lucky duck

ohhhh i get it now. the little seed of loneliness i’ve carried with me since i was five will never go away

i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

i cannot punish myself in any way that will unmake the past.

I love hearing about people’s experiences with new languages but all i can think about is how German has roughly 20 different ways of saying ‘the’ and god help you if you get them wrong.

the fact that rhaenyra is the only person in the world who has seen alicent completely and genuinely herself, the alicent that was kind and loved openly without political schemes, religious guilt, duty, or fear. she's the only one who knows the real alicent to her bones, unclouded and genuine. so when rhaenyra sees the real girl she loved since she was a child for the first time in decades, she can't help her own beaming smile in seeing her friend again