WOODBLOCKS

If you break someone’s heart and they still talk to you with the same excitement and respect. Believe me, they really love you.

Some people aren’t loyal to you, they are loyal to their need of you. Once their needs change, so does their loyalty.

I got my old number back. You don’t know. I haven’t told you. And yet, somehow, against all odds I catch myself hoping you’ll call. And it’s silly and pathetic and I know, I know that. But I catch myself hoping anyway. I think that maybe, you’re looking at your phone right now, just like me, and 3am scares you just as much, because staying up until dawn is no longer the exception, and maybe, just maybe you’re as lonely, as lost as me. Perhaps you, too, realized that we made a mistake, perhaps you, too, regret giving me space. But you never make the call, and neither do I - because it’s 3am, and maybe you’re asleep, and not at all lonely, and maybe, and this is the scariest one, the one that keeps me up until dawn - maybe you don’t think we made a mistake, maybe letting me in is the only regret you have.

I suppose,“ she said after a long time, “it was surprising how quickly he forgot me. “Because even though I didn’t believe he’d love me forever, I always thought he’d love me longer than that.”

How long have you been holding those words in your head, hoping to use them?

You broke my heart in September when all leaves were dying, and I think a piece of me died too. I’ve felt cold all winter, even when I should felt warm. My only birthday wish, was one from you. The only thing I wanted for Christmas, was you back. My only New Years resolution was to find a way to make myself better so you’d come back. There were times it felt like the snow was suffocating me, all I could do was scream for autumn because it was easier to say than your name. Soon everything will start melting, the grass will start growing, and trees will start healing- so will I.

i wake up in the morning hoping that maybe something’s happened while i was asleep, that maybe i’ve moved on, i’ve let go. i go to sleep at night knowing i’ve spent another day being stuck, missing you and being stubborn. i go to sleep hoping that tomorrow i will awake with a brand new consciousness. i go to sleep hoping i will never miss you this way again - never this hungry, never this desperate. i go to sleep afraid to dream.

Distance means nothing when someone means everything.

Just know that when ever I’m doing something, I’d rather be doing it with you.