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Summary: After a gruesome case that forces you undercover, Emily has a very special surprise waiting for you.
tags: established relationship, fem!reader, fem!BAU!reader, soft!dom!Emily, *smut (18+), lap sitting, teasing with strap-on in public, use of strap-on, some case discussion, not sure if the case makes any sense, it was mostly just there to set the scene for the smut
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“Morgan, there you are,” Rossi says, spotting your colleague as he takes off his jacket, stopping in front of your booth. “You’re late.”
“Had to take care of something,” Morgan replies, dropping a hand onto Rossi's shoulder before looking around at the crowded booth. “Damn. You guys really didn’t leave me any room, did you?”
He looks around at your group and the small seating area you have all squeezed yourselves into. The bar is packed, music blaring through the old speakers and crackling whenever the bass gets too deep. It smells of stale beer and old wood, but tonight, you’re home, finally, after an endlessly long case that had been particularly gruesome and challenging. That makes the choice of bar irrelevant. You needed somewhere to come together, somewhere to put it all behind you.
“No problem, we’ll make room.” Hotch shifts a little farther to the left, and you follow suit.
Squeezed between Emily and JJ, you feel warmth slowly seep into your body as you take another sip of your beer. Morgan moves to the other end of the bench and settles down beside Rossi, who slides a fresh glass toward him.
“We ordered one for you a little while ago,” he offers, and Morgan nods gratefully.
“Thanks.” Morgan presses his lips together, and takes a sip. “I needed that. Did you guys still…”
And even though you had promised yourselves you wouldn’t, the table once again falls into a discussion about the last case. The depths of the human psyche, the darkest places people can descend into, the motives behind what they do. Your thoughts follow the conversation, but you’re far too aware of Emily beside you, her leg pressed flush against yours from hip to knee. Whenever Emily laughs, the sound seems to travel straight through your body, her movement becoming yours.
Emily turns toward Penelope and leans slightly closer to you as she asks, “Penn, were you able to finish the analysis of the network traffic?”
“Mostly,” Penelope jumps in, lighting up at having been given the opening. “The unsub was careful, but not careful enough. He kept bouncing between the hospital’s guest network and three different compromised devices, probably thinking that would make it impossible to trace him back to the original access point.”
Emily raises her glass. “But you found it.”
“Of course I found it.” Penelope gives her an offended look. “It took me six hours, three cups of coffee, and a truly unreasonable amount of swearing, but yes. I found it.”
Morgan laughs from across the table. “And what did it tell us?”
“That he’d been using the hospital’s system for months. Long before anyone noticed anything was wrong. He wasn’t just hiding his activity, he was using it to keep track of where people were.”
Hotch leans forward, his forearms resting against the table, his white shirt pulling across his shoulders. “So the access logs were never random.”
“Exactly. He was building a pattern. Times, names, locations. He knew when people were alone.”
“And if he was monitoring their movements,” Reid adds, already piecing the information together, “he could have been using the network data to establish behavioral baselines. Knowing when someone deviated from their routine would have made them stand out to him.”
Hotch’s expression hardens at his words. “And once he had them alone, he needed to establish control.”
“He made all of them beg,” you add, remembering the details from the case files. “Before he attacked them.”
Reid’s brow furrows. “That wasn’t just about humiliation. Making them beg would have reinforced the power dynamic he was creating.”
Hotch gives a subtle nod. “Which fits with everything else we saw. He needed his victims to understand that he was in control.”
“And the locations weren’t random,” you continue. “They were familiar places. Places where the victims wouldn’t think twice about talking to a stranger.”
“Which means they may not have been selected because of who they were,” Hotch concludes, “but because of when they became predictable.”
“That’s what I think.”
“Exactly.”
Emily’s breath brushes your cheek, and you catch the scent of red wine from her glass, mixed with the faint trace of smoke left behind from the cigarette she had smoked outside. Her perfume, no longer quite as fresh as it had been this morning, is sharp and floral. Beneath it, there’s the coconut scent of her shampoo, now completely overtaken by the stale, smoky smell of the bar.
You force your gaze toward Penelope, but the conversation is already beginning to drift away from the case.
“At least we can officially say it’s closed,” Rossi adds, raising his glass.
“To closing this case and to Y/N,” Morgan adds. “Who had to actually stand there and let the creep flirt with her.”
You groan softly. “Please don’t remind me.”
“I still think the worst part was the waiting,” JJ says. “You were standing there for almost twenty minutes before he finally approached.”
“Twenty-three,” Penelope corrects.
Emily’s gaze drops to your outfit, taking in the short skirt and low neckline before returning to her wine. “Twenty-three minutes,” she murmurs. “That’s a long time to spend standing around in that.”
You glance at her. “I thought the outfit worked.”
“It did.” Her eyes meet yours for a moment. “Very well, from what I remember.”
Morgan snorts. “You two are ridiculous.”
You bite back a smile, while Emily merely raises an eyebrow at him.
“I remember thinking you were never going to get out of there,” Penelope adds. “I was practically holding my breath the entire time.”
“You weren’t the one standing there,” you point out.
“Yes, you're right. Which is why I was suffering from a perfectly safe distance.”
The conversation drifts on, everyone adding their own version of how long those twenty-three minutes had felt, but you barely register it anymore. Emily’s laughter beside you draws your attention back to her, the sound traveling straight through your body.
From the corner of your eye, you notice her leaning back, taking in the table and nodding whenever someone directs a question her way. She exhales noisily and lets her hand fall into her lap, spreading her legs a little wider as she does.
You swallow nervously, daring to glance down at her long-fingered hand, the veins barely visible beneath her skin in the dim light of the bar. What you can see all too clearly, though, are the tendons standing out beneath her skin, something you never manage to look away from. Not when it comes to Emily.
The rest of the conversation fades into the background. Emily is so close that you can feel the warmth of her beside you, and all you can think about is how every subtle movement seems to register somewhere beneath your skin.
Her knee presses more insistently against yours as Emily adjusts her legs, and you instinctively draw yours together in response, seeking the smallest bit of relief from the emotions threatening to overwhelm you. Just a little friction. Just enough to take the edge off.
“Everything okay, princess?” Emily’s voice is right beside your ear, goosebumps breaking out across your skin as her breath brushes your neck.
“Of course, Agent Prentiss,” you reply nonchalantly, taking another sip of your drink.
“You sure?” she presses amused, and you feel the gentle pressure of her fingertips against your bare knee.
You swallow nervously, giving yourself away with the tiny twitch in your throat, and Emily lets out a knowing laugh.
“You do seem a little worked up, though, hmm?” she murmurs quietly, the others far too engrossed in their own conversations to pay either of you any attention.
“I’m fine.” You tilt your head, looking at her over the rim of your glass. “What about you?”
“Hmm.” Her fingertips become fingers, curling leisurely around your knee, her nails pressing lightly into your skin. “Yeah. But it’s been a pretty exhausting day.”
A barely audible sound escapes you, but Emily raises an eyebrow, and you seal your lips shut. Satisfied, she gives a small nod, the pressure of her hand against your knee increasing.
“Y/N, can you tell us a little more about your theory regarding the way he selected his victims?” Rossi asks, pulling you out of your little bubble.
You cross one leg over the other, hiding Emily’s hand from JJ's view.
“Of course.” You clear your throat, hyperaware of Emily’s hand resting against your knee, her fingers now beginning to creep dangerously higher.
Rossi nods, waiting.
“I don’t think the locations were the deciding factor,” you explain, forcing yourself to focus on the conversation rather than the warmth of Emily’s palm against your skin. “I think they were a means to an end. He needed places where he could observe people without drawing attention to himself. Somewhere he could establish routines before he approached them.”
“Which would explain why the victims initially seemed completely unrelated,” JJ adds, resting her chin against her hand.
“Right.” You nod. “He wasn’t looking for a specific type of person. He was looking for a specific type of opportunity.”
“And the moment someone broke from their routine, they became interesting,” Hotch observes, his voice perfectly composed, while all you can think about is Emily’s hand still resting against your knee.
You glance at her, but she doesn’t even look at you.
“That’s my theory,” you manage.
“Good theory.” Rossi lifts his glass toward you. “And annoyingly enough, I think you’re right.”
The conversation carries on, laughter coming more easily now that the exhaustion of the past few days is finally beginning to loosen its grip on everyone.
There’s nothing particularly remarkable about any of it anymore. No case files. No crime scenes. No bodies. Just your team crowded around a too-small table, talking about bad movies, terrible coffee, and whose turn it is to bring snacks into the office.
Eventually, Morgan gets up to order another round, disappearing toward the bar with several empty glasses balanced precariously in his hands. When he returns a few minutes later, he somehow manages to carry everyone’s drinks without dropping a single one.
“See?” he announces proudly as he sets them down. “Perfectly under control.”
“Give it time,” Rossi mutters.
Morgan turns around and tries to sit back down, only to find considerably less room than there was when he left. He attempts to squeeze himself onto the bench anyway, loses his balance, and ends up half-falling sideways, one leg still on the floor and the other awkwardly planted on the seat.
“What the hell?” he exclaims, grabbing the edge of the table to steady himself.
The entire table erupts into laughter. Morgan looks directly at Emily, then at you, his eyes narrowing accusingly before he turns toward the rest of the group.
“Prentiss. Y/N.” He points at the two of you. “You’re the only couple here. Come on, make some room. We’re all friends here.”
Emily raises her eyebrows, completely unbothered. “You could try asking nicely.”
“I am asking nicely.”
Emily considers him for a moment, then lifts her glass. “You’re really not.”
“Prentiss.”
She sets her glass down with a quiet sigh. “Fine.”
With a knowing grin, Emily slips an arm around your waist and pulls you onto her lap. Her hands settle on your thighs, and you suppress a startled sound as she shifts you lower against her.
You almost let another betraying sound escape, but a warning pinch to your thigh makes you stop, swallowing it down as you force yourself to simply enjoy the warmth of her beneath you. You shift a little, moving forward and back to make yourself more comfortable, and Emily answers with a low, nearly inaudible hum.
Two can play the same game.
“Careful,” she murmurs into your ear, her breath ghosting over the sensitive skin. “Otherwise, you won’t get to enjoy this tonight.”
Your breath catches, and you can’t help but lift your hips a little bit before settling back down again. You can feel the strap-on all too clearly between your thighs, the length of it pressing against your skirt, creating just enough friction to make you bite the inside of your cheek.
You force yourself to pay attention to everyone else, laughing at the right moments and responding whenever someone addresses you, carefully schooling your expression whenever Emily shifts beneath you. She, meanwhile, appears completely unaffected, sipping her wine and following the conversation as though you aren’t sitting comfortably in her lap.
You glance at her once. She catches you looking. The smallest, most knowing smile touches the corner of her mouth before she turns back toward Rossi. You immediately look away. Somehow, you manage to survive the rest of the night without giving yourself away.
An hour later the evening finally winds down, glasses emptying one by one as everyone begins to gather their things. Coats are pulled from the backs of chairs, empty glasses pushed toward the center of the table, and the usual goodbyes exchanged as you all spill out onto the sidewalk.
You and Emily decide to take a taxi home rather than walk the twenty minutes, settling into the back seat as the city passes in a blur beyond the windows. You’re far too aware of the warmth of her beside you, of her hand resting casually against your thigh as if nothing about the evening had been unusual.
The ride home passes quietly, and before long, the taxi pulls up outside your apartment. You and Emily make your way inside, the familiar comfort of home settling around you.
The door clicks shut behind you, and absolute silence greets you. All you can hear is your uneven breathing and the soft clink of Emily dropping her keys into the bowl on the console.
You start to slip off your high heels, but a hand closes around your wrist before you can, stopping you in your tracks. You look up.
“You have been a good girl tonight.” Emily smiles at you affectionately, brushing a loose strand of hair behind your ear. “You deserve a reward. Bedroom. Now.”
Arousal rushes through you, but when you reach for your shoes again, Emily shakes her head. “Leave them on tonight.”
You nod obediently and head toward the bedroom, your hips swaying with every step, acutely aware of Emily’s eyes following you, tracking every movement.
At the doorway, you pause, one hand resting against the white wooden frame as you turn back toward your girlfriend. You admire the confidence in the way she carries herself, love the hunger in her eyes, and think back to the warmth of her hands against your bare thigh, the way you had sat on her lap, the unmistakable pressure between your thighs. Anticipation pools low in your stomach as Emily gives you a small nod toward the bed.
You hurry to obey.
Standing before you, she slowly begins to unbutton her red blouse. One button at a time, she opens it, revealing the black lace bra she bought a few days ago. Your mouth goes completely dry as her fingers slide beneath the waistband of her jeans, and you realize her hand is reaching for the strap.
Amused, she watches you and says, “Help me out of these clothes, will you, princess?”
Eagerly, you get to your feet, your legs unsteady, barely able to keep your balance on the thin high heels. You slip your trembling fingers beneath the fabric of her blouse, tracing your hands down from her shoulders until the blouse lands on the floor with a soft rustle.
Only a small light is on in the bedroom, bathing Emily’s pale skin in a warm, golden glow and catching in the dark strands of her hair as they fall loosely around her face. The contrast has always captivated you, the darkness of her hair against the luminous softness of her skin.
With your index finger, you trace the delicate strap of her bra upward, hook it beneath your finger, and give it a gentle tug. Then you release it abruptly, the taut strap snapping sharply against the bare skin of her shoulder, the sound echoing softly through the apartment.
Emily runs her tongue over her lower lip, then catches it between her teeth, biting down just enough to leave the damp skin glistening. You close the distance between you, kissing her softly. You reach behind her and undo her bra with one hand, earning an amused huff from Emily.
“Are you showing off, hon?”
“Maybe,” you admit cheekily, and Emily cups your face, her fingers tracing along your temples before slipping into your hair and gently pulling your head back.
“I love it,” she whispers, her lips swollen from kissing, and she tugs a little harder until you let out a quiet moan. “I love you. But now, undo my slacks.”
She presses you downward, her fingertips massaging your scalp as you slowly sink to the floor in front of her. Knees scraping against the wooden floor, the sting barely registering, you let your hands glide along the sides of her thighs. Your eyes linger on the belt around her waist, the buckle slightly off-center, just as you like it.
Your fingers find the buckle, and you carefully undo it, letting the belt loosen beneath your hands. Looking up with glassy eyes, you work at the button of her slacks. It pops open, followed by the zipper.
You wrap your arms around Emily’s hips, gripping the belt loops as you pull the black slacks down. You barely make it five centimeters, shifting them back and forth, before the strap springs free. It’s the blue one, your favorite one from your collection. She isn’t wearing any panties, just the black harness and blue strap. It must have been teasing her in just the right spot all night, because you can see the wetness between her thighs. You look up at her and grin, kissing her on the thigh, catching the scent of her arousal.
“How long have you been wearing that today?” you ask breathlessly as you help her step out of her slacks. Her hands steady themselves on your shoulders, tightening their hold when the silicone brushes against your face.
“You’d like to know, wouldn’t you?” One eyebrow arches, and her hand disappears into your hair again, pulling softly.
“Yes.” Your lips remain parted, and she pulls you up to your feet to kiss you.
You lose yourself in the passion of the kiss and barely notice as she slowly guides you backward toward the bed. Only when your calves brush against the mattress do you break the kiss and look at her questioningly.
“Since we were on the jet,” she murmurs against your lips, and you moan.
“What?” Your pupils widen at the thought of having spent hours sitting beside your girlfriend on the jet, Hotch and Rossi seated directly across from the two of you, all while she was wearing a strap-on and knowing she was going to surprise you with it later. “Emily.” Your voice sounds pleading, almost whiny, and she grins in satisfaction.
“Worth it.”
With those words, she pushes you onto the bed, lifts one of your legs, and runs her fingers along the bare skin.
A shiver runs through you as she rests your foot over her shoulder, her hand briefly closing around the delicate heel still on your foot, before she lowers herself onto the bed, slowly, deliberately, waiting. Her fingers work their way upward inch by inch, pausing at your knee before cautiously moving beneath your skin-tight skirt.
“This outfit drove me crazy all day,” she admits, playing with the hem of your skirt. “That undercover mission was a real challenge for me. Seeing you like that. Watching you flirt with our unsub. Watching him look at you. But knowing that tonight, you’d be kneeling in front of me. That was torture.”
Her fingers slip away from the fabric, and you spread your legs a little wider so her hand can slide up between your thighs. “And I can tell you couldn’t wait for this either, could you?”
“Yes, Emily,” you nod, licking your lips, one hand on your breast, the other wrapping tightly around her leg as it presses against your hip, grounding yourself against her.
Emily doesn't waste another second and skillfully presses her fingers against your clit, drawing a low moan from you. She moves her fingers up and down your panties, feeling how wet and warm you are, how ready for her.
"Then I won't keep you waiting any longer, hm, Princess?" she asks you with a smile on her lips as she pushes your panties aside. She runs her fingers through your slick folds, coating her fingers with your wetness.
She presses your legs farther apart until your skirt rides up to your hips. The tip of the strap presses against you, teasing you, but you only have eyes for Emily, who’s looking at you so lovingly that you pull her toward you to kiss her.
Emily’s teeth dig into your lip, and with her fingers she guides the strap against your entrance, dipping the tip in and out of your drenching pussy. As you can barely take it anymore, she fills you inch by inch, a loud moan of pleasure escapes your lips. Her hips keep moving forward until the full length has disappeared inside of you.
“So needy and ready for me. Right?” she husks against your hot skin, leaving feverish kisses along your jaw.
“Yes, yes,” you whisper between heavy breaths, “I need you...”
You look at her through your hooded eyes, closing them when she hits a particularly sensitive spot inside you, before saying, “All of you.”
Emily doesn’t hesitate for long. She slows down the pace of her thrusts and presses her thumb against your swollen clit, which is already throbbing with pleasure. “Everything okay, Princess?”
"Yes, like this." You squeeze your eyes shut, overwhelmed by the rush of arousal surging through you, making your toes curl. Emily stops moving, and you open your eyes in frustration. "Please, don't stop."
"Look at me," she commands, and you obey.
Her hand slides up your leg, still resting over her shoulder, but otherwise she doesn’t move. Impatiently, you shift your hips, but Emily holds you tight. She presses her lips against your calf and covers your skin with tender kisses. The sensation sends a shiver through you, your heart racing as you struggle to keep your eyes open, but Emily gently bites your leg. “What did I say?”
“I’m supposed to look at you,” you manage, swallowing as her tongue glides over the teeth marks she left on your leg.
"That's exactly what I said," she murmurs, and as you stare at her intently, she adds, "That's my good girl."
The praise pools between your legs, and just as you’re about to say something in response, she thrusts deep inside you and circles your clit again, causing your eyes to roll back in pleasure. But now Emily won’t stop, and the room is filled with the squelching sound of your pussy and the slapping of Emily’s hips against your thighs.
As your legs begin to tremble, she lowers your leg and draws you closer by the hips, penetrating you so deeply that you let out a throaty moan.
“Too much, Princess?” Her voice drops low, her free hand digging more firmly into your hip.
“No, no,” you manage to say, your voice choked with pleasure as you see stars, “Don’t stop. Please.”
"I’ve no intention of stopping. After all, I’ve been waiting all day for this," she growls, thrusting faster and faster.
Your chest rises and falls in quick, uneven breaths and Emily knows exactly how close you are to reaching your climax. A wicked grin settles on her face as she slowly slides out of you. Your body is twitching in anticipation and when Emily uses the tip to spread your wetness over your clit, you cry out, caught somewhere between pain and pleasure.
"Em," you plead excitedly, staring at her with wide eyes, "Please."
“Please what?” she asks, amused, as you try to move farther down the mattress, trying to sink the toy back inside you.
Emily’s hand shoots forward, fingers digging harshly into your hip as she holds you in place. “What do you want me to do?” There’s a defiant edge to her voice, rough and smug. At her tone your pussy clenches around nothing.
“Please,” you whine, “Fuck me hard.”
Hunger darkens her expression, her pupils blown wide until there’s barely any color left around them, and less than two seconds later the full length of the strap fills you once more, pressing against the right spot inside you.
“Fu-uck,” you cry, and Emily’s thumb circles your swollen bud faster, more firmly.
Just as your whole body begins to tremble and a flush spreads across your cheeks, neck and stomach, Emily grabs your hair and uses it to pull you up from the bed. With both arms, she guides you to the edge of the bed, pressing you tighter against her chest and thrusts deep into you at a new angle.
“Oh my god,” you gasp, and you dig your nails into her back until you leave marks.
“Touch yourself,” she instructs you, and your hand moves without hesitation.
Every part of you is tense, and it takes you less than three thrusts from Emily to reach your orgasm. Stars dance before your eyes, and you shake in Emily’s arms as she continues to thrust into you, slowly, gently, until you’ve come down from your high.
You laugh freely, blowing your hair out of your face. Your skin is damp with sweat as you look up at Emily. A grin spreads across her face before she leans down to press a kiss to your forehead.
“Damn, Em,” you whisper flustered, “You really liked my outfit, didn’t you?”
“Hmm. Very much so, but especially the thought that you only belong to me,” she replies, gently lowering you onto the bed as she slides the strap out of you. You whimper at the sudden loss.
Emily’s fingers glide over your puffy folds as she lowers herself before you: "And now it’s time for me to kneel before you, Princess."
I may or may not have a little smutty fic sitting in my drafts… anyone interested, or are you guys in full weekend mode? 🙈 I needed a little break from the series.
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Ever consider a part 2 to Golden hours? It was so good I need more. PLEASE 🥹
Thank you! I actually haven’t considered a Part 2 so far. Is there really interest in one? :) I could definitely see myself writing more about Lilia and Emily. ❤️
thinking about domestic evenings with emily….her leaning against the kitchen island watching as you cook….hugging her from behind and kissing her bare shoulder as you nuzzle into her neck…soft hugs and kisses as you both unwind from the day…emily rambling and ranting her day as she compliments you and the food in between rambles….the switch in her as she changes from her work clothes to comfy clothes…..
i have a lot of thoughts on the matter but i will say that fandom moving from semi-private blogs and communities to extremely public and algorithm-driven social media was a huge mistake that has changed fandom culture for the worse
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Summary: Emily makes it surprisingly easy to relax around her, even when she keeps finding new ways to make your heart race. You’re finally starting to understand that you’re not the only one affected by the growing closeness between you.
tags: college!reader, fem!reader, unitchief!emily prentiss, mutual pining, age gap, quiet tension, growing closeness, slow burn, use of y/n, secret handholding
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Your heartbeat stumbles at her words, sending a hot wave through your body. There is something about hearing Emily admit that she has been watching you too, about feeling her hand wrapped around yours beneath the table, that makes the moment feel more intimate than anything you could have imagined.
Her palm is warm against yours, her thumb resting loosely over your knuckles. You feel the gentle pressure of her fingers, the warmth of her skin slowly spreading through your hand. You enjoy the feeling more than you should, letting yourself sink into her touch until, for a moment, you forget how nervous you were only minutes ago. You had been so afraid of doing something wrong, of saying too much, of revealing more than you were ready to reveal, and yet here you are, holding Emily’s hand beneath the table as though this is where your hand has always belonged.
Needing to focus on something else before your expression gives you away, you gaze toward the window. Students hurry past with backpacks slung over one shoulder, someone struggles to convince a stubborn dog to keep walking, and a cyclist rings their bell at a group blocking the pavement. Ordinary life carries on around you, completely unaware that beneath this little café table, your fingers are intertwined with Emily’s and your heart is beating hard enough that you are convinced she must be able to feel it through your hand.
The world outside has not changed. But sitting here with Emily, you cannot shake the feeling that something inside you has.
“You’ve relaxed.” Emily’s voice is barely above a murmur.
You glance at her, unsure about yourself. “Have I?”
“At least a little,” she teases. “You were barely sitting still when Claire was here.”
You turn your hand until your fingers intertwine with hers. Your heart beats several times faster, afraid that you have gone too far or crossed a boundary you were not supposed to cross. But when her fingers close more firmly around yours, a smile finds its way onto your face before you can stop it. “I think that’s your fault.”
“I’ll gladly take the blame.” She looks down at your intertwined hands, her smile growing wider. “If it means you’re finally letting yourself relax around me, I can live with that.”
“You seem surprisingly okay with that.”
“I am.” Her answer comes without hesitation, and there is no teasing in it this time. “I like having you here. I like that you’re nervous and still choose to stay. So if holding your hand helps, I’m not going to complain.”
You look away again, mostly because you are certain that if you keep looking at her, she will notice exactly what those words do to you. She probably already has.
The sound of footsteps approaches, and you realize your little moment together is coming to an end. You expect Emily to pull her hand away, to create distance between you again before Claire can reach the table. Emily’s thumb stills, her fingers tightening around your hand one last time. She nods, and you nod too.
She doesn’t pull away right away, and neither do you. For another heartbeat, you remain like that, neither of you willing to be the first to break the contact. Then, slowly, her fingers loosen around yours, reluctant enough that you notice, careful enough that she still gives you every chance to let go first.
The warmth lingers against your skin long after her hand settles back around her coffee cup. You curl your fingers into your palm, as though you could hold on to the warmth a little longer, even after she is no longer touching you.
“I survived and my jacket is almost clean,” Claire announces triumphantly as she returns to the table, dropping back into her chair with an exaggerated sigh. “Although I’m convinced that hand dryer was specifically designed to make me look ridiculous. What did I miss?”
Your heart skips, and your leg starts bouncing again before you can stop it. Did she mean the conversation, or had she noticed what happened between you and Emily while she was gone?
Emily, on the other hand, calmly takes another sip of her coffee. “Nothing dramatic. The man over there ordered a strawberry cake, the woman over there…” She gestures with a small nod toward the left. “Has been waiting for a waiter for over ten minutes. She’s about to leave.”
Claire follows Emily’s gaze toward the other table, turning around to look. “Seriously?” she asks, lowering her voice as if she was afraid the woman in question might hear her. “Ten minutes?”
Emily nods. “At least.”
“That is impressive patience.”
You glance between them, grateful for the return to an ordinary conversation. Emily talks about the people around you, her voice relaxed as she comments on strangers waiting for their coffee, while you cannot stop thinking about the warmth of her hand around yours.
A few minutes ago, her fingers were intertwined with yours. Now she sits beside you as though nothing about the afternoon has changed, and maybe that is what makes the memory of her touch settle even deeper beneath your skin. She does not need to keep holding your hand or remind you what happened. She is right there beside you, calm and familiar, and you can feel the difference in everything anyway.
Claire looks back at the table in question before shaking her head. “I would have left after five minutes.”
“You say that,” Emily replies, “but you also once waited forty minutes for a restaurant table because you were convinced the reviews were too good to ignore.”
“That was different.” Claire points at her. “And coming from you? You read every single review before you go anywhere.”
“How was it different?” Emily asks, shrugging. “You trusted the reviews from a TikTok video. I read the actual ones.”
“It was a really good restaurant, and that many videos cannot all be wrong!”
A small laugh escapes you before you can stop it. Both of them turn toward you, and you freeze beneath their attention, suddenly aware that you have been listening for longer than you realized.
“What?” you ask.
Claire smiles. “Nothing. I just like that you’re finally laughing at Emily’s stories instead of looking like you’re preparing for an exam every time she speaks.”
“I do not do that,” you protest, but the moment the words leave your mouth, your face heats up. You can feel the warmth spreading across your cheeks, betraying you before you can even try to defend yourself.
Emily’s eyebrow arches slightly, and you point your coffee spoon at her. “Don’t.”
“I didn’t say anything,” she replies quickly, biting down on her lower lip.
You barely manage to tear your eyes away from her lips, and your voice comes out slightly rougher than before. “You didn’t have to.”
A small smile appears on Emily’s face. “I have to admit, I was thinking it.”
Claire laughs, shaking her head. “You two are really weird.”
The words should make you panic. They should make you overthink every interaction, every glance, every little thing Emily has done since she arrived. But somehow, they do not. Emily only smiles into her coffee, and there is no discomfort in the silence that follows.
Claire reaches for her phone when it lights up, checking the screen before putting it back down.
“Josh?”
She nods. “He wants to know if I really think his movie recommendation was terrible and what movies he should pick for our weekend trip.”
“That bad? I hope he picks better movies for your trip. We don’t want you dying of boredom.”
Claire has been nervous about her first trip with Josh for days now. A movie will probably be the least of her worries.
“Worse,” Claire admits. “I really hope the movies are better, because last time…”
Claire begins explaining the entire plot, her hands moving as she talks, completely invested in proving her point. Emily listens patiently, occasionally asking questions that only encourage Claire to continue. And you realize something. This is the side of Emily you rarely get to see.
Not the profiler everyone respects. Not the woman who walks into difficult situations and knows what to do. Not the person who carries the weight of other people’s worst moments. Just Emily. Sitting in a café, listening to Claire complain about a movie, smiling at a ridiculous story, and quietly brushing her knee against yours beneath the table whenever your thoughts start to drift too far away again.
Claire checks the time on her phone and sighs. “We should probably go. Otherwise we are going to miss the bus.”
You look toward the street and realize she is right. The sun has begun to sink behind the buildings, its fading light catching on the windows and windshields of the cars filling the street. There are more people outside now, more traffic, the city slipping into the rhythm of the late afternoon while you had barely noticed the hours passing. The afternoon had gone by much faster than you expected.
After putting on your coat, the three of you leave the café together. Claire walks a few steps ahead, already looking at the bus schedule on her phone and mumbling something about how public transportation somehow always manages to be unreliable exactly when she needs it.
At the entrance, Claire turns back toward Emily. “I’m really glad we got to see you. It was good catching up.”
“Me too. And I’m sorry I never know how long I’m going to be around.”
Claire shakes her head. “Don’t apologize. You know I understand.”
Emily reaches out and pulls her into another hug, shorter than the one they shared when you arrived, but no less genuine. “Text me when you get back,” Emily tells her.
Claire rolls her eyes, but there is no annoyance behind it. “You’re the one who disappears for days and you’re telling me to text you?”
A small laugh escapes Emily. “Yes, after all, I’m your godmother. I’m allowed to do that.”
“You’re right. You are.”
Claire adjusts her bag on her shoulder and starts walking toward the street. You follow her automatically, but after a few steps, you notice Emily is still beside you.
“I’m glad you came today,” Emily admits, her voice softer now that Claire is a few steps ahead of you. “Even if we saw each other yesterday.”
You look at her, caught off guard by the ease in her voice. There is no hesitation, no awkwardness, no sense that either of you needs to carefully step around yesterday. She talks about seeing you again like it was the most natural thing in the world.
“I’m glad I came too… although I have to admit…” You hesitate, suddenly aware of how difficult it is to put this into words. “I wasn’t sure what today would feel like.”
Emily’s gaze stays on you, a small crease forming between her brows. “After yesterday?”
You nod, then look away because you cannot quite manage to hold her gaze. “Yesterday was…” You stop, searching for a word that does not make your thoughts sound as exposed as they feel. “Different,” you finish.
A faint smile touches Emily’s mouth. “That’s not much of an explanation, Y/N. Try to explain it to me.”
There is no teasing in her expression. She is giving you time, but she is not letting you retreat behind a vague answer either.
“Yesterday it was just us,” you murmur eventually, your eyes fixed somewhere ahead as you make sure Claire is far enough away not to hear you. “There was no Claire. No one else around. You just showed up, and then you stayed, and…” Your voice falters. “I don’t know. It felt like yesterday belonged to us.”
Emily’s expression softens, and she looks at you with a warmth that makes your stomach twist. Part of you wishes you could pull the words back, while another part is relieved you finally let them leave your mouth.
“Yes,” she says eventually, slipping her hands into the pockets of her coat. “You’re right. It did. It was our time. Just the two of us.”
Your heart gives a painful little thud at her words. “And today?” you ask before you can stop yourself.
Emily glances toward the café behind you, then back at you. “Today was different. You were right about that. Claire was there, we were surrounded by people. We talked about cake and coffee and Penelope leaving snacks on my desk.” The corner of her mouth lifts. “It was a very normal afternoon.”
You lower your gaze, embarrassed by how much you needed her to say more.
“But I was still glad to see you.” She says it like an afterthought, then gives your shoulder a gentle bump with hers.
The words settle somewhere deep inside you, warm and terrifying at once. “I wasn’t sure if you would be,” you admit.
“Why?”
You give a small, helpless shrug. “Because yesterday was… a lot. And I didn’t know what today would be like. I didn’t know if you’d want to go back to pretending it was just a moment that happened and nothing more.”
Her eyes remain on you. “Did you think I wanted that?”
You shake your head almost immediately. “No.”
“Then what were you afraid of?” she asks gently, a crease forming between her brows.
You hesitate, your fingers tightening around the strap of your bag. “That maybe yesterday meant more to me than it did to you.”
For the first time, Emily looks genuinely caught off guard. Not because she does not know what to say, but because the thought itself seems to hurt her.
“Y/N… I wouldn’t have come back today if I wanted yesterday to mean nothing. I could have stayed in my hotel. I could have told Claire I was too busy. I had plenty of reasons to do exactly that.” A faint smile touches her lips. “I came here because I wanted to see you again.”
You look down, your nerves tightening all over again. “That’s kind of the problem.”
Claire remains absorbed in her phone, completely unaware of the conversation happening only a few feet away, while your heart beats hard enough to climb into your throat.
“How is that a problem?”
“Because now I have even more to think about.”
A quiet laugh escapes her, warm rather than teasing. “You do realize you’re allowed to think about it, right? You don’t have to decide what it means today.”
“Neither of us does,” she adds.
When your gaze finds hers again, you search her expression for hesitation, for some sign that you have misunderstood everything she has been trying to tell you. But there is none. “Okay.”
Emily nods once, a small smile on her lips. “Okay.”
She looks as though she might add something, but her attention shifts toward the street ahead. Before you can ask what she was going to say, Claire’s voice reaches you from a few steps ahead. “Y/N?”
You both look over. Claire slips her phone into her pocket and waits, clearly wondering why you are still standing there. “You coming?”
The moment breaks, but not completely. Emily looks back at you, a small smile lingering on her face. “Go,” she urges softly. “I’ll see you.”
You want to say more. You want to stay, to lose yourself in her arms again, to lean closer and press a kiss to her cheek. But you force yourself to take a deep breath and choose the sensible thing, even when every part of you wants to do anything but. Especially when those little dimples appear in her cheeks.
“See you,” you reply, letting out a reluctant breath.
Then you hurry the few steps toward Claire, while Emily watches you leave.
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Summary: Finally at the café, you try to act as normal as possible, but how are you supposed to do that after your last encounter with Emily? Between Claire’s observations, coffee, and cake, Emily somehow finds a way to ease your nerves.
tags: college!reader, fem!reader, unitchief!emily prentiss, mutual pining, age gap, quiet tension, growing closeness, slow burn, use of y/n, teasing and flirting, Claire getting suspicious
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You have changed your outfit three times.
Every single outfit on your bed seems like the wrong choice. It is ridiculous. You are going to a café and you are meeting Emily for coffee. That should not be enough to make you stand in front of your closet like you need to impress her. It is just a normal afternoon with your best friend and her godmother.
But if you are honest, it is Emily, and normal would be the wrong kind of definition after yesterday. You had stood together in front of your dorm, you wrapped in her jacket, while Emily looked at you as though she wanted to hold on to the image forever. You think back to her embrace, to the way she told you she wanted to see you again. And how could something like that be normal when she had driven all this way just to see you?
You have tried not to overthink it, you have terribly failed.
“Are you finally ready?” Claire’s voice pulls you out of your thoughts, and you turn around to find her standing in the doorway, already wearing her coat. Her eyes move over you, then toward the clothes on your bed, and finally back to you. The small smile on her face tells you that she knows something is going on.
“Do not”, you warn her with a finger in the air, checking your outfit one last time.
“I did not say anything.”
“You were about to,” you complain.
Claire laughs softly and steps into the room. “Y/N, it is Emily.”
You look away, pretending to search for something in your bag. “I know.”
“No, I do not think you do.” She shakes her head, amused. “She has seen you during our visit at home, in pajamas, I might add. She has seen you after you have slept three hours. And she has seen you after the mall… I promise you, she is not sitting there wondering if your sweater is the right choice.”
You hate that she is making sense, because Claire does not understand why this feels different for you. Why you are making a fuss about your choice of outfit. How could she? To her, Emily is familiar. Safe. Someone she trusts. Someone who has always been there in some way. She does not know that yesterday Emily stood outside your dorm, held your hand, kissed your cheek, and left you standing there feeling like the entire world had shifted.
She does not know that you have thought about it every few hours since and you definitely cannot tell her.
Claire jingles the keys in her hands, gives your outfit a thumbs up, and gestures toward the door. “Come on. Before we’re late.”
The city is crowded with people, and when you step out of the far too full bus, Claire throws you a look of exaggerated annoyance. “If we had left earlier, we wouldn’t have had to squeeze ourselves into a school bus.”
“Sorry,” you mumble, looking around as you try to get your bearings.
The café is outside of your usual route, in an area you do not visit often. The streets are filled with people in business attire, suits, polished shoes, and ties as far as the eye can see.
“This way,” Claire says, glancing at her phone and following the arrows on her navigation. “Five more minutes walking.”
Five minutes later, you stop in front of a small café. A red-and-white striped awning hangs above the entrance, and two potted plants sit beside the door. The windows are slightly fogged, but through the glass, you spot Emily sitting at a free table.
Her gray hair is worn loose today, soft waves curling at the ends, one strand falling into her face. Beneath her black blazer, a blue blouse is visible. You like the color, although red suits her better. She sits near the window, waiting, one hand tapping an unfamiliar rhythm against the tabletop while the other rests on her thigh. She looks different from yesterday. Less exhausted, more composed, but you can see the traces of the long day behind her eyes.
Claire pushes the door open, and a small bell announces your arrival. Emily’s eyes find you instantly. You had tried to prepare yourself internally for every possible scenario, but your mind goes completely blank. There is a difference between thinking about seeing someone again and actually seeing them. Even though it has been less than twenty-four hours since the last time you saw each other.
You just stand there in the middle of the entrance, feeling Emily’s eyes skim over your outfit, your face, with the knowledge that yesterday is still between you. That both of you remember it. The hug. The kiss on your cheek. The way neither of you seemed quite ready to say goodbye.
Claire, completely unaware of the conversation happening without a single word, brightens at the sight of her godmother. “Emily!” The excitement in her voice breaks the moment, and you feel relieved to be out of the spotlight.
Claire slips past you and reaches Emily within a few steps.
“Claire,” Emily greets her. “It is so good to see you. How are you?”
The hug is effortless, natural. It reminds you again that Emily is not just someone Claire knows. She is her family. Claire trusts and looks up to her, and has always spoken about her with so much warmth that you understand why seeing her again means so much.
“I’m good. And you? How was your drive?”
They are talking excitedly about Emily’s drive and the school bus debacle, but you remain frozen in place. That is, until Emily’s gaze finds yours again.
You do not know what you are supposed to do. A hug feels like too much, a formal greeting totally wrong. Yesterday, you had been close enough to feel her heartbeat, to smell her perfume. She had held you like it was the easiest thing in the world. Today, there are so many people around you, Claire right beside you, and you are painfully aware that you have no idea what the rules are anymore. Emily seems to realize it at the exact same moment.
Her expression softens, but you can see the faint smile tugging at the corners of her lips. You know she is not making fun of you or your reaction. She understands what is happening inside your head, the battle you are fighting between what feels right and what feels like too much. She tilts her head and looks at you expectantly, leaving the decision entirely up to you, letting you decide how you want to handle the situation.
“Hi,” you manage to say and your voice sounds much steadier than you feel. You take a small step toward her, leaving only an arm’s length between you.
“Hi,” she replies, giving you a reassuring smile.
“Well,” Claire mumbles, taking off her coat as she looks between the two of you, “that was the most dramatic hello I have ever witnessed.”
Your face heats at her words, and you have to admit, you are completely thrown off. Whatever clever answer might have existed disappears from your mind, leaving you painfully aware that you have no idea what to say.
When you look at Emily, she is hiding a smile as she says, “Was it?” Emily always seems to know exactly how to react in situations like this, or at least it feels that way to you. Unlike the way you stumble through them, never quite sure what to say or where to look.
You turn uncertainly toward Claire before finding Emily again, her hand settling on your shoulder as she gives it a gentle squeeze and guides you toward the chair. A warm shiver runs through you, and you are certain Emily notices it. Her fingers press a little more firmly into your shoulder before she lets go.
“Yes.” Claire sits down. “You two were standing there like you forgot how conversations work.”
You breathe out once, still feeling the heat in your cheeks, while Emily laughs softly and takes the seat right beside you. Maybe that is her strategy, never giving Claire enough of a reaction to make things worse.
“If you’re hungry, we can still order from the food menu until half past.”
Claire turns toward you, her brows pulling together. “I still cannot believe you nearly made us late. We would have missed the food.”
“Excuse me? I didn’t know you already wanted to eat again. We had a huge burger at the dining hall.”
Claire shakes her head, clicking her tongue. “I didn’t finish the burger. Besides, we had to leave earlier because you still wanted to change. And then you changed again. And again.”
“I genuinely didn’t,” you protest, avoiding looking in Emily’s direction.
“You changed your shirt twice and then went for this sweater.” Your entire body stills for a second at Claire’s words, and from the corner of your eye, you notice Emily watching you. “I told you it was fine. You could have just worn the first one. We’re only having coffee, not walking a runway.”
“Claire,” you grumble warningly, heat creeping up your face again. “You are making this sound much worse than it was.”
Never before have you felt so exposed, and the fact that it is your best friend putting you on the spot does not make it any better. You bite the inside of your cheek nervously, your fingers playing with the hem of your sweater as you avoid looking up.
“You think?” Claire asks, laughing. “It is true, all the options would have been fine.”
You look up, ready to say something, just as Emily turns toward you, amusement already visible in her expression. Instead of saying anything, she reaches for the menu and slides it across the table toward you.
“What?” you ask, suspicious of the smile she is trying not to show.
“Nothing.”
You narrow your eyes at her. “That doesn’t look like nothing.”
“I was just thinking.”
“That is never a good sign,” you mumble, finally taking the menu from her.
Claire laughs at the exchange, scratching her jaw as she nods in agreement. You, on the other hand, want nothing more than to disappear.
Emily laughs under her breath. “How many shirts did you actually try?”
You stare at her. “I’m not telling you.”
“Three?”
“No.”
“Four?”
You look at her, offended, and playfully swat at her arm. “I am not answering that.”
Her smile grows at your defensiveness. “Five?”
“You are enjoying this far too much.”
“Maybe a little,” she admits with a laugh, her hand brushing against your forearm for a second.
You shake your head, but you cannot stop the smile pulling at your own mouth. “You’re impossible.”
“And yet you’re smiling.”
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
You roll your eyes, unable to suppress a smile as you press your lips together to keep from laughing out loud. It is only when you turn toward Claire that your smile fades. She has been watching the two of you without saying a word, a questioning expression settling across her face. Her gaze moves from you to Emily and back again before she disappears behind her menu. Your heart beats a little faster. Did she notice something?
“You know, Claire was right,” Emily declares. “You should have worn the blue shirt.”
Your eyes widen. “Excuse me?”
Claire lowers her menu a little, and the expression on her face tells you she knows something between you and Emily has changed. Emily, however, carries on talking as though she has not noticed. “She said you should just wear what you picked first.”
You stare at her, then at Claire, pointing from one to the other. “You talked about this?”
“Briefly,” Emily admits, gesturing toward her phone. “We texted an hour ago because I sent her the location.”
“Traitor,” you mutter.
“I believe her argument was that it is only coffee and she does not understand why you were tearing your wardrobe apart. Is that right, Claire?”
“Yes,” Claire answers, only half listening, completely absorbed by the overwhelming selection of food. Or perhaps she is only pretending to be. You cannot tell.
“She does not understand,” you say a little quieter, feeling your heartbeat speed up far too much.
“No,” Emily agrees, looking at you. “I don’t think she does, but I do.”
But I do. The words repeat themselves in your head, over and over, until you can no longer hold Emily’s gaze and your eyes drop to the words you have already read for what must be the tenth time. Water, Coke, Sprite. Your fingers tremble slightly as you turn the page.
The moment passes when Claire starts talking again, and you are grateful for the distraction. You order your drinks, and Claire decides on a small piece of cake.
Claire’s cake arrives a few minutes later, and she looks at the large slice in front of her with obvious excitement. “I have to show this café to Isabelle. She loves cake.”
At the mention of the name, your leg starts bouncing nervously beneath the table. It is an annoying habit, one you have never managed to get rid of. The thought of talking about Isabelle now makes you uneasy, and you know it has everything to do with Emily beside you.
“Try it first,” Emily encourages, taking another sip of her coffee. “Just in case you recommend it to her and it turns out it’s terrible.”
Claire nods eagerly and picks up a piece with her fork. “You’re right.” She takes the first bite and hums dramatically. “Oh, she’s definitely coming here.”
Your leg keeps moving and moving. You know this is a completely normal conversation. Nobody has said anything wrong, and nobody is paying attention to you, but the uneasy feeling inside you refuses to disappear.
You think back to your conversation with Claire, when you told her that you did not like Isabelle as much as she wanted you to. Maybe that is where the feeling comes from. Or because Emily was on the phone that night, listening as Isabelle came over to you, and never brought up the party or Isabelle again. You do not even know what exactly you are afraid of anymore, but your body seems to know on its own.
Without looking at you, Emily lowers her gaze toward the space beneath the table. You feel the warmth of her knee pressing lightly against the outside of your leg. Barely any pressure. Your breath catches at the contact, and you let your leg go still beneath hers.
Emily continues listening to Claire as if nothing happened, nodding at something she says before taking another sip of her coffee. She never looks at you, but her knee stays exactly where it is.
“Okay… this is actually amazing.” Claire stares at the piece of cake in complete disbelief before looking back at Emily. “I’m serious. I think this might be one of the best cakes I’ve ever had.”
Emily smiles into her coffee. “That’s a bold statement after three bites.”
“No, listen.” Claire lifts her fork as if she were about to defend a dissertation. “This is exactly the kind of cake Isabelle loves. Not too sweet, fluffy, the cream isn’t heavy…” She takes another bite before she can finish her own sentence and lets out another satisfied hum. “She’s going to lose her mind.”
“So you’ve already decided for her?” Emily asks, amusement flickering across her face. You study her thoughtfully, going over the evening of the party in your head. Does the mention of Isabelle really not affect her at all? Are you just overthinking this?
Claire looks at you, then at Emily, and shrugs innocently. “She’ll thank me later. She usually does.”
Emily glances at the nearly empty plate, her knee still pressing against yours. You are grateful for the gesture and, at the same time, shocked by the effect this woman has on you. “Good thing I suggested this café, huh?”
“Oh, yeah.” Claire laughs. “Although I don’t understand how you always find places like this.”
Emily’s fingers curl around her mug before she answers. “I’ve had a lot of practice. There were years when I practically lived in cafés. Waiting for witnesses, writing reports, meeting people who refused to come to the office. After a while, you start remembering which places have decent coffee.”
You listen closely to Emily’s words, and you start to understand the kind of life she lives. How many compromises she has to make. How rarely she is actually home.
Claire leans forward and taps the side of her forehead. “Let me guess. You still read the reviews beforehand.”
“I do. I like knowing what I’m recommending before I invite someone. You know that. It’s no secret.”
Claire smiles warmly and claps her hands under her chin. “That is so you. You always looked up restaurants whenever we went on trips. Dad almost lost his mind every time you found a new place with great steaks.”
You listen, your eyes lingering on Emily’s expression and the relaxed position of her shoulders. She speaks freely, her answers coming before she has time to reconsider them. There are no pauses where she weighs how much she wants to reveal, no careful explanations added afterward. You realize how rarely you get to see her like this, with her guard down, her words less measured, and for once, you are not wondering what she is leaving unsaid.
“So,” Claire continues, brushing a few crumbs from the table, “how’s everyone?”
You furrow your brow, wondering who Claire means, while Emily’s smile tells you she already knows.
“They’re good. The usual banter here and there, but we’re getting along.” She gives her goddaughter a small wink. “Same as always.”
“Still surviving each other?” Claire asks, and you assume she means Emily’s team. There is something familiar in the way they talk about them, as though you have walked into a conversation that started long before you arrived.
“Barely.”
Claire laughs, reaching for her glass before adding, “And Penelope?”
Your brows draw together again. You wish you could follow their conversation a little better, but for now, you are left listening, trying to piece together the people and stories you have only ever heard mentioned in passing.
Emily’s smile grows. “She’s still convinced everyone in the office is chronically underfed.”
“Because they are,” Claire says, completely serious.
Emily laughs, shaking her head. “I think she says that every time someone skips lunch.”
“Which is why she’s probably right. I hope she’s keeping an eye on you.” There’s an undertone in Claire’s voice, and you can’t shake the feeling that there is some history behind those words.
“I think that has become a full-time job,” Emily admits, her attention drifting toward Claire’s cake, which has been untouched on her plate for several minutes now. “She left another bag of snacks on my desk yesterday.”
“Did you actually eat them this time?” Claire asks teasingly, eating another forkful of her cake.
Emily hesitates just long enough for Claire to grin knowingly. “…Eventually.”
Claire has told you plenty of times about Emily’s unhealthy eating habits. How rarely she eats regularly, how often she orders food because she never has time to cook. Your thoughts drift back to yesterday evening, to Emily telling you about Taco Bell and how she ate three meals there for three days.
You think back to Judy’s attempt to send her off with as much food as possible when Emily was called away for a case back then. Everyone seems to know these things about her. Everyone except you. Your leg starts bouncing again and the pressure against your knee intensifies.
“And Rossi?” Claire continues, taking another bite of her cake.
At the mention of his name, Emily's face lights up. “He still gets to the office before everyone else.”
“I don’t think that man sleeps. So what brought you here this time?”
The question settles over the table. You turn your attention toward Emily, whose eyebrow lifts at her goddaughter’s question. “A consultation. The local department asked for another set of eyes. We’ve been working with them for the last couple of days.”
“So you’re staying a little longer?” Claire asks hopefully.
You catch your lower lip between your teeth. Would Emily stay longer and want to see you again? Would she text you, ask you to go for a walk in the middle of the night? You know you shouldn’t hope for her to find time for you again… but the wish is there, stronger than you would like to admit.
“I can’t say that yet. It depends on how the case develops and what needs to be done afterward,” Emily replies.
Your stomach drops and your leg jerks upward again, but Emily’s knee meets yours again, stopping the movement before it can go any further.
You glance toward her, but her attention remains on Claire, who is watching her godmother with visible disappointment. “You don’t know?”
Emily shakes her head, her knee remaining against yours. “It depends on how the investigation develops.”
Claire sighs, and you do your best to keep your own disappointment from showing. “I hate when you say things like that.”
Emily gives her an apologetic smile. “I know, but that’s my job. I can’t change that. But if I stay longer, we’ll see each other again. I promise.”
“No…” Claire smiles as well, shaking her head. “I don’t mean it like that. I just wish your job came with normal working hours every once in a while.”
“So do I.” Something unreadable crosses Emily’s face, but it disappears as quickly as it appeared. You cannot help but wonder whether she is thinking about her job or about yesterday. About what it would be like to have more time next time, enough to plan something instead of letting the hours disappear.
Claire reaches for her coffee again. “And next time you’re here—” Her sleeve catches the handle and the cup tips in slow motion.
“Shit!” Claire jumps to her feet and grabs the cup, but the coffee is already completely gone. Coffee has spilled everywhere. “I’m so sorry.”
“It’s okay,” Emily answers as you reach for the napkins at the exact same time, causing your fingers to brush against hers. Together, the three of you quickly wipe up the coffee, catching the last drops before they reach the edge of the table or make an even bigger mess.
Claire looks down at the brown stain on the sleeve of her cardigan and lets out a disbelieving laugh. “Well… I guess I’m going to the bathroom.” She grabs a handful of napkins, her phone, and her bag. “I’ll be back before I manage to embarrass myself any further.”
A smile spreads across your face, and you finally feel comfortable enough to contribute something to the conversation. “I don’t think that’s possible.”
“Very funny.” Still shaking her head, Claire disappears behind the corner that leads to the restrooms, muttering something about never being trusted with hot drinks again.
The small bell above the café door rings as another customer enters. Somewhere behind the counter, cups and saucers clink together. Someone laughs at the next table, and the coffee machine hisses in the background. You watch Claire disappear from sight, and then you are left with the awareness that the conversation had never really stopped while she was here. She had filled every silence before either of you even noticed it existed. Now there is nothing left to hide behind.
Your gaze settles on the coffee swirling lazily inside your cup, but concentrating on it proves impossible. Every thought circles back to the same thing. Emily. She is sitting close enough that your knees brush beneath the table, and you cannot remember when you stopped leaving space between you.
Now that Claire is gone, you notice every little detail you had managed not to think about before. The warmth of Emily’s knee. The soft brush of her blazer sleeve against your arm whenever she reaches for her cup. The faint scent of her perfume, lingering in the space between you and growing stronger whenever she turns toward you.
Your fingers tighten around the cup, the warmth of the porcelain giving you something else to focus on. It does not last. Out of the corner of your eye, you notice Emily looking at you.
“You’ve disappeared again.” Her voice is quiet, blending into the sounds of the café around you.
You blink, looking up. “Sorry, what?”
“You were somewhere else for a minute.”
A nervous smile tugs at your lips. “I don’t think I went anywhere. I was right here.” You don’t miss how defensive you sound, and sigh.
“No?” Her gaze stays on you, patient rather than demanding.
You shake your head, even though you know exactly what she means. “I was just thinking.”
“And what were you thinking about?” she asks gently, her eyes flickering toward your legs. “About why you’re so nervous? Or why you changed your shirt three times?”
Caught, you look at her, warmth spreading across your cheeks. “Nervous? Me? I’m not…”
“Your outfit changes tell me something else. Besides, you have this habit of bouncing your leg whenever a topic makes you uncomfortable or you don’t know how to handle a situation.” She pauses. “You did it when we talked about Isabelle, too.”
Your stomach tightens at the name, and you still your leg. “You noticed that?”
“I notice a lot.”
You stare at her, unsure whether that answer makes you feel more exposed or safe. “I keep forgetting that nothing gets past you,” you murmur, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. “You just notice everything.”
“Not everything, Y/N.” She takes a deep breath before adding, “I notice you.”
The words are spoken so naturally that they take a second to settle. When they do, they leave your heart beating painfully against your ribs. There is no teasing in her voice, no hidden joke you can use to make the moment less intimate. She says it as though it is the most obvious thing in the world.
You look down at your cup, unable to meet her eyes. “That’s… probably worse.”
“Why?” she asks, her eyes dropping to your hand, your fingers pressing into your thigh hard enough to leave little crescents in your skin.
“Because now I’m wondering what exactly you’ve noticed,” you admit, finding the crumbs scattered across the floor far more interesting than anything else in the café.
Her smile deepens, but she does not immediately answer. “Would you really want me to tell you?”
You glance at her again, and the warmth in her eyes is enough to make you regret the question before you even answer. Why do you always have to say everything that crosses your mind? “I don’t know, probably better if you don’t.”
“That’s okay.” Her voice remains calm. “You don’t have to know yet.”
You look at her for another second, trying to understand how she manages to make something as simple as being noticed feel so much more intimate than it should.
“I still don’t really know how to act around you.” The confession escapes you against your will. You wish you could catch it and put it back where it came from, but it is already sitting between you.
You expect her to laugh or reassure you, but she does neither. Very slowly, Emily’s hand leaves the side of her coffee cup. Your eyes follow the movement, expecting her to reach for it again, but she lowers her hand into her lap, closer to where your own hand rests hidden beneath the table.
Your breath catches at her proximity. She does not look at you and does not make the moment bigger than it is. She simply leaves her hand there, giving you the choice of how to react. No pressure. No expectation. Just an open hand waiting in the space between you.
By now, she knows exactly how you work, and that makes your nerves intensify. There is something unbearable about being understood this easily, about knowing she has noticed the things you have been trying so hard to hide. She notices the smallest changes, the things everyone else misses. But this feels different. This is not Emily reading a person across a table because it is part of what she does. This is Emily paying attention to you.
You let your own hand settle beside hers, already feeling her body heat as nervousness moves through you. Her eyes drop to your hand and then return to yours, searching for your consent. When you nod, her fingers move closer, her fingertips brushing the back of your hand.
You remain exactly where you are, your fingers tingling beneath her touch. She turns her hand, letting her fingers settle around yours, hidden from everyone else. The warmth of her hand seeps into yours, and when her thumb moves over your knuckles, you have to remind yourself to breathe. This woman affects you in a way you have never experienced before.
“You don’t have to know,” she murmurs, her thumb moving across your knuckles once more. “You don’t have to figure it all out. We can just let it happen.”
You let out a shaky laugh. “I’m not sure I’m doing any of it well.”
“I don’t think you’re giving yourself enough credit,” she replies, her voice carrying a warmth that makes it difficult to dismiss the reassurance as mere kindness. “You’re nervous, and you’re still here. You’re trying, even when you have no idea what you’re supposed to do next. I think that counts for something.”
“I’ve spent the last ten minutes trying not to stare at you,” you admit with a quiet laugh, closing your eyes in embarrassment. Of all the things you could have said, that had to be the one. “So I’m not sure I’m doing any of this very well.”
“I know,” is all she says, and you look at her in confusion. The answer is so immediate, so certain, that you almost wonder if you heard her correctly.
“You know?” you ask, unable to believe it.
“I’ve spent the last ten minutes pretending not to notice.” A small dimple appears on her right cheek as she says it. “I thought I was being subtle, but apparently neither of us is particularly good at pretending today.”