoming my reality, and I feel like I can’t breathe all the time. And yet, I feel as if this is all I'll ever be. I wasn’t made for purity, peace, tranquility; this is all I'll ever deserve. 

“But if I OD, I want you to OD right beside me I want you to follow right behind me I want you to hold me while I'm smiling While I'm dying”

If I die tonight, I want the comfort of knowing that you’re going out with me. I want you to take this terrifying journey with me, look me in my eyes as all the light and energy slowly fades from within. 

“And if you know me When I go missing, you know where to find me Driving down the boulevard is blinding Always blinded by the desert lights and I'm alive”

I’m never too far away, or too hard to find. This place is the gateway to hell, I’m exactly where I should be. the blaring lights, the fast cars, the drugs, the women, it’s all I'll ever be good for... “When I feel everything I feel everything from my body to my soul Girl, I feel everything When I'm coming down is the most I feel alone” “I lost my faith I'm losing my religion every day Time hasn't been kind to me, I pray When I look inside the mirror and see someone I love Oh, someone I love”

The spirit in my heart and soul is slowly withering away, my morals along with it. I’m slowly killing myself; when I gazed at my reflection, and don’t even recognize me anymore... “Faith I'm losing my religion every day Time hasn't been kind to me, I pray When I look inside the mirror and see someone I love Oh, someone I love” “I ended up in the back of a flashing car With the city shining on my face The lights are blinding me again”

I’ve gotten myself into trouble yet again. This feeling is so familiar, I’m not even phased by it anymore. In fact it’s quite comforting...