Nuumite

Is it ok to still care? Is it okay to not be okay? Is it okay to miss oneself? Is it ok to miss a specific moment? Is it ok tho? Because nostalgia is killing me these days and I would much rather be doing something else with all these feelings. I have years to actually create something and I don’t know why. Haven’t been alone in over 10 years. How? When did this happen? How am I supposed to know what I like anymore? I always had more fun alone and now… wtf Is this? Everything is shit, I care about no one. I feel trapped in fear for what? Failure? Of what? Who am I trying to impress and prove points and choices to? Me? I still don’t sit with a straight back.i still think about how I sit. All I asked and wanted was my grandparents house . That’s it. I have that, so what do I chase ?