W1nter G1rl

i hope there is a version of me in another dimension who loves herself

ana always comes back. i find myself thinking "why can't i get better?" — but i realised; i don't want to get better. quite frankly i enjoy it. the emptiness in my stomach, the lack of energy, but most of all; the euphoria of seeing the scale drop. i can't get 'better' because i don't want to, the only thing i want is to get worse. to be valid, sick enough.

it’s getting really bad again