Winks From God

Keep going and you’ll be free. 

That being said, thanks for reading, and I love you all. Happy Thursday.

Some things are nice if you do it once. After that it begins to decrease the level of quality. 

God exists all the time, infinitely, but it is only in the present moment that we can truly experience Him. 

God made no mistakes in the characteristics he gave us, it is us who exaggerates their amount or puts them in wrongful places.  Let anger be passion.  Let insecurity be desire.  Let irritation be hunger. The feelings we have come with descriptions but the descriptions themselves are not the feelings, thus we can transform their meaning, and thus purpose at any time. 

What more symbolizes street culture than a vinyl record? The record in a huge way began this street culture from Kool Herc playing breaks back to back and it creating a higher energy at parties. This vinyl record; a circle with grooves in it and with a hole in the center, looks just like a cypher. And, the record is black, just like the people that danced to it, and when electricity hits the GROOVE in the record, it makes music. Vinyl records to linoleum floors, the speakers play the speakers, the MC’s are on the LP. This small item is a visual manifestation of our culture and yet it also created it. This, and many other things demonstrate the collectiveness, the wholeness of life. It all comes together, it clicks in. It makes sense in both a mind-blowing and totally organic way. 

There’s all types of emotions, experiences, we all know this. But, what is the purpose? Are we supposed to enjoy them all?  There’s an age old saying its not about every day being sunshine, its about learning to dance in the rain. I think this sums up 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17:  Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks to all things.  But what is the point of the rain? To renew us? To strengthen us? To make us sit inside instead of going out to play? Perhaps its merely to help us understand the sunshine. We can not know joy if we don’t know pain.  I’ll say this, some of the kindest people I know have been through the most difficulty. Enjoy the rain, not for the sake of the rain, but for the sake of you. 

Music rescues me... whatever emotion I’m in, it accentuates that particular feeling, makes me feel understood, or sometimes it escapes me from it. No matter what, it sends me into another Universe, another channel, another vibration of feeling and thoughts. It holds me.  God, is that same way. One lyric to him and he is my song. He starts to recalibrate, alter, shift me and my mood and I’m sent into a higher plane. Yes, God is the sweetest music for me and I sing my song to him.  

Lately, I have been pondering life’s purpose, wondering if what I’m doing is enough, if my steps are big enough, if I’m on the right path, or if what I’m doing is making a difference. I’m so in love with God that I want to be doing the right thing, the biggest and boldest thing to serve my purpose here. And then I remember, each step is like the sand. Each tiny pebble by itself is simply a tiny pebble, but all these tiny pebbles together create the beach.  It isn’t one action, one thing, one moment, or even one talent that is our gift to God, it is the sum of all the little things we do that make up what our beach is.  Our whole life makes a beach... In this I find beauty, comfort and peace. 

Theres nothing quite like the feeling of being understood from someone. When you tell them you’ve been feeling nervous and they tell you they already knew because you were biting your lip and rubbing your feet together. It’s a sensation of vulnerability and comfort. This person can have your back like no one else or tear it to shreds. The invigoration of the closeness is the only way to test your courage and faith, and to know this is love. If there’s no risk, it’s not a good game. 

Build your love slow and make sure you’re enjoying your own life first, so that your enjoyment can spill over and be shared into someone else’s life, instead of making someone else responsible for your fullness. 

John 15:2 - "Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit."