With that knowledge, and knowing that it was the beginning of a lifelong cycle of driving myself crazy to keep other people happy and safe, I would have made my future nieces/children proud.

One day, they'll learn of this, and I'll have to tell them that I didn't... fight.

Maybe one day I can tell them how much I fought my mind every day since.

Would that make me strong or weak?

If i knew that the pain would be too much for me and I'd have to delegate it to my loved ones anyway...yeah. I would have done a lot of things differently.

I made myself hurt more by keeping such a big secret at such a young age, all because I wanted to protect everyone that loved me.

I used to be sooo angry allll the time. Somewhere along the way, I knew that wasn't helping me, so I stopped.

I stopped being angry.

I got sad. I tried so many different ways to heal and continue healing. I've discovered many broken pieces of myself that I had no choice but to cut my hands by picking up and desperately try to piece them back together.

Now? In this moment? I'm pissed.

How dare he.

The rest of the departments and company get several holidays off, as well as like the Friday before...

Even when there's no work to do....

They never shorten the overtime.

Months and months of ten hour days....and often on Saturdays- our actual scheduled day off.

We have to request off for our days off, and can only do so once a month.

No incentive bonus for doing good work, though, like we used to have at the end of the year...

And so on one of the few holidays we get off and they can't *make us* work, they're trying to get us to via volunteering...

If they don't get enough volunteers, then guess what happens? :)

I'm going to remain grateful to have a steady income and insurance benefits.

But, it's definitely not because of crap like this. Clearly.

I'd be obliged to hurt his feelings lmao

Omg and would I be genuinely jazzed to do it. I should start working on insults now, in case he ever gets so bold.

No one let him look in my notes app 🤭😂😂😂😂