hello

How long has it been since I last posted a daily life entry? Way too long.

A lot has happened within the past couple years. Time flew by. I wish I could say they were all good things, but then I’d be lying.

I faced new challenges, made new friends, grew up and realized what was important and what wasn’t. I learned a shit ton. And here I am, about to be a senior in college. Kind of impressed I made it this far.

Friends has been a difficult park of my life. Maybe it’s me. Maybe I’m the one not pulling my weight or “becoming a different person”. Either way, my friends aren’t the same as they were. Is it because we’re distancing? Is it because our friendship is slowly disappearing? I don’t know. But I do not like it.

What have a learned so far...

1) Be honest. Be straight up. There is no point in beating around the bush. It wastes your time. God, if only I figured this out sooner. I’ve had this mindset the past couple of months and it’s helped me so much. I’ve been stressing less and my anxiety has gone down some. 

2) There is no “forever” friend. In my mind, I’ve always had this mindset where I had to work at keeping friendships. Even if they were in the wrong or the friendship was toxic, I would still do everything in my power to try to keep us friends. Fuck that. If someone is bringing you down, let them go. If they don’t make time for you, let them go. If they make you feel bad about yourself, let them go. No matter how much you want to be friends with them, let. them. go. There is no need or time for people like that in your life. It’s not worth it, honey.

3) Stay positive and optimistic. These past couple years have been difficult. There has been problems with friends, family, school and myself. It’s your choice if you want to have those things weigh you down and keep you in a dark place. Time is precious. Do the things you want to do even if someone thinks it is stupid. Stay in one night and focus on yourself. Go back home and see your family. Remember that all these happy moments and memories happen because you want them to, you let them happen.