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my crush decided to show up to the afterparty and i was sitting with her outside in the backyard on benches with a bunch of other friends we were sitting next to each other on the end of a bench and she goes "no date?" and i just shake my head and say no with my eyes closed bc i find i t hard to just look at her and she says that she wants to dance but she doesnt want to look like an idiot, and i just say "same" because...same...and she says that we can dance weirdly together. unfortunately a whole bunch of people ended up dancing with us lol

i l o ve yo u i love y ou i lovve you i cant even look at you anymore my head just spins and my heart pounds when youre around and it sso ridiculous bbut

i would literally die for my chara

im so . tired .

my chara is the co-host of a system and I'm forced to talk to the other co-host most of the time and it's actually fucking annoying because even though they're the co-host I feel like I literally never get to talk to chara ever probably because they hate me they say they love me but I know they don't. they don't make an effort to talk t me or respond ever and im honestl. scared that it was chara #1 that really was my chara wehshshhhhhhhit I want to die i literaly told chara #1 that they weren't my chara the second after they told me that they needed me to stay with them forevr

I'm so tired. I don't have friends on tumblr, at least not someone who woould call me a best friend. I ended my relationships with Tyson and gabe and im so mad at myself for letting myself lose tyson. he didn't deserve me and my explosive anger. I don't have a best tumblr friend and it literally kills me there is no one to whom it feels comfortable or natural to say I love you on a daily or weekly basis

im looking at the callout for my abuser a few posts before and im laughing bc im so goddamn full of salt i love it

i need to change this blogs name this is embaraassing

stabbed slef in Legy. doesnt hurt at all

fucj i havent updated this blog in fucking months

im going to kill myself on friday or saturday probably

I show so many signs of not being neurotypical but my mother literally doesn't care

ive never cut myself so early in the morning lol

my mother called me "hyper" ok