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What do you mean the person that helped me get a comprehensible storyline for the (now abandonned) tadc AU this account’s name literally CAME FROM, at a time where I didn’t even speak english good enough to write anything with substance, has not posted ever since ?

What do you mean, a mutual I’ve talked to somewhat regularly, and that I’ve tried to draw fanart for multiples times, in 2024, probably doesn’t even remember me ?

What do you mean, a mutual’s account I can’t even remember have now quit ?

But on the other side... I have known the mutual that quit, maybe only for a day, or a few weeks, but i have known them. I still have the art of that 2024 friend in my ibis paint gallery. I still have the username for an AU I genuinely thought we’d finish together. I still have the conversations we had in my tumblr dms.

I have a mutual, still there, still kicking, still reposting memes, well like two years ago, i thought their username was funny, so i drew it for them. We haven’t talked since, and yet she still has that drawing as his pfp, and still my username in her bio to credit it.

I have a mutual that I drew a fanart for, the very first time i saw their account. (because for some reason, it was the way i made friends on tumblr at that time. just. "you look cool. imma draw your oc.") We didn’t talk for a while, but then we talked again, and they remembered me. They still have that fanart.

I have adhd, so I have no idea where i’m heading, but i guess what i mean is :

You matter. You have an impact on people. Even people that forgot you. That you forgot. Maybe, some months after you stop posting for a while, someone, somewhere, is going to be worried for you.

When you deactivate your account, someone, somewhere, is going to ask themselves what happened to you. Wonder where you’ve gone, and when you’ll come back.

Someone, somewhere, will notice. Someone, somewhere, will remember you while going through their gallery and finding a fanart, going through their bookmarked fanfics, going through liked posts, going through old convos on wattpad, tumblr, or whatever the fuck and they’ll remember.

They’ll remember you. Because you were there.

You’ve loved, you’ve made mistakes, you’ve talked and drawn and wrote and did things.

What do you mean the person that helped me get a comprehensible storyline for the (now abandonned) tadc AU this account’s name literally CAME FROM, at a time where I didn’t even speak english good enough to write anything with substance, has not posted ever since ?

What do you mean, a mutual I’ve talked to somewhat regularly, and that I’ve tried to draw fanart for multiples times, in 2024, probably doesn’t even remember me ?

What do you mean, a mutual’s account I can’t even remember have now quit ?

But on the other side... I have known the mutual that quit, maybe only for a day, or a few weeks, but i have known them. I still have the art of that 2024 friend in my ibis paint gallery. I still have the username for an AU I genuinely thought we’d finish together. I still have the conversations we had in my tumblr dms.

I have a mutual, still there, still kicking, still reposting memes, well like two years ago, i thought their username was funny, so i drew it for them. We haven’t talked since, and yet she still has that drawing as his pfp, and still my username in her bio to credit it.

I have a mutual that I drew a fanart for, the very first time i saw their account. (because for some reason, it was the way i made friends on tumblr at that time. just. "you look cool. imma draw your oc.") We didn’t talk for a while, but then we talked again, and they remembered me. They still have that fanart.

I have adhd, so I have no idea where i’m heading, but i guess what i mean is :

You matter. You have an impact on people. Even people that forgot you. That you forgot. Maybe, some months after you stop posting for a while, someone, somewhere, is going to be worried for you.

When you deactivate your account, someone, somewhere, is going to ask themselves what happened to you. Wonder where you’ve gone, and when you’ll come back.

Someone, somewhere, will notice. Someone, somewhere, will remember you while going through their gallery and finding a fanart, going through their bookmarked fanfics, going through liked posts, going through old convos on wattpad, tumblr, or whatever the fuck and they’ll remember.

They’ll remember you. Because you were there.

You’ve loved, you’ve made mistakes, you’ve talked and drawn and wrote and did things.

I… guess I have 100 followers now? Yay?

Tbh this kinda crept up on me, I had no idea it was coming and then BAM!

So thanks for 100 followers! I know it’s tumblr and you can’t see people’s followers anyways and it’s not really a ‘popularity’ site and blah blah blah, but still, that’s 100 whole people who saw my stupid shit and went ‘ooh, I like this! Follow!’ And that means a lot to me.

I’d like to give a special thank you thank you to some beloved mutuals of mine (because I am cringe and love my online friendo critters)

@livykitty3 you were my first ever follower and first mutual and I love seeing your interests on my dash

@wondercircus-official another one of my first mutuals. I will never forget you, no matter how much time passes

And @diamond-draws you are 100X cooler than me and make some amazing stuff

There’s nothing.

NOTHING. IT DOESN’T HAVE A FANDOM.

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