I remember that night in lagos when you took me to alpha beach right behind your crib, we parked outside the entrance and you went to talk to the lone security man that peered at us with suspicion. You had to pay him some money so we could get in. He opened the gate and we slipped through, into the darkness. You took off your clothes and looked at me to do the same. I was scared at first. What if someone sees? What if he comes checking on us?. You reassured me and still, I hesitated. I was naked underneath my dress except for my panties. I took it off though. I held my breasts in my hands and walked into the water. You didn’t know how to swim so you were scared I was going in too deep. I assured you I was in my element. Perhaps too much in it, because I got very silent into my own world away from the intimacy you were trying to bridge between us. The ocean was warm. The black shoal would suddenly deepen, sand slipping beneath our feet sinking us further into the water at unexpected moments. I kept gazing around us, wondering if there was anyone in the darkness, you held my hands for some moments, trying to pull me in as the water did with us. I loosened my hands and then we started to run. We ran for the freedom of it. It was so surreal. I was scared o, yet I prayed, I prayed in gratitude I prayed in earnest. At one point you went off to check on our clothes and I was alone. It felt like you was gone forever and when you came back, your shadow form emerging from the abyss, i realized your peculiarity and i appreciated it then. I could see you for your spirit, especially in your stature, the way you stood before me trying to decipher me. I could feel it was an offering, you daring to embrace your own water spirit, I knew the intimacy you craved, how that moment could’ve bound us together, but It was the waters touch I craved, your every attempt at shortening the distance between us, I went further into the water, I was ready to swim, to really dash in and lose myself, I wanted to be carried away, I wanted to see the unseen, and when you noticed me drifting, my body turned away from yours, my heart far gone con el mar, you became somber and said “let’s go”. You later asked me as we got in the car why I seemed so serious, I assured you that it was beautyful, but you see, Mmiri get power, serious serious power, she possesses my tongue with prayer and I feel open to all the world, all the grief all the feeling all the intensity — she demands my full attention and I’ve learnt enough to know better, the moment didn’t call for laughter it didn’t call for sex either
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