idk, man, i think that if i lost everything and almost everyone ive ever known and loved, got caught on purpose so that my brother could live, taken back to my now destroyed home where the bodies of my parents were hanging as trophies and the bodies of everyone in my community piled up, got tortured by the men who killed my family, a vital part of myself destroyed, somehow got rescued by a friend of my brother i didnt even know he had so now im alive and no way to restore my parent's legacy or protect my siblings, who are the only other two people alive that i care about, got like three business days to process everything before my brother, who is stronger, faster and smarter than me, that i trust with my life, that always managed to pull off the impossible to the point that my father clearly preferred him over me, told me there's a way to get back in the fight by going to his deceased mother's (who i never met) elusive immortal teacher (who almost no one knows) so she could restore the vital part of myself that got destroyed and i was still highly suicidal and possibly delirious from the all the emotional and physical trauma i JUST went through, i would probably have believed him too but maybe that's just me idk
