mf girl king™️

Tomorrow, my last day

I will love you

And then I will leave

And you’ll stay in summer

As I head into the cold.

Tomorrow, my last day

I will think of you

And then I leave

And I will love who you were

Never finding out who you become.

Tomorrow, my last day

I will smile at you

And then I will leave

And my heart will be free

As my mind leaves you behind.

You will grow.

I will move on.

You will not think of me.

I will not miss you.

Because the more time passes, the harder it is to keep believing in stories.

Including the one where everyone finds the perfect one.

Maybe someone will settle for me.

But I don’t think I could be the one that makes someone nervous.

I don’t think I could ever be the one to make someone smile just by thinking about me.

See, what happens to me is

They are interested for a few days,

When they’re bored

When they’ve been heartbroken

But after a few days

They move on

And I’m left pining over someone who was never worth my time

But for a few moments, made me feel wanted.

i want to live as long as I can

and then die when im done.

i don’t want my death to drag along

with more hospitals and less homes

with more pity and less love.

i want to fly away with my memories

and not watch them fly without me

i want my death to be my next adventure

and not another lifetime of dying.

i dont want to go like my grandparents

frail

skeletal

blank

dust.

i am not afraid of death

or what awaits

i am afraid of dying

and living in death.

hey, mom, i met a boy