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i might be struggling to respond to messages for at least the next two or three weeks, friends. i'm in a stressful, demanding phase of work right now (end of semester here and i'm in a new position that means i basically have to supervise and administrate every single digital exam at my department which is a lot of pressure to be thrown into with no warning) and the first week already set back pretty much all of the progress i'd made in recovering my physical and mental health. i am not sure how to get through the next two weeks tbh, so if you have any kind thoughts to spare... :'))
Some of you go home together with someone, and some of you do not. Some people like it that way and, unfortunately, some do not. And it is very important that you acknowledge the fact some people are lonely. I have been lonely too, many times. But you know what? One thing is important that you remember: even in times of loneliness, as long as you have the spirits with you, you’re never entirely alone. But also, the utmost important thing to remember: things change. Things always change, with time.
just wanna say i really appreciate that mini copia fic “breathe” with the reader doomscrolling or whatever at 3am… im currently getting my meds changed and thats basically exactly how ive been doing for the past few weeks so. it kinda hits close to home i guess. i just wish copia was also there for me to rely on lol. thank u for writing that it rly captures a very specific anxiety mindset and its good and im grateful for it
that makes me glad to hear but i'm also sorry you're dealing with all of this, anon. it's a situation i often find myself in, so it was written from my own experiences. i wish you only the best and hope you'll be feeling better soon. med changes can be so challenging, i hope you're okay 🫂
here is the fic for anyone wondering or needing it as well <3
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i like when fiction treats love as a more complicated force and not something that is inherently pure or redemptive. portray it as flawed and complex as any other human impulse. give me love as prejudice, love as possessive stasis, love as addiction, love as blindness, etc.
🖤 What’s the darkest “we’ll never tell anyone” thing they’ve done together?
i have been thinking about this a lot. there aren't any things they wouldn't do for the other, really. i do think they'd hide a body if it came to it. there are some things i don't want to spoil that may or may not happen in this AU, especially when it comes to other stories, Secondo's family and what he'd do to protect his brothers (and in which Manon would always support him).
he's in Italy for a personal research project when they meet and Manon does overlook a few "rules" to help him with it, nothing crazy "dark", though.
i suppose the one thing that matters the most is the fact that they had to face Sister. like, she sees Secondo as a piece to move to her advantage and once he's discarded he's not worth much, so in his retirement there aren't many ways for him to be useful to her and his existence actively bothers her. she greatly disapproves of the way he acted during the papacy and doesn't have much respect for his ways (many of which were done excessively to provoke her in the first place).
so when it comes to Manon, she doesn't see why there should be special rules for them or why she should accomodate his wishes etc. she doesn't for a second believe that he truly means to be serious with her from the way she knows he's been acting. so they definitely had to fight for approval, in that sense, even if it meant dabbling in nasty clergy politics :')
🫂 (favourite way to hold each other) and 🧩 (tiny habit of the other they find most adorable) for the manondo asks please :))
thank you douglas, my lovely!! these are very cute <3
🫂 What’s their favorite way to hold each other when words aren’t enough?
🥲 ahh. if it's either of them not feeling great/feeling vulnerable/needing comfort? manon will bury her face at his neck and sling her legs around him to hide away from the world and he'll just hold her as close as possible in sort of a sideways knot. in turn, he will rest his head either on her chest or in her lap, depending on the position, and she'll soothe him by stroking his head or back until his breathing calms.
now, if it's to show the other how much they mean to them it's usually a really close hug, often with her in his lap to get even closer, and he'll bury his hand in her hair to really hold her head against him. in general, secondo is a lot more physical than verbal, so very often when he means to say 'i love you' he takes her in his arms instead :')
🧩 What tiny habit of the other do they find unbearably adorable?
For Manon:
he meticulously shaves with a straight razor every morning and she loves to watch him, especially when he dramatically styles his mustache
he always wears a kitchen apron when cooking
he makes silly faces or babbles when he dreams (like, scrunching up his nose, scoffing, pursing his lips, mumbling, snoring)
he refuses to wear sunscreen unless she smears it on his face with ZERO cooperation on his part (she only poorly acts annoyed by this)
For Secondo:
loves to watch her read with full concentration, biting her lip whenever she does and other micro expressions he finds cute
she always curls up when she sleeps, be it against him or just on her own (and it's not the only reason he associates her with cats)
the fact that she can't sleep without a goodnight tea
the fact that she ALWAYS burries her hand underneath his shirt when he holds her (i actually have a snippet about this here) ♡
there are probably more i am forgetting now but yeah :)
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sorry I always felt undesirable my entire life and it gave me kinks of wanting someone to desire me so extremely it's uncontrollable for them as if that's my fault
sometimes i make myself severely ill by thinking about morning wood papaganda secondo and yeah, what can i say. he's ass out a moment later, almost stumbling over a sock on his way to the toilet. what a man.
Content: 363 words, V x gn!reader, mild NSFW, slight creature!V, consensual somnophilia & drug use, literally wrote this on a whim inspired by my sleep saviour melatonin🖤
Hypnopompia - the transitional state from wakefulness to sleep, also defined as the waning state of consciousness during the onset of sleep.
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In the early hours of the night, you know not why you wake when your head remains heavy, lead-laden limbs too warm to move. It takes a second, right before the panic sets in and wakes you fully, for the words to slip unhurried into your head and swirl around. It’s all part of your agreement.
Thunder rumbles softly overhead, the soft rainfall pattering against the windowpanes. In the moment of twilight transition, drifting between the waking world and that of dreams, you feel it. A cool breeze flutters through the curtains, then a cooler brush of knuckles tenderly against your cheek. You don’t startle, don’t even flinch. You can’t even open your eyes properly to see him, too deep in drowsy bliss. The dark doesn’t offer much but the faint outline of him, white eyes glowing soft as the pearly moon. You want him. So badly do you want him that your body aches.
The smell of him lulls you back into fluffed pillows and the plush mattress of his bed. You feel him over you, the weight suddenly bearing down. He smells of earth and the mildew of rain-kissed clothes; his touch is cold, and yet you remain warm. Desire thrums through you, your heartbeat strong yet slow in your chest.
His lips are chilled when his mouth barely meets yours, but the breath behind it is as warm as a hearth. Those icy fingers cup your cheek and slide down to your collarbone, gliding beneath the covers. You hear yourself moan so far off you might’ve imagined it.
His kisses slide down, following the path until he nips at your ear. Arousal seeps through your veins, hot and infectious, and you can already feel that heat pooling between your thighs when his cold fingers spread on your belly. Goosebumps rise on your skin, and yet you remain still and ready, wanting, burning for him.
Perpetua clicks in his throat, pressing another kiss this time to the side of your throat.
“Be still, angel,” his voice is so low you think he’s speaking into your mind. You feel his mouth move over your flesh. “Let Papa take care of you, hm?”
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I know these are a lot so feel free to skip any if they're too many to answer Ibi! 🫶🏻 I just want to know everything about these two lovebirds 🫠💙 ―calllmelittleghule
💋 Who says “I love you” first & how?
🎶 What’s their song - the one that makes them both tear up / grin like idiots?
🌸 What nickname do they have for each other that would mortify them if others heard?
🕰️ If they could go back in time, what moment would they relive together?
🩰 Slow dancing in the kitchen at 3 a.m. - who starts it?
⚓ If one of them had to leave forever, what would they leave behind for the other? (I know this is kind of sad to think about but I do love me some angst 😭)
💥 What’s the biggest risk one of them took for the other that the partner didn’t find out about until much later?
omg thank you so much <3 i love yapping about them to anyone who will listen, it makes me so happy that you want to know about them, my love!!! 🫶🏼
💋 Who says “I love you” first & how?
Manon! She simply says it one day after a few months and he blanks lol. This is a spoiler for the fic but atp who knows when that'll happen. He deeeeeeeeply struggles to think of himself as lovable. So he sort of insults her at first and doesn't take her seriously and just tells her she doesn't know what she's saying. Then he continues to make dinner as normal, not touching on it again and acting like it never happened, all while she tries to tell herself it's fine, he's just not ready. But it does gnaw on her and leads to some conflict in which she stands up for her own feelings.
Eventually he'll come around. But there is a lot more drama between that moment and him "allowing" her to say it without flinching back (and even saying it back at some point).
🎶 What’s their song - the one that makes them both tear up / grin like idiots?
He sings If You Have Ghosts and Waiting for the Night to her when she's anxious sometimes. In the AU it's more that he tinkered with Roky Erikson's/Depeche Mode's songs, both songs that mean a lot to him, and less that there are "perfect" covers for them. Also, I have to note, in that AU, they use Ghost's songs as hymns for mass for each cycle, the band doesn't exist quite like it does irl (it's complicated lol). I'm especially using the covers since Tobias did say that the covers speak on the Papa's personalities.
Non-Ghost: Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd. (And Nothing's Gonna Hurt You Baby by Cigarettes After Sex but that's more Manon's thing).
They also have a lot of memories connected to Iron Maiden's The Number of the Beast album because that's the only cassette Secondo kept in the car he used to drive around in Italy, that is, until it made them both crazy to loop the same songs over and over and Manon insisted on getting some other.
🌸 What nickname do they have for each other that would mortify them if others heard?
This will happen when Manon ironically uses some sort of absurd German nickname on him to fluster him (like, Maus or Bärchen). Secondo usually calls her "my dove" or "amore". When he's in his silly mood he might use other names but nothing that would mortify them. I think in general he does not care much what other's think about their relationship.
🕰️ If they could go back in time, what moment would they relive together?
As I mentioned in the previous ask, they spent some time in that summer villa in italy together which is where they sort of "get together" in a sense and those first few very intense days were just magical to them.
🩰 Slow dancing in the kitchen at 3 a.m. - who starts it?
Secondo!!! He's the romantic. She wakes up (or can't fall asleep) because of her anxiety at times. And (when sober) this man is an insomniac, so he usually notices. He'll pull her into his arms and just sway until she's less anxious and half-falling asleep against him.
⚓ If one of them had to leave forever, what would they leave behind for the other?
As you said, this is a sad one. But actually also really important for Secondo especially. Like, he's acutely aware that he's much older than her and it's less an insecurity and more so a concern. He wants to leave her in a way that means she's taken care of. And if he ever had to leave her for other reasons than death this would still apply. He'd make sure she has enough money, a safe place to stay and someone looking after her. I do also think he is a gift-giver, not just because he loves to adorn her in beautiful things or make her smile, but also because he's sentimental. That's why he has more clutter than you'd expect, memories connected to objects. I think he would leave her messages inside the books they've read together, too, for her to find over time and remind her of him.
If Manon were to leave for some reason, she'd leave a bottle of the perfume he gifted her in Rome one time.
💥 What’s the biggest risk one of them took for the other that the partner didn’t find out about until much later?
Not sure if that counts but Secondo is sort of risking his already rocky relationship to Sister and especially his relationship to Terzo for her.
For context, their story is set just as Terzo takes over the Papacy. Secondo is aware of the pressure and the scheming that's happening behind closed doors, as he is aware of Terzo's nature and how incompatible it is with Sister's plans. Sister sends Secondo to Italy when she notices this – on some stupid, bureaucratic errand that's an obvious excuse. Secondo knows that his brother needs him to have his back against Sister's influence but he also can't really refuse orders, plus he has his own project that he wants to work on in Italy. So he leaves for a few months, not thinking that he'd have a reason to stay there. When it's time for Secondo to get back he is stuck between the need to support his brother OR figuring out a way to create a life with Manon. At first he plans to take her with him but Manon lands an awaited job promotion around the same time, so he decides not to make her lose out on it and straight up doesn't give her the choice.
She's not aware of that inner conflict at all, she just thinks he's ready to move on when he decides to leave. But they figure it out eventually (especially once she finds out and tells him how fucked up it is that he didn't communicate and always thinks he knows better lol).
🍳 Who cooks & who sets off the smoke alarm trying to help?
🧳 If they had to run away together tomorrow, where would they go?
For Manondo 💜
thank youuuu, em <3
🍳 Who cooks & who sets off the smoke alarm trying to help?
i love this because i have a lot of food related secondo opinions. so, when they're not eating out or ordering, secondo does most of the cooking in their relationship. it's not because manon can't cook, she actually does so frequently. they're a multicultural pair and often prepare family dishes for the other to try. so there likely won't be a smoke alarm going off unless they distract each other in the kitchen.
it's just that to me, secondo is a control freak in many areas of his life (there is a reason he needs "help" letting loose) and he's not good at handing over tasks he consider to be taking care of someone he loves (while he's really bad at having someone take care of him, it's too vulnerable, it's so much easier to hide behind acts of service). doing these tasks is the only thing that makes him feel like he has any worth and deserves what he has. but it's also that food is a love language for him, he loves hosting, he loves impressing his dates (especially manon). he's italian (to me, idc!!!!) and he's also a hedonist, he believes in the power of sin, there is no shame around food (manon learns a lot from him in this regard).
i think he's a foodie and it's one of many indulgences he can't live without (also why i do not for a moment believe the gym bro secondo propaganda, sorry). if you tell him you don't want dessert because it's unhealthy he gives you the side eye of a life time until you let him feed it to you spoon by spoon. does he always feed himself enough?? debatable, the definition this man has of self-care is questionable. cigarettes and coffee count as food, no? but once he's with manon he makes sure to feed her. "heaven is a fed girl" as paris paloma would say :)) it doesn't hurt that he gets a little softer as he shares more meals with her
🧳 If they had to run away together tomorrow, where would they go?
i have a good answer for this actually because they (sort of) do that on occasion. in their story (once i finally share it) they spend some time working together in a villa in the north italian countryside that one of his friends owns. it's where he finally caves after months of keeping her at arms-length and they have their first time (and many more times) together, the start of what will be an emotional affair at first before he realizes just how serious it is, so there are a lot of memories attached. later on, he's actually going to buy the villa from his friend and they use it as a sort of summer home to run to when they need peace from the world :)
