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i feel like maybe i should be sad that im not welcome at the wedding but i lowkey would not have wanted to go anyways so ..?

It is so interesting what does and doesn’t flag for queer here

I need to just sleep and get this over with lol I will feel a million times better in the morning but the loneliness kills me so bad at night it physically hurts

I have such a habit of throwing myself into situations I don’t entirely (or even slightly) want to be in just to distract myself from how sad I am and it never helps but the complete stoppage of feeling is so nice that I just keep doing it and that’s the same mindset that kept me in active addiction for so long which is scary

The drive home is always so lonely i justgdjshfjshf

thankful :-)