Nighttime diaries

I even cry when I'm happy

the recipe of being me grows larger every day. 

A list of things I need to get done: -waking up -reading -going to class -eating (healthier) -working hard on practice -paying all of my bills A list of things I should do less: -wait for snapchats from my crush (And getting disappointed when I don't get any cause I like him way more than he likes me) -sleep during the day -watch series -nothing (I love doing nothing and thats not good) -(watch porn) I need to save me from myself.

Somebody told me yesterday that I don't have any worries, and that being me seemed super chill. Well, I thought to myself if only you knew where I'm at right now. I wanted to cry.

Things are not the way they should be right now, but do I go and do something about it? I say tomorrow. Maybe.

I don't deserve feeling like a chore, you need to want to talk to me and say cute things, this is not right so byeee.

Keep secrets to yourself.

when I'm blue, I'm a dark blue. My blue days are practically black.