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‘You were born bluer than a butterfly

Beautiful and so deprived of oxygen’

The first lines meaning, Light was born good, raised good, but always felt something was missing. He felt the world needed justice but didn’t know how to make his feelings known.

‘Colder than your father’s eyes

He never learned to sympathize with anyone’

Even though Sorichiro isn’t necessarily cruel towards him or even his family, Light finds himself comparing what he knows about himself to his father, constantly wishing to “help” with the Kira case and letting everyone around him know he wants to follow in the footsteps of his father. He knows Sorichiro won’t give up on trying to figure out who Kira is, and knows he would be heartbroken if he found out it was actually his own son, more or less.

‘I don’t blame you, but I can’t change you

Don’t hate you, but we can’t save you’

The first line ‘I don’t blame you, but I can’t change you’ is almost like L is speaking directly to Light. I imagine L knows what Light is feeling concerning justice and how the world views it. He knows Light’s thoughts and compares them to his own view of justice. The second line, ‘Don’t hate you, but we can’t save you’ is like L has never hated Light for who he chose to become surrounding his own beliefs around the justice system. ‘But we can’t save you’ could be symbolic for the fact Light has already surrendered himself to the Death Note and risked the lives of thousands in order to become someone/ something great.

‘You were born reaching for your mothers hands

Victim of your fathers plans to rule the world”

The second line of sort of self explanatory, describing that Light is not a king, a god, nor a perpetrator. He’s the victim. He was taken hostage by his mind to “rule the world”. Maybe the first line is what Light thought of himself to always be, born to be good. Born to reach for your mothers hands and love her and love everything because you were never raised in any other way. But those things were stolen by the career his father chose, to catch the wrong. It’s not that his father ruined his outlook on his entire life, but what if his father wasn’t the chief of police? He would have never met L. He would have never outsmarted half the task force and tricked L into believing he was someone he really wasn’t. He wouldn’t have wanted justice.

‘Too afraid to step outside

Paranoid and petrified of what you’ve heard’

Again, Light obviously can’t let the world know he’s Kira. He’s not meticulous, he’s afraid to let anyone he knows discover who he actually is. Because then his whole plan would fail. His thoughts and intricate attention to detail would collapse. He’s paranoid.

The next lines are like L is talking about himself:

“But they could say the same ‘bout me

I sleep only three hours each night means only twenty-one a week, now’

When I heard the second line I immediately thought of L. Who else could this song be about? The first line explores Ls past, as if people used to say the exact same things about L, about how he was paranoid to step outside, let the world know who he was, discover his idea of justice. He’s more like Light then he would like to think. Light is the only person L has ever had to compare his intelligence to his entire life.

‘And I could say the same ‘bout you

Born blameless, grew up famous too

Just a baby born blue, now’

Like I was saying, L and Light are so similar. And L knows this. He constantly sees himself in Light, even when he doesn’t want to. Light was born blameless, like L. Light is Kira, therefore he is famous. L is L, and is also famous. Light was born blue, meaning he was born with the same thoughts L was. L never wanted to be bad. L was raised to be good. Like Light was.

like it makes me wonder how many other times light saw him; possibly in the dark corner of his room when he couldn’t sleep? maybe in the bathroom mirror after a pitiful, cold shower?

brand new actors? accurate cast ages?

raw emotion?

religious trauma?