Iāve hurt someone that loves me. But Iām tired. Iām exhausted. This never ending cycle of working and helping out is driving me insane. I barely have time for myself, or to enjoy things that most people enjoy. Iām tired of driving my siblings to school, or to their activities. Iām tired of washing tons of laundry. Iām tired of doing work that I shouldnāt. I want to explore, to be free. But at the same time, I feel guilty. I am the only help that my mother has. Itās this constant battle within me. I said some hurtful words, Iāve measured my contributions at home and how I felt like sheās not doing whatĀ āsheās supposedā to do. Iāve hurt her and I havenāt apologized. Apologizing is very hard for me, especially if I donāt feel convicted to do so. I am upset. I am upset at myself and my own selfishness.
