Swallowed Words

2 weeks ago i would have sworn that i got over you; that i realised that, probably, i was only in love with the idea of loving you.

i even hoped that i would find a permanent job before our workplace reopens just so that i wouldny have to see you again. Not out of hate or resentment. Just out of embarrassment, somehow.

but today, after being in this building for 3 non-consecutive days, i find myself missing you. and i have sources that makes me think that maybe youre the one who had found a new job. what a twist.

I dont know the real you, but where ever you may be, i pray that Allah bestow upon you mercy and blessings. and if we are meant to be, i pray that we will find our way to each other.

see you then.

Woke up feeling happy today because i dreamt of you.

I somehow was texting/whatsapping you. Even I, in that dream, wasnt sure how that came about. But yeah, we were texting. And I asked you if you were engaged. You said that you were engaged with F (i dont remember her name but it started w F), but not anymore. and I was so happy. Because it meant that you were single and I still had a chance with you. You also told me quite a bit about it in the text. And I remember feeling happy in the dream, because you sharing that with me, made me feel that you trusted me.