Hi, I'm Mae

maybe if i wasn't so unlovable i could've been happy

also first time in a while i thought about mr sheeran but also a no no because I'm still in physiotherapy training and my classmates see me (almost) naked.

im always almost this close to going back to.therapy but then i just cry and convince myself im such a fucking great member of society

why must i live

i also.have this naghing traction headache and i hate hate it

I'll try going to sleep and hopefully this shitty ass anciety won't ruin my sleep again. i hate waking up at 2 in the morning

w h y. do i. even live?

I've been looking at the help hotlines but god i can never call them and i just cry and then i live anyways.

i just want to sleep. why do i have work tomorrow. why do i even do this shit

i miss my cats

i just want to sleep. why do i have work tomorrow. why do i even do this shit

like I've been taking shots of cough sirup because i don't have alcohol and i just need something to take the edge off

so I've really been loosing it this weekend and i feel so fucking hopeless and there are all these people i c o u l d call but i also feel like the biggest fucking burden but i also don't want to die. I'm just so tired of rawdogging my depression like it's not even funny anymore. (i don't think it ever was)