since i am a dog; beware my fangs

amgri

is only partially bc of the gnat bite on my ankle

I'm talking to my partner

Something just triggered me and I'm spiralling

you took advantage of her

i was 13

she was 12

you told us you were 18

your roleplay was sexual, i went along with it because i thought i was being grown up

you were dating her, i went along with it because i didn't see anything wrong at the time

we video chatted often, from what little i can remember, and i thought nothing of it

you had a thick beard, i only remember that

you didn't expose yourself from what i can remember

i don't know what you did with her

i met her, once, because it turned out she lived a half hour drive from me

she was nice, she was wonderful, you didn't deserve her

you faked suicide several times, you blamed me every time, you forced me to be there whilst your typing got worse and worse and then you'd disappear for a few days

then you'd come back, with a long apology

i would accept it

the cycle would start again

eventually, i can remember walking to work, back in 2014 or so when i was 15

i had to cross a train track and i told you that i wanted to wait for a train to come

you continued your pity party for yourself

i kept walking

you blocked me, claiming that i was toxic

we never spoke again

i don't know who you really are, i don't know what you went on to do, i don't know what happened to her, i don't know how old you really are