The Keith kin mood is wanting to be valued wanted and have a place but being terrified of losing said place because you know just how quickly and easily that can happen. So every time you get a hint of rejection you just gotta internally scream and cry and panic, knowing all the while that it’s unwarranted, while ensuring to remain cool and calm and seemingly unaffected as possible on the outside because not doing so will only hurt the situation and make them want you less.
An update since I’ve realized a thing or two since I wrote this… the people worth keeping around will still want you. The places that are worth being will remain even during your distress. And when it subsides you’ll find yourself still accepted and wanted by the people around you.
I’m still working on actually putting that into practice. That sorta thing is hard to remember some times, but I know it’s true, even if it doesn’t always feel like it. I’ll find my place someday, but I’ve gotta be honest with myself if I wanna feel at home there
