Yet Journey'd

I am tired of being overweight though and even though my husband tells me its from becoming a mom and not really taking care of myself like I should I still blame myself for gaining more weight now than i did my entire pregnancy, but not only do I want to have a better body but I want to be able to have the energy to play with my son without feeling like I dont ever have the energy or making love to my husband without feeling like I’m disgusting. I just want better for my family and I mentally and physically. 

I want change but don’t know where to start without feeling overwhelmed.

Alright so I'm just going to have to maybe face the facts and go see a doctor and see what's going on. On day CD 60 and being 26 days late is just irritating and hard to deal with on a regular basis of not knowing for sure what is going on and if I'm okay or not. I just want to scream most of the time because im losing my damn marbles over this.

So my period is over 3 weeks late and I'm still waiting to either see red or a + on my next test. I think that I could be but one part of me is like

But then the other part of me is like

To all the people that only celebrate to eat and gain unintended weight.

Is getting easier but I still have my days where Dillon is overwhelming. Dillon has become a pretty cool kid to watch grow and I wouldn't trade him for anything I think I'm finally starting to feel the love I've been wanting to feel since I gave birth to him.