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and i never tell

tell me to jump over

i’ll tell them i fell

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multi fandom multi shipper king over here….

- the x files

- iwtv

- good omens

- simon snow series

- arcane

- yellowjackets

- tgswiiwagaa

- harry potter (fuck jkr)

i’ve been feeling so incredibly empty lately and sad and alone. i am part of a magazine at school and i told my friends about it and reminded and asked them to come to the reception for the magazine and they didn’t answer me. we’ve known each other for less than a year, im only a college freshman, but i thought that they would show up for me in a friend way. they didn’t even respond to my messages.

i keep wondering if they care, if i’m worth caring about, if i will be recognized for anything. the world is so big, and everything i worry about is so trivial, none of it fucking matters. i’ve been so crushed for so long and i can’t let it go, i feel like im just digging a deeper and deeper hole, where my insecurities will get the better of me.

i believe so deeply in my skills and smarts, but i have no confidence to show it, and it’s crushing me. i don’t know how to get over myself, get out of my head. i want to be free of it all.

i wrote this earlier:

a presence hangs down below and follows my every footstep until i am annoyed to my core. she knows what’s wrong but she asks anyway.

i answer “same as always”

she asks “why don’t you just throw it away?”

i can’t, i say, i can’t do that because you’re here, too.

i made an edit….

i’ve never done this before

is this a mark of true obsession

i need this webcomic to gain nationwide recognition so that i can say i liked it first

fascinating

in the original series, mulder and scullys relationship is very clear; there’s tension but for the most part, they aren’t together.