xavier.

low-key my girlfriend makes me want to go to work more bc yes i want to be the breadwinner for my lady!! i wanna spoil her and make her comfortable and buy her all the things she wants!!

evil employment time

hayden with a gun mmmmm

got tonight’s shift cancelled and i was pissed bc i need the money but i made plans to have a night to myself instead… guess who just got asked to work tonight anyways fuck my stupid job

might get blackout drunk by myself tomorrow night dear god i hope i dont smoke all my cigarettes

i cant even sleep i feel so sick and i dont know why

julia wolf rlly hit the nail on the head with “i stalk myself on the internet just to see what you’ll find” cut the cameras you got me

i need to be hurt so bad i don’t care if it’s sexual i lowkey just need someone to beat rhe fuckimg shit out of me and leave me for dead behind a building somewhere

NO I DONT HAVE DADDY ISSUES WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT

low-key maybe jusr a hug from him wpuld fix a lot

low-key i hate admitting it because i dont like giving any semblance of victory to that evil twink but man that fuckass relationship actually did fuck me up so bad. i don’t feel like i’m ever normal abour hookups w people anymore especially if i know theyre also interested in someone else sexually or romantically bc i don’t think there was a single time in the last 4 months of our relationship where they were actually picturing me during sex and not their ex or anotjer one of their hookups. they barely wanted to interact w me by the end of it unless it was to get off and the feeling of being used has jusr stuck w me since then and i cant shake it off. im so so scared that no one actually thinks that im whay they want sexually and i know thats such a vain rhing to be worried about but fuck i just want to be desired for me and my body and not be living up to the expectations of someone else’s past fucks. they ruined a lot of things sexually for me bc they would just constantly shame me for stuff in bed and i hate hate hate the fact that it’s having a lasting impact on me. the thought of beinf used and discarded for the rest of my life makes me sick to my stomach but if it’s all im good for then i’ll do it to keep people around