Cest le vie

“Stay away from the ones you love too much. Those are the ones who will kill you.”

“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”

“I’m only afraid of what I want.”

“It all meant something. Until it didn’t.”

“I spent my life learning to feel less.”

“Sometimes you just say “I’m fine” because it’s difficult to find someone who actually listens and cares.”

“It’s been very rare to have known you, very strange and wonderful.”

“If you can’t do anything about it, then let it go. Don’t be a prisoner to things you can’t change.”

“I want too much, she thought. I want everything. I want day and night, sleeping and waking, world without end, amen. Someone warned her once that it was fatal to tell a man you loved him. ‘What I really want,’ she said, ‘deep down, is stillness, safety. The feeling you’d always be there. I love you. I think I must have loved you without knowing it all my life.’”

“But I would rather be alone. Than pretend I feel alright.”