groovy

mate life is so fucking unfair

Fuck this shit

I only got back from my holiday on Monday morning and I already miss my family so much that I’m planning to see them in another weeks time. I hate how sad I feel right now and all I want to do is cuddle on the sofa with Anna and cry and watch shit tv but I have to work and so does she and bleghhhh. I want to be back on holiday with no money worries and no work and no missing my family (but I did miss my friends out there so maybe they can come too)

I feel like a failure and I feel very sad. Why have a cried so much these last few days I want to be happy again

Really bloody struggling to know what to do with my life. I’ve spent the last 7/8 years working the career I’ve always wanted and now I’m stuck in this rut wondering if it’s actually still what I want to do or if I want to change to something different. Hating having to decide/chose this and it’s making me sad

today is my last day nannying for two beautiful little girls and I’ve cried a lot today. Going to miss the little monkeys a hell of a lot. But it’s the right step for my career and that’s what I’ve got to keep remembering

today is one of those days where I really fucking hate myself and every single thing about me