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wreckitredglare

Everything feels... strange. Wrong. I feel so out of place, like a stranger in my own life. Or perhaps I am trying to fit in spaces I just do not belong in...

godsdeceit

Growing pains, my love..

wreckitredglare

I do not think I can grow out of being an alien. I will always be too weird, too odd, too different. Too human, too much of a troll, too much of a person. This feels unshakable. Perhaps I will just have to be satisfied with being close, but not quite. I can be.

#godsdeceit

Everything feels... strange. Wrong. I feel so out of place, like a stranger in my own life. Or perhaps I am trying to fit in spaces I just do not belong in...

#blog post #all this bad blood #I feel like a monster...#I am not supposed to be here.

It is the same thing, over and over and over again. All I can do is wait for it to happen again. There is no amount of love given or work put in that will spare me from this heartache, this heartbreak.

It was not enough. It was too much. It will be both, forever. Once again, I have failed to love someone correctly.

#blog post #all this bad blood #saltatio.#This cannot sour my mood so much.#I will not permit it to.#But for a little bit... I want to cry about it.#I know just the warm body to snuggle against.

I do not really care if he ever looks at me again, honestly. I do not. I knew the love would run out eventually. It is just... disappointing. That it fizzled out like this. Not a bang, but a whimper, and the only one who seems to care is me.

I always promise to wait and be patient. To prove loyalty. To keep someone in my heart and mind for ages. And, despite comments to the contrary, I do. Love does not expect reciprocity, but... not even a glance? Not even an offhand comment? Nothing?

I wonder when he fell out of love with me. I wonder if there was ever a chance for me to prevent it. I suppose I will never know.

#blog post #all this bad blood #saltatio.#You could not even say goodbye.#Perhaps I am jumping the gun. Perhaps I should give it a few more nights or wipes or perigees or anything.#But I do not think you love me anymore. And there is no amount of time that will change that.

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wreckitredglare

Right now? Sore, but wonderful. I have been thinking quite a bit. Let a flash of irritation hit me, but it is all gone. But... I am worried about you.

godsdeceit

We got carried away with the knife, didn't we? Here, I have a healing potion somewhere around here..

I'm okay though. Really..

wreckitredglare

Oh no. I do not want anything healed on me. If it scars, it scars. A wedding present for the moon's bride that I get to keep.

I cannot force you to tell me anything. I know something is wrong, but you do not have to tell me what it is. Even if you do not speak of your pain, I will still be here for whatever you wish.

#godsdeceit #I love you.

godsdeceit

Don't you fucking do it you bastard, I say to myself as if I haven't been on my bullshit for the past two weeks..

wreckitredglare

My love, what is wrong? How can I help you right now?

godsdeceit

I'm fine, I'm just adjusting..

How are you feeling?

wreckitredglare

Right now? Sore, but wonderful. I have been thinking quite a bit. Let a flash of irritation hit me, but it is all gone. But... I am worried about you.

#godsdeceit

godsdeceit

Don't you fucking do it you bastard, I say to myself as if I haven't been on my bullshit for the past two weeks..

wreckitredglare

My love, what is wrong? How can I help you right now?

#godsdeceit

andpierres

you should have seen me a couple of years ago!

#blog post #other people's heartache

secondlina

New Crow Time 🐦‍⬛🦊🌟

#blog post #other people's heartache #Hmm...

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pissmamiii

sick to my fucking stomach for all the times i begged to be loved and seen by anyone lmao

thempress222

i used to think this way, but i think a part of you always knew your self worth, that’s why you “begged” to be loved and seen, so they could see what you see deep down. you knew what you had to offer, the person you were offering it to just wasn’t seeing it.

#blog post #other people's heartache

STOP LOOKING AT YOUR PHONE! STOP LOOKING AT YOUR PHONE!!!!! THROW IT INTO THE SEA IF YOU FUCKING HAVE TO!!

#blog post #all this bad blood #UGH!!

If I am going to be pissed off and jealous, there is no better place to do so than in a plunge pool with my beloved.

#blog post #all this bad blood #I AM FINE.#I am just going to float in there until I disintegrate.#Stupid notifications. Stupid novels. Stupid.#WHATEVER!!!!!

Breathe. Breathe... It does not matter if you are found by him. It does not matter if you are not.

But it will be telling, either way.

#blog post #all this bad blood #saltatio.

Also I saw the bastard who will not answer any of my messages reappeared. Messages still unanswered, for those who are wondering! However, I am in Fiji with my darling dearest matesprit and he is not! And for a moment, seeing him upset me, but why should I remain upset over someone who cannot spare a thought for me?

Besides, any negative thoughts are going to be fucked out of me soon enough. Cannot be hung up on an ex, nor do I want to be, when my matesprit has his hips to mine. His lips to mine, too. 🖤🩵

#blog post #all this bad blood #I am going to huff for thirty seconds about this.#Huffing in a beautiful locale with a beautiful lover.#And then being swept up in romance in a beautiful locale with a beautiful lover.#fulmen.#mercurius.#I LOVE YOU!!

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wreckitredglare

Let me stay beside you for the rest of my life, and I will always be happy. I cannot imagine my future without you in it, not even for a moment. I love you.

godsdeceit

Your happiness is the greatest thing you could ever give me. I want to always be at your side to witness your joy firsthand.. I love you so much..

wreckitredglare

This joy is yours as much as it is mine. Ours, made by our own hands, with every fiber of our beings, every string of our hearts, every thread we have followed to its endpoint. How beautifully we weave together our own love, our future...

I have known happiness. I have. I am not always so miserable, I promise. But this, this joy we have worked so hard for, that we have sacrificed so much for... It is richer for all of the heartache we had before. Now we can breathe, together. I could not have any of this without you. I am, truly, endlessly and eternal grateful for all you have given me, for every ounce of love you and I get to share. Thank you for taking a chance on me. I love you, more than you know.

#godsdeceit #O God of Love hear this declaration. This bliss I would not know without you.#Thank you for a blessing I will be grateful for for the rest of my life.

Let me stay beside you for the rest of my life, and I will always be happy. I cannot imagine my future without you in it, not even for a moment. I love you.

#blog post #all this bad blood #mercurius.

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