CUZ HEAR ME OUT đ makeshift wedding with carl.. maybe even makeshift âhoneymoonâ at a small, secluded cabin by a lake
đđđđđ đšđđ, carl grimes.
a/n: FIRST REQUEST YIPPEE MOMENT I loved this idea!! sososo cute đ€ I couldn't think of a good honeymoon scene so I hope you like my imagine of the first part!!
cw: none! I kinda changed the writing style in the end JUST a little and now I'm too lazy to change it but the storyline's the same, also this is quite lengthy too.
The first thing you noticed after every fight was always the silence.
Not the peaceful kind. Not the kind people talked about when they imagined quiet mornings or empty fields or nights spent watching the stars. This silence was heavier than that. It was the silence that came after gunshots stopped echoing, after people finally stopped shouting names into the chaos, after everyone had counted the living and the dead and silently thanked whatever was left of the world that the number of survivors hadnât changed.
Alexandria had gone quiet again. Not completely. It never really was anymore. There were always things happening; the scrape of boots against dirt as people moved supplies, the distant hammering of someone repairing a damaged wall, the murmur of voices as everyone checked on each other. But compared to what it had been only hours before, compared to the noise and panic and fear that had filled the streets, it felt almost unnatural.
You stood near one of the houses, watching people move around with the same exhausted expressions they always wore after surviving something that should have killed them.
It was becoming a pattern. A horrible, exhausting pattern.
Someone would threaten them. Someone would take something from them. Someone would convince them they were stronger than they really were. And every single time, somehow, they survived.
But surviving never meant walking away untouched. That was the part nobody talked about. Everyone made it back, but everyone carried something home.
A new scar. A new memory. A new reason to wake up in the middle of the night and stare at the ceiling, wondering how much longer they could keep doing this.
Carl was no different. Maybe that was what scared you most.
Because when you first met him, when he was still just Rick Grimesâ son running around with a hat too big for his head and too much curiosity for his own good, there had still been something openly young about him. Even after everythingâthe farm, the prison, the roadâthere had always been moments where you could see the kid underneath it all.
Season after season, loss after loss, the world had slowly taken pieces of that kid away.
But it had never taken all of him.
People looked at him and saw everything heâd lost. They saw the eye patch, the scars, the way he watched every doorway and every person who walked too close. They saw someone who had grown up too fast.
But you saw the things that remained. The way he still checked on Judith when he thought nobody was paying attention, the way he still tried to believe people could be better, even after meeting some of the worst humanity had to offer, the way he still looked at the world like there was something worth saving.
Even when he was tired, when he was angry, when he was scared. Especially then.
You found him exactly where you expected. Not inside, or resting. Carl had never been good at resting. He was sitting on the steps outside one of the houses, elbows resting on his knees, staring out at Alexandriaâs walls. His hat was missing, his curls falling messily around his face, and the bandage over his missing eye was slightly stained from the dirt and smoke of the day.
For a moment, you didnât say anything. You just stood there. Because you knew that sometimes Carl didnât need someone asking if he was okay. Sometimes he needed someone to sit beside him and let him decide when he was ready to speak.
After a few seconds, his voice broke the silence.
âYou should be inside.â
âThatâs funny. I was going to say the same thing.â
He glanced at you, and for the smallest moment, there was the hint of a smile. Not a big one. Carl rarely did big ones anymore. But enough that you knew he was still there.
âYou got hurt," he muttered slowly.
That was another thing about him. He could argue with almost anyone. Negan. Rick. Daryl. Anyone. But with you, not as easily.
You sat beside him, close enough that your shoulder brushed his.
For a while, neither of you spoke.
The sun was beginning to set behind the walls, painting everything in soft orange light. It almost looked normal. Almost.
Carl watched the horizon.
âI thought I was gonna die today.â
The honesty of it made your chest tighten. He didnât say things like that often. Not because he didnât think about death. Everyone thought about death now. But Carl had always been careful about admitting when something scared him.
His jaw tightened slightly.
âI mean⊠I knew we could lose. I knew it was possible," He paused. âBut I kept thinking about what would happen if we did.â
The wind moved through the trees beyond the walls.
âI kept thinking about Judith. I kept thinking about Dad. About Michonne. About everyone.â
His fingers curled slightly against his knees.
âAnd then I thought about you.â
Carl looked down. âI donât know...â He shook his head quietly. âI justâŠâ
He stopped, frustrated with himself. That was Carl too. He always knew what he felt. He just didnât always know how to put it into words.
âI donât want to keep waiting.â
For once, Carl looked nervous. Actually nervous.
You had seen him face walkers without hesitation. You had seen him stand in front of people who wanted to hurt him. You had seen him challenge people much older and more powerful than him.
Right now, sitting beside you on the steps of a damaged house, he looked like he had no idea what he was doing.
âI had this whole thing planned.â
Your eyebrows lifted. âYou did?â
âIt was better in my head.â
You couldnât help the small laugh that escaped. His expression softened slightly.
âI figured.â You still reassured him, even if you were oblivious to what he was even talking about.
He looked away, rubbing his thumb against his palm. âI was gonna say something good.â
âI donât know,â He exhaled. âThatâs the problem.â
âI just know that every time something happens, every time I think we might not make it, youâre the person I look for.â
Your expression softened.
âI know itâs not exactlyâŠâ He gestured vaguely, clearly annoyed that the words werenât coming out the way he wanted. âItâs not some big thing. I donât have a ring. I donât have anything.â
âBut I donât think any of that matters.â
And then he looked at you. Really looked at you. At your beautiful hair, tangled and a mess from all the trouble they'd been through for days, at your eyes that still remained as bright as diamonds as if you had no worries hidden underneath, at your soft hands that held one to many weapons in this life, at those lips he felt he could kiss every second of the day and never get bored.
âI want to marry you.â
For a second, the world seemed to stop. Not because there were fireworks, not because it was dramatic, because it was him. And because you knew exactly how much it must have taken for him to say it.
His face immediately changed when you didnât answer. Not an expression of regret, but of worry.
âYou donât have to say yes.â
âI mean it,â His voice became quieter. âI know this is sudden. And I know weâre young, and I know everything isâŠâ He looked around at the broken world surrounding you. âLike this.â His expression softened. âBut I meant it.â
A small smile touched your face. âCarl.â
âI wasnât going to say no.â
For the first time all evening, you saw him completely relax. Not entirely, though. Carl didnât really do that anymore. But his shoulders dropped. He let out a breath he had probably been holding since the moment he asked.
You laughed softly. âOkay?â
âThatâs all you have?â
He looked almost embarrassed. âI had a better response.â
âYou planned this for how long?â
âAnd you lost the words immediately?â
He looked down. âYeah.â
You smiled. âVery romantic.â
Then, almost shyly: âIâll do better.â
For the first few days after Carl asked, almost nothing changed. Somehow that was what made it feel so strange. There was no sudden transformation where the world became brighter or easier, no magical moment where the walls of Alexandria stopped looking damaged and the scars everyone carried suddenly disappeared. Walkers still wandered beyond the gates. People still woke up every morning wondering what new problem would find them before sunset. There were still repairs to make, supplies to count, patrols to organize, and a thousand small responsibilities that never seemed to end.
But underneath all of that, something had shifted.
Not loudly. Carl would never allow anything involving him to become loud if he could help it.
He wasnât the kind of person who would walk through Alexandria announcing the news with a grin on his face, accepting congratulations from everyone who passed by. That would have been almost impossible to imagine. Carl Grimes, who had spent years learning how to disappear into the background, suddenly becoming the center of attention? It would have felt terrifying.
Instead, he carried the knowledge quietly. The same way he carried almost everything. You noticed it in the little things.
The way his hand would occasionally find yours when nobody was looking, almost like he needed the reminder that the conversation on those steps had actually happened. The way he would sometimes look at you for a second longer than usual, like he was still trying to understand how someone could hear everything he had to say, the fear, the uncertainty, the fact that he didnât know what the future looked like, and still choose him anyway.
Carl had spent so much of his life preparing himself for people to leave. It was something you understood about him better than most.
He didnât expect happiness, he hoped for it. Hope was something Carl had always held onto. Even after the prison, even after losing people he loved, even after seeing what humans could become when they were desperate enough, there was still a part of him that believed things could be better.
But expecting happiness? That was harder. Because expectations were dangerous. Expecting something meant giving the world another thing it could take away.
And yet here he was. Planning a wedding. The thought still seemed to surprise him.
You caught him staring at the small piece of wire he had managed to shape into something resembling a ring one evening while everyone else was finishing dinner. It wasnât perfect. It wasnât smooth like the rings people used to buy before the world ended. It had small imperfections from where he had carefully worked it into shape, and if someone else had found it lying around, they probably wouldnât have thought twice about it.
But Carl had made it. So that was all that mattered.
âYou know youâre staring at it, right?â
Carl immediately closed his hand around it. âNo, Iâm not.â
âI just think I could touch it up a little.â
A small smile tugged at your lips. âYouâve been doing that for ten minutes.â
For a second, he looked younger. Not like the child everyone remembered, like the boy with the sheriffâs hat. Like someone who had finally been given permission to want something.
âI donât know if itâs good enough.â
The change in his voice made you look at him more carefully.
There it was. The part he didnât say. The fear underneath. Not fear that you would say no. You had already answered him. This was something else.
Carl Grimes could fight for survival. He could make impossible choices. He could put himself between danger and the people he loved without hesitation.
But making something beautiful was harder. Because beautiful things were fragile. And Carl knew better than anyone what happened to fragile things in their world.
You reached for his hand.
âItâs not supposed to be perfect.â
His fingers relaxed slightly.
He looked at the ring again. âI just wanted to give you something.â
The simplicity of the sentence hurt more than anything dramatic could have.
After everything he had lost, after living in a world where people took and took and took until there was nothing left, he still wanted to give.
You squeezed his hand. âYou did.â
Telling Rick was probably the hardest part.
Not since Carl thought his father would be angry.
That almost made it worse.
Rickâs opinion mattered more than Carl liked admitting. No matter how much he had grown, no matter how many times he had disagreed with him, no matter how often he insisted he could handle himself, there was still a part of Carl that wanted his father to look at him and say he was doing okay. That he was becoming someone good. That he hadnât lost himself.
The conversation happened outside, near the edge of Alexandria, where Rick was checking one of the damaged sections of the wall.
Carl stood there for almost a full minute before speaking.
Rick noticed. Of course he noticed.
âYou got something to say?â
Carl looked away. âYeah.â
âIâm getting married.â
The silence afterward was painfully awkward. Carl immediately looked like he regretted how he said it. Not the decision, just the delivery.
Rick stared. Then he blinked.
Carl rubbed the back of his neck. âI know.â
âI know itâs sudden.â
Rick looked at him for a long moment. And then the shock softened. Not completely. His son had just told him he was getting married during the apocalypse, after all.
But underneath the surprise was something else. Something almost impossible to hide.
âYouâve thought about this?â
âA while,â Carl hesitated.
Rick let out a quiet breath. He looked older in that moment. He wasn't unhappy. He was remembering.
Remembering the little boy who used to follow him everywhere, the little boy who once needed help tying his shoes, who had somehow grown into someone standing in front of him talking about building a future.
âI just didnât thinkâŠâ Rick started.
âI guess I didnât think weâd get here.â
Carlâs expression softened. Rick stepped forward and pulled his son into a hug.
He wasnât used to being hugged anymore. Life had trained him to expect everything else first.
Then, slowly, he hugged him back.
âYou better take care of them.â
âAnd if you donâtââ
Rick laughed quietly. âIâm serious.â
Carl shook his head. âI know.â
The wedding plans began quietly.
Just like everything else.
Nobody made announcements. Nobody treated it like some huge event. There was no reason to.
Michonne helped gather flowers from areas they knew were safe, choosing ones that would survive being moved and arranged without much difficulty. She never said much about it, but you could tell the moment meant something to her. She had always understood Carlâs need for something more than survival. She had seen him grow from a child into someone who carried too much responsibility.
Daryl contributed in the only way Daryl knew how: by making sure the location was safe before anyone else arrived.
When you thanked him, he simply shrugged.
âWasnât gonna let some dead guy ruin it.â
âThatâs your version of being sentimental?â
Carol helped with the small details nobody else thought about. She found fabric that could be cleaned and used as decoration. She fixed things that didnât need fixing because that was how she showed she cared.
Maggie smiled when she heard. A smile from someone who knew exactly what it meant to choose love when the world kept trying to convince you there was no point.
Carl was overwhelmed not only by the wedding itself, but by everyone caring. He understood fighting together. He understood surviving together. But celebrating? Letting people be happy for him? That was harder.
The morning of the wedding arrived without announcing itself.
There was no dramatic sunrise, no sudden change in the weather, no indication from the world around Alexandria that anything particularly important was about to happen. The sun simply came up the way it always did, pale light gradually finding its way through the trees and across the rooftops, illuminating the damage that still hadnât been repaired and the dirt that had been tracked through the streets the night before. Somewhere beyond the walls, birds had started calling to one another, and for a few minutes, before people began moving around and voices carried through the settlement, the entire place seemed almost peaceful.
You woke to that quiet and stayed still for a little while, staring at the ceiling and trying to comprehend the fact that today, somehow, was the day. You were getting married. The sentence still felt strange when you thought it, almost too ordinary for the world you lived in and simultaneously too enormous to fit inside your head. There had been a time when the idea of a wedding belonged to a completely different life, one involving churches, dresses bought specifically for the occasion, invitations sent through the mail, family members traveling from different states, music chosen months in advance, and some expensive venue decorated with flowers that would only be used once.
That life was gone. Everyone knew it. Nobody pretended otherwise anymore. And yet, standing there in the quiet of Alexandria with sunlight slowly creeping across the floor, you didnât feel like you were missing anything. Not really. Maybe because the things you had now mattered more than the things you used to imagine having. Maybe because when you pictured the ceremony, you didnât picture a church or a crowd or a perfectly decorated room. You pictured trees. You pictured the people who had survived beside you. You pictured Carl, probably looking more nervous than heâd ever admit, standing beneath the branches with that familiar expression he wore whenever he was trying very hard to pretend something didnât matter as much as it did. And that thought alone made you smile.
Carl, meanwhile, was handling the morning exactly as you might have expected him to: by pretending it wasnât a big deal.
He had been awake for hours. Heâd gone on a short walk before breakfast, checked the perimeter even though Daryl had already done it twice, helped Rick move some supplies that didnât actually need moving, and spent an unnecessary amount of time making sure Judith had eaten. She was already a preteen, but he'd grown too deep into the habit of staying at the table until she'd finished her food.
When Michonne eventually found him standing outside with his hands shoved into the pockets of his jacket, she took one look at him and knew immediately. âYouâre nervous,â she said, and Carlâs first response was an immediate, flat, âNo, Iâm not.â
Michonne didnât argue. She simply stood beside him and looked toward the trees. After a few moments, Carl sighed. âMaybe a little.â She smiled faintly, and there was something almost maternal in the way she looked at him, something that made Carl glance away because he still wasnât entirely comfortable being looked at like someone worth being proud of.
âYou donât have to be perfect,â she told him. Carlâs brow furrowed slightly. âI know.â âThen why do you look like youâre preparing for a fight?â He looked down at his boots, nudging a small stone with the toe. âBecause fights are easier now.â Michonne laughed quietly, and Carl finally smiled too. It was a small moment, almost insignificant compared to everything else happening around them, but it stayed with him. Because she was right. He didnât need to be perfect. He didnât need to know what came next. He only needed to stand there and tell the truth. That was harder than fighting, but he could do hard things.
By the time everyone began making their way toward the clearing, the forest looked almost unfamiliar in the early afternoon light. The place had been visited before, of course, but never like this. Usually, the woods meant patrols, searching for supplies, tracking walkers, finding shelter, looking for threats. Today there were no weapons raised, no one moving cautiously with their backs against trees, no one scanning the horizon every few seconds.
Daryl had insisted that everyone remain alert anyway, because Daryl would probably remain alert during the apocalypse even if the apocalypse ended, but even he seemed to understand that this was different.
The clearing itself wasnât large. That was part of why you had chosen it. A collection of tall trees surrounded it on nearly every side, their branches stretching overhead and allowing pieces of sunlight to filter through in shifting patches. Someone had gathered wildflowers from the surrounding area and placed them along the fallen log where people would sit, and pieces of fabric had been tied loosely around a few nearby branches. Nothing matched. Nothing was symmetrical. Some of the flowers were already beginning to wilt, and one of the pieces of fabric had come loose and was hanging sideways. It was beautiful precisely because it wasnât trying to be. It was something made by people who had almost nothing and had decided that what they had was enough.
Carl arrived before you did.
He stood near the center of the clearing, hands shoved into his pockets, his shoulders slightly tense. He had cleaned up as much as he could without making himself look like someone he wasnât. His clothes were simple, but clean, and his hair had been brushed back more carefully than usual even though several curls had already fallen loose again. The handmade ring sat safely in his pocket. He had checked it at least three times that morning to make sure it was still there. When Rick approached him, Carl immediately looked over, and his father gave him a small nod.
Carl looked toward the trees. âYeah.â
Rick studied him for a second. âYou donât have to be.â
Carl frowned. âI know.â
Carl looked back toward the clearing. âIâm ready.â
Rick smiled, reached over, and gave his sonâs shoulder a brief squeeze before walking away. Carl watched him go, then took a slow breath. He wasnât sure what he was supposed to do with his hands. He wasnât sure where to look. He wasnât sure whether he should smile. Every few seconds he glanced toward the path, waiting for you to appear, and each time you werenât there yet, he looked away again as though he hadnât been waiting at all.
Daryl noticed. Of course he did.
âYouâre gonna wear a hole through the trees,â he muttered.
âIâm not doing anything.â
Daryl leaned against one of the trees, arms crossed. âRelax.â
Carl almost laughed. âYouâre telling me to relax?â Daryl shrugged. âYeah.â
âThatâs probably the worst advice Iâve ever heard.â
âDidnât say I was good at it.â
Carl shook his head, but the tension in his shoulders eased slightly.
For a second, Carl forgot what everyone else was doing.
It wasnât because you looked dramatically different. You hadnât been transformed into someone unrecognizable. There was no elaborate dress, no expensive jewelry, no perfect hair. Everything about you was simple, practical, and unmistakably yours. That was what made his chest tighten. You looked like yourself. The person heâd walked beside through ruined streets and dark forests. The person heâd shared food with when there wasnât enough. The person whose hand heâd reached for without thinking during nightmares and gunfire and quiet mornings. The person heâd chosen in all the little ways long before heâd ever asked the question.
Carlâs expression softened before he could stop it, and for once he didnât seem concerned about anyone noticing.
You smiled when you saw him, and he smiled back, small and almost shy. As you walked closer, he stepped forward to meet you, and for a moment neither of you said anything. His eyes moved over you once, not in a way that made you self-conscious, but in the way someone looks at something they are trying to memorize. âYou lookâŠâ He stopped.
You raised an eyebrow. âI look what?â
You smiled. âJust good?â
He glanced down, embarrassed. âReally good.â
That earned him a quiet laugh. He reached for your hand, his fingers slipping naturally between yours.
âYou look good too,â you told him. âreally good.â
Carlâs mouth twitched. âIâm kidding.â
âThat was almost confident.â
âDonât get used to it.â
And there he was again, the Carl you knew. Quiet. Dry. A little awkward. Still capable of teasing you when he felt safe enough.
The ceremony itself was almost embarrassingly simple.
There were no chairs except the fallen log and a few crates someone had brought from Alexandria. There was no music because nobody had thought to find an instrument. Judith had scattered several flowers around the clearing, Rick stood near the front with Michonne beside him, Daryl remained slightly to the side, arms folded, pretending that he was only there because somebody had asked him to be. Maggie and Carol sat together, and a few others stood behind them. It wasnât a crowd. It wasnât supposed to be. It was simply the people who mattered. The people who had made it through enough together that nobody needed an invitation to understand why being there mattered.
When you and Carl finally stood facing one another beneath the trees, the forest seemed to quiet around you. Carlâs thumb moved nervously against the side of your hand. You could feel the slight tension in his fingers. He was trying to keep his expression neutral, but you knew him too well. He was terrified.
Rick looked between the two of you and cleared his throat. âI donât really know how this is supposed to work.â A quiet laugh moved through the group. Rick smiled faintly. âGuess none of us do anymore.â
He looked at Carl. Then at you. âBut I think thatâs okay.â Carlâs eyes lowered for a moment. Rick continued, his voice softer now. âYou donât need a church. You donât need a big ceremony. You donât need any of the things people used to think made something official. You just need to choose each other.â He paused. âAnd keep choosing each other.â
Carl looked at you. His expression changed slightly. The words seemed to settle somewhere deep inside him. Rick nodded once. âSo⊠thatâs what weâre here for.â
Carl was supposed to speak next. He had prepared. He had thought about it for days. He had even practiced once, alone, quietly enough that nobody could hear him.
He stared at you, then looked down, then laughed under his breath. âI forgot everything.â A few people smiled, and you squeezed his hand.
âNo, I had something.â He rubbed the back of his neck with his free hand, visibly frustrated. âIt sounded better before.â
You smiled. âThen donât say what sounded better.â
He looked at you. âWhat?â
âJust say what you mean.â
For a moment, Carl was quiet. Then he nodded.
âI donât know what tomorrowâs gonna look like.â
His voice was low, almost hesitant, but everyone in the clearing could hear him.
âI donât know where weâre gonna be. I donât know whatâs gonna happen to us. I donât know if things are ever gonna be normal again.â
âAnd I donât think they will.â
There was no sadness in the statement, just honesty.
âBut I know that every time something happens, youâre the person I look for.â
Carlâs thumb brushed against your hand.
âI know I donât always say stuff. I know Iâm notâŠâ He hesitated, searching for the word. âGood at it.â
âBut I love you,â He looked directly at you. âAnd I want you with me. Whatever happens.â
Then he reached into his pocket. His fingers shook slightly as he pulled out the small handmade ring.
âItâs not reallyâŠâ
He stopped, clearly unsure how to explain it.
âItâs not perfect.â
Carlâs shoulders relaxed.
He carefully slipped it onto your finger.
It obviously wasnât polished nor expensive. It wasnât anything that would have impressed someone from the old world. But Carl had made it with his own hands, so that made it priceless.
When it was your turn to speak, you found yourself struggling too. Maybe that was the strange thing about the world you lived in. You could talk about surviving. You could talk about walkers and food and weapons and patrols without hesitation. But standing beneath the trees with Carl looking at you like you were the one thing in the world he trusted completely made every carefully prepared sentence disappear.
So you did what he had done.
You told him that you didnât know what tomorrow would bring either. You told him that you couldnât promise everything would be easy, because neither of you were foolish enough to believe that. But you could promise that when things became difficult, you wouldnât run simply because they were difficult. You promised to keep finding him, just as he had promised to keep looking for you. You promised to choose him in the small ways, the ordinary ways, the ways that mattered more than words.
Carl listened without looking away.
When you finished, his eyes were wet. He blinked quickly.
He looked down for a second. Then back at you.
And when Rick finally told you that you were married, there was no applause loud enough to feel strange in the quiet forest. There were smiles, a few quiet laughs, Judith immediately asking whether that meant there was going to be cake, and Daryl muttering something about how there wasnât any cake. But Carl didnât seem to hear much of it.
His hand was still holding yours.
Then he let go of it, his palms lifting up to cup your cheeks, bringing your faces together in a way that defied every little bit of nervousness and romantic cowardice he stored.