ChemicalOverLoad

If you aren’t vague blogging @ absolutely no one in particular about the tiny, slowly accumulated disappointments, frustrations, heartbreaks, ambiguities, witticisms and internal melodramas you have, over a quickly short long life time, accumulated, hoarded as a vice, cherished as a lover, and currently are in the process of becoming amber in your soul AND loling all at the same times…are u REALLY living your most authentic and fulfilling life?

I had a overnight pass from my drug treatment program and went to my mother’s house. Being in the house that I grew up in and lived in during active addiction and that I experienced so much trauma and self destruction in can be triggering for me. I kept remembering things that I wish I didn’t. Thoughts about drug use and painful memories. I love visiting home but wow does it take a toll on me.