Beyond The Spotlight
The Oscars red carpet was a river of flashing cameras, designer gowns, and an electric current of anticipation. As Lucy O’Connor stepped onto the carpet, she felt the weight of the moment settle over her like a second skin. The fabric of her teal gown clung elegantly to her frame, the silk straps delicate yet secure against her shoulders. The open back of the dress exposed just enough to be daring, the fluidity of the material catching the light with every step. Silver heels elevated her stride, her chestnut waves cascading down her back in soft, effortless waves.
The cameras snapped, a few voices calling her name - some tentative, as if they were still getting used to saying it. She was no Hollywood regular, no seasoned industry name. A year ago, she had been performing in small venues in Dublin, writing songs that lived in the quiet corners of the internet. And now? Now she was here. At the Academy Awards. Nominated for Best Original Song.
Lucy turned slightly, offering the photographers the shots they wanted, her posture poised yet natural. But just as she found her rhythm in the moment, the atmosphere shifted.
A ripple moved through the crowd. Then a wave. And suddenly, the flashing intensified, the energy becoming something entirely different. The press went wild.
Cillian Murphy.
A rare sight on the red carpet, his appearance tonight was enough to make seasoned reporters scramble for their best angles. He moved past the growing crowd, stepping onto the carpet with an effortless sort of presence. Dressed in a classic tuxedo, his bow tie loose at his neck, he looked entirely at ease - unaffected by the chaos he had just caused.
Lucy took a breath, resisting the urge to glance over. She wasn’t the type to be starstruck. But there was something about knowing she was directly in front of him, following the same path into the heart of the ceremony, that made her pulse tick just a fraction faster.
As she moved forward, she felt the weight of an unseen gaze.
Cillian stood back in the line of arrivals, watching as the woman in the teal dress stepped forward. He didn’t know her, but the way she carried herself - calm, composed despite the whirlwind around her - made him take a second look. Her hair caught the light as she turned slightly for the cameras, and there was something distinctly unmanufactured about her presence.
She was next in line for the interview section. As she approached the microphone, he listened - not because he was supposed to, but because something about her made him want to.
"Lucy, this is your first Oscars, and you're nominated for Best Original Song. Tell us about this incredible journey."
She smiled, her Irish accent warm yet steady. “It’s been a whirlwind, to be honest. A year ago, I was writing songs in my bedroom in Dublin. To be here now, with a song that’s connected with so many people - it’s surreal.”
“And this song, ‘Never Let Me Go’, has become a defining piece of the movie. Did you know, when you wrote it, that it would become this big?”
Lucy let out a soft laugh, shaking her head. “Not at all. When I wrote it, I was just trying to be honest. The film is about love, loss, and the weight of memories, and I wanted the song to capture that. It’s about holding onto someone, even when you know you have to let go.”
Cillian’s gaze remained fixed on her, his interest piqued by the way she spoke. She didn’t have the polished responses of Hollywood veterans, didn’t seem rehearsed or over-prepared. There was something refreshingly real about her.
The interviewer nodded. “And tonight, you’ll be performing it live.”
“Yes.” A flicker of nerves flashed in her eyes, though she masked them well. “It’s my first time performing on a stage this size, so no pressure.”
The interviewer laughed. “Well, we can’t wait. Lucy O’Connor, everyone.”
As she stepped away from the microphone, she turned slightly - and that was the moment her eyes met his. Lucy looked away first, stepping aside as he moved forward to take her place.
As the crowd filtered inside the Dolby Theatre, the grandeur of the space settled over Lucy in a way that made the moment feel even more surreal. She and her brother, Jamie, followed the ushers to their seats, the hum of conversation and excitement filling the air around them.
Jamie, dressed in a sharp black suit with a relaxed air about him, nudged her lightly as they sat down. “Not bad, eh?” he murmured, glancing around.
Lucy exhaled, smoothing her hands down the fabric of her dress. “Yeah, not bad at all,” she said, but there was an underlying tension in her voice. The weight of the night was pressing down on her now. It was one thing to walk the red carpet, to do an interview, to smile for the cameras - but sitting here, waiting for the ceremony to begin, knowing she would have to get up and perform in front of the entire industry? That was something else entirely.
Jamie seemed to sense her nerves because he leaned in slightly. “You’re gonna be brilliant, Lu. You always are.”
She shot him a grateful look. “Thanks, J.”
As she settled into her seat, adjusting her dress so it draped neatly around her legs, movement across the aisle caught her eye. Him.
He was sitting in the section across the aisle, a couple of rows from the front. A prime seat. Of course, he was a Best Actor nominee - one of the biggest names of the night. He belonged up there, among the legends and heavyweights of the industry. But despite being surrounded by Hollywood’s elite, he didn’t seem caught up in the pageantry. His tuxedo was sharp, but the loose bow tie at his neck gave him a slightly undone look, a quiet refusal to be overly polished. He sat with an ease that suggested he had done this countless times before, yet there was something in his expression - a certain focus, an awareness of the moment - that made it clear he didn’t take any of it for granted.
As if feeling the weight of her gaze, he turned in his seat, glancing up the aisle and for the briefest moment, their eyes met.
It was fleeting. A second, maybe less. But there was something in his expression - curiosity, recognition? - before he turned his attention forward again.
Lucy swallowed, pressing her lips together. Focus. She had bigger things to think about than whatever that had been.
The night kicked off as expected - an extravagant opening number, followed by a cascade of awards in the technical categories. The room was alive with excitement, each win met with enthusiastic applause, some more anticipated than others.
Across the aisle, Cillian sat, quiet and composed. He listened attentively to each speech, though he rarely reacted beyond a slight nod or a murmured word to the person seated beside him. If he was nervous about his own category coming up later, it didn’t show.
The ceremony continued, moving swiftly through major awards and live performances. Lucy listened intently as another Best Original Song nominee took the stage, their performance met with thunderous applause. It was a reminder - her time was coming. Soon, she would be walking up there herself, stepping onto that stage under the weight of millions of watching eyes.
Suddenly, a gentle nudge to her arm pulled Lucy out of her thoughts. She turned to see a production assistant crouching slightly beside her seat, headset in place, clipboard in hand.
“Lucy, we’re ready for you backstage.”
Slipping gracefully from her seat, she adjusted the folds of her gown as she stepped into the dimly lit side aisle. The production assistant guided her swiftly through the rows and toward a discreet exit near the stage. She kept her head high, shoulders back, even as her pulse drummed a little faster.
As she passed the front rows, she caught movement in the corner of her eye. A glance - subtle, fleeting, but unmistakable. Cillian. He had turned his head slightly, following her movement with quiet curiosity. Their eyes met for a split second. Not long enough for anything more than a brief acknowledgment, but something about the way he looked at her - calm, assessing, as if he were seeing her for the first time - made her spine straighten just a little more.
Then, just as quickly, she was gone.
Backstage was a flurry of controlled chaos. Crew members moved with silent efficiency, headsets buzzing with last-minute cues. A makeup artist did a quick touch-up to her lipstick, while another person checked the small in-ear monitor she would be wearing.
“Two minutes,” someone called.
Lucy took a slow, deep breath. She had prepared for this. She had rehearsed, refined, and visualised every second of this performance. The stage was set, the orchestra was ready, and soon, the lights would go up, and it would just be her and the music.
“Thirty seconds,” a stagehand signalled, motioning her toward the entrance to the stage.
The lights beyond the curtain shifted, the applause from the last segment fading into an expectant hush. The host’s voice echoed through the grand hall, introducing her and the song that had brought her here tonight.
Lucy stepped forward, feeling the warmth of the stage lights before she even saw them.
Then, as the first delicate notes of ‘Never Let Me Go’ filled the air, she took her place at the microphone, inhaled deeply, and let the world fade away. The notes were delicate and haunting as the piano echoed into the vast space of the Dolby Theatre. Lucy’s voice came in soft, almost fragile, weaving through the melody with an intimacy that made the enormous room feel impossibly small.
The song built slowly, a quiet ache embedded in every lyric. She sang of love slipping through fingers, of holding on even when time was cruel, of memories that refused to fade. Her voice was tender but sure, laced with raw emotion, threading seamlessly through the delicate instrumentation.
As the music swelled, so did she. The quiet ache transformed into something deeper, something urgent. Her voice lifted, soaring with controlled power, the intensity growing with each line. Every word pulsed with emotion, her conviction pouring into every note as she let herself get lost in it.
Her fingers curled slightly at her sides, her body moving instinctively with the rhythm. The orchestra rose behind her, the strings trembling, the piano striking through the stillness. The power of her voice now raged through the theatre, commanding the space, holding every single person captive in the palm of her hand. And then came the peak - the moment the song had been leading to. She closed her eyes, tipping her chin slightly upward as she held the final note, drawing it out, her voice ringing with raw intensity. It wasn’t just a performance - it was feeling, unfiltered and unrestrained, radiating through the room with staggering force. The sound reverberated, soaring, lingering -
Then, just as seamlessly, it softened.
The fire simmered, dissolving into something gentler, the echo of her voice fading into a whisper as the last few notes of the piano carried her to the end. The music ceased. The lights dimmed. Silence hung for the briefest moment.
And then - thunderous applause. The audience erupted. Lucy exhaled, her chest rising and falling as the weight of the moment settled over her. For a second, she was still, standing in the dim glow of the lights, the rush of adrenaline pulsing through her veins.
From her place on stage, she could see the faces in the front rows - some standing, others clapping with admiration.
And just across the aisle, in the second row from the front, Cillian Murphy sat, watching her.
Unlike the others, he didn’t immediately join the standing ovation. He sat there for a moment longer, his gaze steady, his expression unreadable. But there was something in his eyes - something that made her chest tighten just a little.
Then, slowly, he lifted his hands and clapped. Not just polite applause. Something deeper. Something real.
Lucy inhaled sharply, her heart still hammering, and then turned away, slipping off the stage as the lights shifted back.
The host reappeared, seamlessly transitioning the audience back into the flow of the ceremony, but she barely heard the words. Instead, she stood just off to the side, out of sight, pressing a hand lightly to her stomach as she tried to steady her breath.
It had gone by so quickly. One moment she was stepping into the lights, the next she was lost in the music, pouring herself into every note, and now - now it was done.
She swallowed, exhaling through her nose. It had gone well. She knew it had gone well. But still, the nervous energy remained, tangled with the sheer magnitude of what she had just done.
A gentle hand on her arm snapped her back to reality. “Lucy, we’ll take you back to your seat now.”
She nodded, grateful for the guidance as she was ushered down a discreet hallway, back toward the theatre’s seating area. The distant hum of applause from the audience behind her slowly faded as she made her way back toward her section.
And then, as she stepped through the side entrance into the dim glow of the theatre, she felt all the eyes that flicked toward her.
A few whispered words of admiration passed between people as she moved down the aisle, a couple of familiar faces offering small, approving nods as she passed. She kept her head high, her expression composed, but beneath it all, her pulse remained rapid, her mind still caught in the echo of the song.
Jamie was already watching for her, standing slightly as she approached. “Bloody hell, Lu,” he murmured, a grin tugging at the corner of his mouth. “That was insane.”
She let out a soft, breathless laugh as she slid back into her seat. “Yeah?”
“Yeah,” he said, shaking his head as he clapped her on the shoulder. “You absolutely killed it.”
She barely had a moment to absorb that before movement across the aisle caught her attention. Cillian. Still in his seat, but now turned slightly, watching her. There was no grand expression of praise, no exaggerated reaction. Just him, looking at her with that same steady, unreadable gaze. And then…just the slightest nod. Barely perceptible, but there.
Acknowledgment.
Lucy held his gaze for a fraction longer than she meant to before she looked away, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear as she shifted in her seat.
As the night unfolded, Lucy tried to settle back into her seat, but the lingering adrenaline from her performance made it impossible to fully relax. She followed the rest of the show with polite attention, applauding the winners, exchanging quiet remarks with Jamie, but beneath it all, a steady hum of anticipation coursed through her. Because her category was coming.
And then, finally, it did. The camera panned to the stage as the presenter - an acclaimed composer - stepped into the spotlight, the golden envelope in hand.
“And now, the nominees for Best Original Song.”
A reel of clips played on the massive screen above the stage, each song accompanied by scenes from the films they had been written for. Lucy barely heard the others, though she knew each track had its own powerful place in the lineup. Instead, she braced herself as the unmistakable opening notes of ‘Never Let Me Go’ filled the theatre once more, this time intertwined with scenes from the movie.
Her breath caught as she watched herself appear on the screen - her voice soaring over the imagery of the film’s most poignant moments. The montage faded, the applause swelling as the final nominee was announced. And then came the moment. The envelope was lifted. A delicate pause. A slight smile from the presenter.
“And the Oscar goes to…”
A heartbeat stretched.
“Never Let Me Go – Lucy O’Connor.”
For half a second, everything stopped. The Dolby Theatre erupted into applause, the cameras cutting to her face as she sat frozen in shock, wide-eyed and breathless.
Jamie was the first to react, grabbing her arm with an excited shake. “Holy shite, Lucy! You won!”
A stunned laugh escaped her lips before it truly hit. She had won. She had won an Oscar.
The moment jolted to life around her, and she stood shakily, her hands pressed to her chest in disbelief. The cheers were deafening, faces turning to her with admiration, some rising to their feet in applause. She barely processed it as she made her way down the aisle, the train of her teal gown sweeping behind her. As she passed the front rows, she caught movement in the corner of her vision.
Cillian was still seated, still composed - but clapping. Watching her. And this time, there was something unmistakable in his expression. A quiet sort of recognition, maybe even admiration. Then she was climbing the steps to the stage, accepting the golden statue with trembling hands, stepping up to the microphone as the room settled into an expectant hush.
She let out a breathless laugh, shaking her head slightly. “I…I don’t even know where to start.”
A soft chuckle rippled through the audience.
“This is… surreal,” she admitted, her Irish accent thick with emotion. “I never thought a song I wrote in a small apartment in Dublin would bring me here. And to be part of a film as moving as this - I just feel incredibly honoured.”
She swallowed, gripping the statue tighter.
“To everyone who believed in me, to the director who trusted my music to help tell this story, to my family…”
She looked out towards Jamie who was grinning through watery eyes. “- I wouldn’t be here without you.”
Her gaze briefly flicked over the crowd, catching familiar faces, before she exhaled.
“And to anyone out there dreaming of this moment - of making music, of telling stories - just keep going.”
A final round of applause rose as the orchestra cued the exit music. Lucy took one last look at the audience before stepping away, the weight of the Oscar in her hands making everything feel a little more real.
As she made her way backstage, she couldn’t shake the feeling that this was only the beginning.
*****
As the night wound toward its climax, the final few categories brought a renewed wave of anticipation through the Dolby Theatre. Lucy, still settling into the reality of her own win, tried to focus as the last awards were announced. Best Director, then Best Actress - each met with roars of applause and emotional speeches that carried the weight of careers built over decades.
And then, finally - Best Actor.
The murmurs in the theatre quieted as the presenter, a legendary actor himself, took the stage with a knowing smile. This was the moment so many had been waiting for. The camera panned across the nominees, their faces appearing on the massive screen above.
Cillian’s name was read second.
His face filled the screen, his expression composed but unreadable, as the clip from his nominated performance played. The intensity in his eyes, the rawness in his delivery - it was no surprise he was a frontrunner. The scene ended, fading into the next nominee, and Lucy found herself sneaking a glance at him across the aisle. He didn’t fidget. He didn’t shift in his seat. If he was nervous, he didn’t show it.
Her fingers tapped lightly against her knee as the final nominee’s clip played. Then came the pause, the stretch of silence as the envelope was lifted, the anticipation thick enough to press against her skin.
“And the Oscar goes to…” The presenter opened the envelope, taking only a beat before reading the name. A smile flickered onto his face.
“Cillian Murphy.”
The Dolby Theatre erupted.
The applause was deafening, people rising to their feet almost immediately. Lucy felt her own hands come together, the energy of the room practically vibrating through her. Across the aisle, Cillian exhaled, a barely perceptible shift in his expression - surprise, maybe, or just the weight of the moment settling in.
Then he stood.
Lucy watched as he shook hands with those around him, accepting quiet congratulations as he made his way down the aisle. For the first time all night, the composed exterior cracked just slightly - just enough to reveal something real beneath it.
*****
As the ceremony wrapped, the winners were ushered backstage in waves, the buzz of excitement still thick in the air. Lucy stood with Jamie as an usher motioned for her to follow, guiding her through the side exit toward the winner’s lounge, where the engraved Oscars were being returned to their recipients.
She walked with purpose, though the weight of the night still hadn’t fully settled in. Every now and then, someone stopped her with a handshake or a quick word of congratulations - a producer, a fellow musician, even a few actors she had admired for years. It was surreal.
The energy inside the room was different from the main show - looser, more celebratory. The winners were scattered throughout the room, some holding their Oscars, others caught up in conversation. Staff moved efficiently, returning the now-engraved statues to their recipients.
A crew member spotted her and motioned her over. “Lucy O’Connor?”
She nodded, stepping forward as they carefully handed her her Oscar - now engraved with her name, solidifying the moment. She traced her fingers over the inscription.
Best Original Song – “Never Let Me Go” – Lucy O’Connor
A slow exhale left her lips. This is real.
Jamie leaned over her shoulder. “Now that’s something.”
Before she could respond, the room shifted slightly, another presence moving into the space beside her.
Cillian.
He was being handed his own Oscar, though he accepted it with quiet ease, his fingers running over the engraving much like hers had just moments before. Lucy felt her body still slightly. They had been in each other’s orbit all night - on the carpet, inside the theatre, in those passing glances. But now, standing side by side, awards in hand, there was no avoiding it. He glanced over at her, his blue eyes sharp even in the softer lighting. A beat passed.
Then, a small nod. “Congratulations.” His voice was calm, steady.
Lucy met his gaze. “You too.”
Another pause, heavier this time. She wasn’t sure why - maybe it was the weight of the moment, maybe it was just him - but something about this didn’t feel like just another passing exchange. Jamie, oblivious to whatever was unfolding, clapped his hands together. “Alright, this calls for drinks, yeah?”
Cillian barely reacted, his attention still on her for a second longer before he turned slightly, adjusting his grip on his Oscar.
She turned to Jamie, levelling him with a look. “Get me a gin and tonic, will you? I can’t stomach any more champagne.”
Jamie scoffed, shaking his head dramatically. “Gin and tonic? After winning an Oscar? God, Lu, have some dignity.”
Lucy rolled her eyes. “I’ll have dignity when I have a gin and tonic in my hand.”
Jamie smirked, clearly not done with his teasing. “Of all the drinks you could have, on a night like this - you go for a G&T? No whiskey? No fancy cocktail with a sparkler in it? No…”
“Just do it before I start full naming you in front of all these people,” she warned, arching a brow.
His smirk faltered. “You wouldn’t dare.”
She tilted her head. “Try me.”
Sensing he wasn’t going to win, he huffed and turned away, heading towards the bar. Cillian, still relaxed beside Lucy, suddenly looked amused. “What’s his full name?” he asked, intrigued.
Lucy glanced over, ensuring he was out of earshot and then leaned toward Cillian, mischief dancing in her eyes.
“James Francis Patrick Oisín O’Connor,” she revealed, her Irish lilt wrapping around each syllable with a teasing edge.
Cillian, mid-sip, nearly choked on his drink. He swallowed quickly, blinking at her in surprise. “Jesus, that’s…a lot.”
Lucy grinned. “I’m convinced my mam hated him at birth after putting her through a thirty-six-hour labour.”
Cillian winced. “Christ.”
“Me, on the other hand?” She gestured to herself with mock satisfaction. “Out in three hours. One middle name.”
He let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head as he lifted his glass again. “Well, I’d say you must have been the favourite, then.”
“Oh, without a doubt,” she quipped. “I like to remind him of that daily.”
Cillian smirked, taking another sip, eyes still on her. “I can see that.”
Lucy met his gaze, the easy banter settling between them like something familiar, something comfortable. And for a moment, the rest of the room - the buzz of the night, the fact that they were two Oscar winners standing here in the heart of Hollywood - faded just a little. This, whatever this was, felt effortless.
The moment between them hung in the air, light and unspoken, until the arrival of Cillian’s co-stars subtly broke it. A few of them - fellow cast members, still riding the high of their Best Picture win - approached with easy grins, calling his name, asking if he was coming to one of the after-parties.
Lucy glanced at them briefly before turning back to him, her expression composed, unreadable.
“Enjoy your night,” she murmured, her voice smooth, effortless.
Then, with a quiet grace, she turned away, her body shifting so that her back was now to him, exposing the smooth, bare expanse beneath the cascade of her chestnut hair.
Cillian’s breath slowed slightly, his glass poised near his lips but forgotten for a moment. The line of her dress dipped dangerously low, the silk clinging elegantly to her frame, the exposed skin a whisper of temptation.
His colleagues were talking - he knew they were talking - but for a brief second, his mind wandered elsewhere. The thought came unbidden, slipping through his consciousness like something inevitable.
The image of his hand trailing up her spine, fingers tracing the delicate ridges of her back, shifting her hair over one shoulder so his lips could find the nape of her neck. He could see it - feel it, almost - the warmth of her skin under his touch, the slow, deliberate press of his mouth against the soft dip where her neck met her shoulder.
And then, lower - his fingertips teasing over the short zip at the base of her spine, the smallest tug, the promise of something unravelling. Heat flickered through him, a sudden, visceral thought he hadn’t been expecting. He exhaled sharply, forcing himself back to reality, to the conversation happening around him.
“Mate, you coming or what?” One of his co-stars nudged his shoulder lightly.
Cillian blinked, clearing his throat. “Yeah, I’ll…yeah.”
He took another sip of his drink, steadying himself as he willed the thought away.
But even as he forced himself to focus, to answer, to move, the image of Lucy O’Connor’s back - of the way she had turned from him so effortlessly, unknowingly leaving that vision behind - lingered in the quiet recesses of his mind.
*****
The after party was exactly what he had expected - loud, glamorous, and filled with the kind of energy that came from people who had just spent the night winning, losing, or pretending not to care about either. Cillian had reluctantly agreed to come, not because he particularly wanted to, but because saying no had felt like too much effort after the rush of the night.
Now, he sat at a small table, half in the shadows, nursing a whisky as the world moved on around him. Conversations swirled, laughter rang out, champagne flowed endlessly, but he remained apart from it. Detached.
His fingers wrapped around the glass, the amber liquid catching the low light, but his mind was elsewhere. He thought back to her performance.
‘Never Let Me Go’
The way she had stood there, bathed in that soft, golden light, her voice curling through the theatre like something tangible. She had started soft, delicate - like a secret being told for the first time. And then, as the music swelled, so did she.
Her voice had commanded the space, raw and unrestrained. He remembered watching her from his seat, the way she had tipped her head back as she held the final note, eyes closed, completely lost in it.
It had been… captivating. Not just the song, not just the way she had performed it, but her.
And then, later, he had watched her win. Had watched the moment she realised her name had been called, the shock, the breathless laughter, the way she had held the statue in her hands like she couldn’t quite believe it was real.
And he had felt something.
Something that still sat low in his chest, even now, as he swirled his whisky in the glass and let his mind wander back to the quiet exchange they had shared after. The moment in the winner’s lounge. The way she had turned from him, unknowingly leaving him with an image he hadn’t been able to shake.
Jesus. He exhaled, running a hand through his hair. He had no idea what to make of any of this. All he knew was that, in a room full of the biggest names in Hollywood, with music thrumming through the walls and expensive champagne being poured at every turn - he wasn’t thinking about any of it. Just her.
His eyes flickered toward the entrance as another wave of people entered the party. He recognised many of them instantly - actors, producers, faces from the film that had brought Lucy here tonight. The people she had thanked on stage. He took another slow sip of his whisky, but his focus had shifted.
Was she with them?
The thought surfaced before he could fully process it. He shouldn’t have cared. Shouldn’t have even been looking. But something about the way the night had unfolded - the moments that had built between them, quiet yet lingering - made him wonder. His gaze swept through the group, taking in familiar faces, until…
There.
A flash of teal, weaving between them.
Lucy.
His grip on the glass tightened slightly, a slow awareness settling in his chest. She was here. Her hair, still styled in those soft waves, caught the light as she moved. The dress -the same one that had already burned itself into his memory - clung to her frame, the low-cut back making it impossible to ignore. She wasn’t trying to be the centre of attention, wasn’t forcing herself into the chaos of the party, but even still, she stood out.
His eyes tracked her movements before he could stop himself. She greeted a few familiar faces, offering warm smiles, exchanging words he couldn’t hear over the hum of conversation around him. And then, as if sensing the weight of his gaze, she glanced up and their eyes met.
Then, just as quickly, she turned away, engaging in conversation with someone else, as if she hadn’t just caught him looking. Cillian exhaled, slow and measured, tipping his whisky to his lips once more.
*****
After a while, Cillian realised he hadn’t seen her in a while. It wasn’t something he’d consciously realised until he glanced around the party and found that the familiar flash of teal was missing from the groups still celebrating. The noise had thickened, the room growing warmer with every passing hour, but the absence of her in the crowd pulled at something he couldn’t quite name.
He exhaled, leaning back in his chair before reaching for his jacket draped over it. As he slid it on, he glanced at the others at his table.
“I’m gonna take off,” he said, voice low but firm.
Predictably, a few groans of protest followed.
“Ah, come on, man -”
“You just won an Oscar, have a bit of fun -”
“We barely see you at these things -”
Cillian smirked faintly but shook his head. They knew him well enough to know this wasn’t his scene. He’d shown up, made the rounds, done his part. But he wasn’t the kind to linger in these settings longer than necessary. He muttered his goodbyes, nodding to a few familiar faces as he weaved through the party. As he stepped out into the foyer, the air was marginally cooler, the energy more subdued.
That’s when he saw her.
She was perched on a stool at one of the many bars, a glass in front of her, but something was off.
Her face - so composed, so effortlessly confident throughout the night - was tight with tension. Not obvious, but he noticed. Her shoulders weren’t as relaxed, her grip on the glass a little firmer, her eyes flicking sideways every few seconds in a way that told him she wasn’t comfortable.
Then he saw him.
A man beside her, leaning in too close, his posture too familiar, his voice low as he spoke.
Cillian didn’t recognise him - some industry type, maybe, or someone who had slipped into the party with the right connections. It didn’t matter. What mattered was her.
And the way she clearly didn’t want him there. Cillian didn’t think. He just moved. And Lucy almost felt him before she saw him. The shift in the air, the quiet presence behind her - something solid, something safe. And then, just as the man beside her reached up, fingers brushing against her arm in a way that made her skin crawl, she felt something else.
A different touch.
He slipped his hand across the bare expanse of her back, warm and steady, his fingers tucking lightly into her side as if they belonged there. And for a split second, something flickered through his mind - this is exactly how I imagined it would feel when she turned away from me earlier.
Then, low, quiet, he dipped his head towards her. “Hey,” he murmured, voice calm, assured. “You ready to go?”
Lucy blinked up at him, momentarily confused, until she caught the look in his eyes. That quiet, deliberate expression, telling her to go with it. He was giving her an out. Relief washed through her instantly.
“Yeah, I am,” she answered smoothly, offering a small, effortless smile as she reached for her bag.
The man opposite them - who had, up until now, been pushing his luck - finally seemed to pick up on the shift. The way Cillian’s presence had changed the dynamic. The way Lucy, who had been politely but tensely trying to remove herself from the situation, now had a clear way out.
The man hesitated. Then, sensing the moment slipping beyond his control, forced a polite smile. “It was nice to meet you.”
Lucy returned a brief, practiced smile. “You too.”
And then she stood, allowing Cillian to guide her away. His hand remained at her waist as they wove through the foyer, the touch not possessive, not forceful - just there. A grounding presence, solid and unwavering. He didn’t let go until they stepped fully outside, away from the mans watchful eye. The cooler air wrapping around them as the noise of the party faded behind the heavy doors.
Only then did he slip his arm away, stepping back slightly, hands sliding into his pockets. His blue eyes flickered over her, assessing.
“Sorry if I overstepped,” he said, voice quieter now.
Lucy let out a breath, smiling up at him. “No. I really appreciate it. I couldn’t seem to shake him.”
Cillian nodded once, his shoulders relaxing slightly. “Yeah. I noticed.”
There was something about the way he said it - simple, matter-of-fact, like he had been watching her for longer than she realised. Lucy tilted her head slightly. “How long were you standing there?”
His lips quirked slightly. “Long enough.”
Silence settled between them, but it wasn’t uncomfortable. If anything, it felt like something had shifted - something unspoken but felt. Finally, she exhaled, glancing at the waiting cars lining the curb.
“Are you leaving?” she asked.
Cillian nodded. “Yeah. This isn’t really my scene.”
She nodded, rubbing her hand along her arm, still feeling the phantom touch of the man she hadn’t wanted there. Cillian noticed the movement.
“Let me call you a car,” he said.
She hesitated. “You don’t have to.”
“I know,” he cut in, voice even. “Let me anyway.”
She studied him for a moment as he began pulling his phone from his pocket until her voice, soft and a little hesitant, made him pause.
“Umm…” Lucy started, shifting slightly on her feet. “Do you need to get back to your hotel…?”
His eyes flicked back to her, waiting.
She bit her lip briefly, then exhaled. “Can I buy you a drink?” A small, almost sheepish smile accompanied the words before she motioned loosely behind her. “Maybe somewhere a bit quieter… just as a thank you for…”
She trailed off, waving a hand toward the party they had just escaped.
Cillian didn’t respond immediately, his gaze steady, considering. She continued quickly, filling the space. “My hotel’s not far from here. It’s got a nice bar. Quiet…and I swear, I’m really trying not to make this as suggestive as it sounds.”
That made him smirk. Lucy laughed, shaking her head. “That was terrible, wasn’t it?”
Cillian let out a low chuckle, glancing down briefly before tilting his head back up at her. “A little.”
She groaned playfully. “Fantastic.”
Still, she looked at him expectantly, waiting for an answer. He had planned to leave, to go back to his hotel, maybe have one last drink alone in his room before finally letting the night settle. But this felt different. This felt… interesting. He slipped his hands from his pockets, considering her for another second before he finally nodded.
“Alright,” he murmured. “One drink.”
Lucy’s eyes lit up, relief and amusement dancing in them.
“One drink,” she agreed.
The ride to her hotel was quiet but not uncomfortable. The city lights flickered through the window, casting soft glows of gold and blue against the darkened streets. Lucy sat back, her fingers absently smoothing over the silk of her dress as she let the hum of the car settle her. Beside her, Cillian was relaxed, one elbow resting lightly against the edge of the door, gaze flicking briefly toward her before returning to the streets outside.
Neither of them spoke much, but something about the silence felt intentional - like neither of them wanted to break whatever unspoken thing had settled between them since stepping out of that party together.
When they pulled up outside the hotel, Cillian followed her inside, past the grand, quiet lobby and toward the dimly lit bar tucked in the corner. It was warm, intimate, with only a handful of patrons occupying the sleek stools and leather booths.
Lucy led the way to a small table near the back, where the low golden light barely reached, and slid into a seat. Cillian followed, unhurried, settling across from her just as a waiter appeared. He was young, bright-eyed, probably eager to please given the kind of clientele this hotel likely attracted. He stood a little straighter when he saw who had just walked in.
“Good evening,” he greeted, polite but clearly trying not to look too starstruck. “What can I get for you?”
Lucy smiled, glancing at Cillian before answering. “Gin and tonic, please.”
Cillian smirked slightly at that but said nothing. The waiter nodded before turning to him. “And for you, sir?”
“Whiskey,” Cillian said simply. “Neat.”
“Of course. I’ll bring those right out.” The waiter left quickly, disappearing behind the polished bar.
A beat of silence. Then, he leaned slightly forward, resting an arm casually against the table.
“So,” he murmured, eyes glinting with something unreadable. “Tell me, Lucy O’Connor…do you always lure unsuspecting men to hotel bars after winning an Oscar?”
She grinned. “Only the ones who save me from creeps at parties.”
Cillian chuckled, shaking his head, but the warmth in his expression never faded. The drinks arrived then, set down in front of them with quiet efficiency. The waiter left them with a polite nod, leaving them in the soft quiet of the bar.
Lucy took a sip of her drink, the cool bitterness of the gin and tonic grounding her after the whirlwind of the night. The bar was quiet, the music low, the kind of place where people spoke in hushed tones rather than the raucous energy of the party they’d just left behind.
Cillian’s whiskey glass resting loosely in his fingers. He looked comfortable, if a little tired, but still present in a way she hadn’t expected. She had assumed he would’ve left the party and disappeared into the night, yet here he was - sitting with her.
“I have to admit,” she said, setting her glass down, “I didn’t think you’d say yes to this.”
His lips twitched slightly, amused. “To the drink?”
She tilted her head. “You don’t seem like the stay out late for a casual drink with someone you barely know type.”
Cillian hummed, taking a slow sip of his whiskey. “I’m not, usually.”
Lucy ran a finger along the rim of her glass, watching him. “So, are you regretting it yet?”
Cillian met her gaze, something unreadable flickering behind his eyes. “No,” he said simply.
Her chest tightened slightly at that. Not in a nervous way. In a way that made her aware of him, of the way his presence settled so easily into the space around her. She took another sip of her drink, swallowing down the warmth that had nothing to do with the alcohol.
“Good,” she murmured. “I’d hate for you to suffer through my company.”
Cillian smirked, his thumb tapping lightly against his glass. “I think I’ll survive.”
And just like that, the conversation stretched on, slipping into something that neither of them seemed in a rush to end. Lucy reached up, absentmindedly fiddling with the diamond earrings that hung from her ears, the soft glow of the bar’s lighting catching the sparkle in them. It was a small movement, something done without thinking, but Cillian noticed it. He noticed everything.
She took another slow sip of her drink, her gaze momentarily flicking away, lost in thought. And for a moment, he let himself look. Really look. She had the kind of features that lingered - elegant but not forced, striking without trying to be. There was a quiet confidence in the way she carried herself, but beneath it, there was something else. A depth, an awareness, a sharpness that he knew wasn’t just for show.
Her chestnut hair, still loosely curled from the night, framed her face in soft waves, a few strands slipping forward over her shoulder. Her skin was smooth under the dim lighting, her lips slightly parted after her last sip of gin, a faint sheen of condensation left on her fingertips from the glass. She was beautiful. That much was obvious. But it wasn’t just that.
It was the way she held herself. The way she watched people, read them. The way she had handled that moment earlier - poised, even when she had clearly been uncomfortable. She wasn’t just someone who had landed in the middle of all of this. She was aware of it. Of the power in a glance, in a smile, in a carefully chosen moment.
And yet, right now, sitting across from him in this quiet bar, away from the flashing cameras and the spectacle of the night - she just seemed… real. Lucy felt his gaze then, like a shift in the air, and slowly looked back up at him.
“What?” she asked, her voice quiet but curious.
Cillian took a sip of his whiskey, letting the warmth settle before answering. “Nothing.”
She narrowed her eyes slightly, as if trying to decide whether or not to believe him. But then, instead of pressing, she smirked and leaned forward just a fraction. “You stare a lot,” she mused.
Cillian smirked right back. “You fidget a lot.”
Her fingers stilled against her earring for a beat before she exhaled a soft laugh, shaking her head. “Fair point.”
She exhaled and leaned in slightly, propping her elbow against the table as she twirled the stem of her glass between her fingers. “So… tell me about you,” she said, her voice light, curious. “You’re from Cork, right?”
Cillian nodded, taking another sip of his whiskey. “I am. Am I catching a Dublin accent from you?”
She smirked. “Born and bred.”
His lips twitched slightly. “Thought so.”
She tilted her head. “Still got family in Cork?”
“Yeah,” he said, nodding. “I live just outside Dublin now, but my family’s still down there.”
Lucy hummed. “You get back much?”
“As much as I can,” he admitted. “It’s home, you know?”
Her gaze softened slightly as she nodded. “Yeah. There’s something about leaving Ireland that makes you feel it more, doesn’t it? The second you’re away from it, you start feeling like you need to claim it, even more than you did when you were actually there.”
Cillian chuckled at that, tipping his glass toward her slightly. “Exactly.”
They slipped into easy conversation from there, the warmth of familiarity threading through it. They talked about family, about home, about the little things that made Ireland feel like Ireland - things only someone who had grown up there would understand. The corner shops, the rain that never quite stopped, the very specific sense of humour that Irish people carried like second nature.
It felt natural, effortless, like they weren’t two people sitting in a fancy hotel bar after one of the biggest nights of their careers. Just two people, talking. And for the first time that night, it felt like the world outside of this conversation didn’t matter at all.
They finished their drinks at an unhurried pace, the conversation stretching between them in a way that felt effortless, like they could have gone on for hours without noticing. But eventually, the glasses sat empty, the ice melting slowly at the bottom.
Lucy glanced down at hers, running her finger over the rim before lifting her gaze back to him. “I suppose that’s the one drink done,” she murmured, a small smile playing on her lips as she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.
Cillian smirked slightly, his fingers tapping absently against the side of his empty whisky glass. “It is.”
There was something lingering in the space between them - something unspoken but undeniable. The kind of thing that existed in the space between words, in the way her eyes held his just a second too long, in the way he hadn’t quite leaned back yet, as if neither of them was quite ready to walk away.
Lucy exhaled, glancing around briefly before looking back at him. “I’m glad you came.”
He studied her for a moment before nodding. “Yeah,” he murmured. “Me too.”
Another pause, but this one felt different. Like they were standing at the edge of something, waiting to see if either of them would step forward.
Lucy tilted her head slightly, her voice softer now. “You heading back, then?”
Cillian considered that for a second longer than he probably should have. He should go. That had been the plan. But as he looked at her, sitting across from him in this dimly lit bar, her teal dress still effortlessly draped over her, her presence still as magnetic as it had been hours ago - he realised he wasn’t quite ready for the night to be over.
“I’d like to stay,” Cillian said, his voice low, deliberate. Then he leaned in just a fraction, the kind of movement that felt natural, unforced. His blue eyes held hers, steady and sure. “I mean, if you want to get another… or two…”
Her lips parted slightly, the suggestion settling between them, stretching out in the quiet space of the bar. She didn’t answer right away. She just watched him. The way he said it - not just as a casual offer, but as something intentional. As if he wasn’t just asking about another drink. As if there was an unspoken question layered beneath it, one that neither of them had quite put into words yet. A slow smile pulled at the corner of her mouth.
“Well,” she murmured, tilting her head slightly. “It’d be rude to leave you sitting here alone, wouldn’t it?”
Cillian exhaled a quiet chuckle, his fingers tapping idly against the table. “Terribly rude.”
Lucy smirked, her eyes glinting with something unreadable. Then, without another word, she lifted her hand to catch the waiter’s attention. As he approached, she glanced at Cillian once more. “One more?” she asked, teasing.
Cillian leaned back slightly, smirking. “At least.”
Lucy let her fingers drift from her collarbone to the silk strap of her dress, absently adjusting it as she spoke. “I never did say thanks for saving me back there.”
Cillian’s gaze flickered to her fingers for the briefest moment before lifting back to meet hers. “You don’t have to,” he murmured.
But she shook her head and without hesitation, she reached across the table and placed her hand over his. It was warm, steady - deliberate, her expression softer now. “I do.”
Cillian’s fingers tensed beneath hers for half a second, just barely, before he let them relax. He didn’t move, didn’t shift away, just let her touch rest there, solid and unspoken. Lucy exhaled softly. “I didn’t feel like I could do anything without making a scene,” she admitted, her voice quieter now, more real. “You couldn’t have appeared at a better time.”
Cillian studied her for a long moment, his expression unreadable, but there was something behind his eyes - something sharp, something knowing.
He turned his hand slightly under hers, just enough so that his fingers lightly curled around the side of her palm. “Timing’s everything,” he said simply.
The weight of the moment settled between them, thick but not uncomfortable. The bar, the people around them, the rest of the night - it all faded into the background.
All that existed was the warmth of her hand on his, the slow drag of her fingertips against his skin, the flicker of something unspoken hanging in the air.
Lucy suddenly straightened, as if catching herself, and slid her hand back, breaking the contact. “Sorry,” she murmured, her voice quieter now, almost uncertain.
Cillian’s fingers flexed slightly where her touch had just been, the warmth of it still lingering against his skin. But he didn’t push, didn’t question it. He simply tilted his head slightly, studying her. “You don’t have to be,” he said, voice even.
She let out a soft breath, reaching for her glass again, though she didn’t immediately take a sip. Instead, she let her fingers rest against the cool surface, her gaze flicking somewhere past him, like she was trying to ground herself. The shift between them was subtle, but it was there. A moment of something real, something unguarded, slipping between them before she had pulled herself back. Cillian didn’t look away.
“Lucy,” he said gently, drawing her focus back to him.
Her lips parted slightly, as if she wanted to say something, but she hesitated. Instead, she just exhaled a quiet laugh, shaking her head. “I don’t know why I did that.”
Cillian smirked faintly, leaning forward slightly, just enough to close the space between them again. “I think you do.”
Lucy’s lips curved into a soft smile as she lifted her glass, taking a slow sip. “Do I?”
Cillian didn’t look away, didn’t let the moment slip. His gaze remained steady, unwavering. “Mm hmm,” he stated simply, his voice low, confident.
Lucy arched a brow, intrigued. “Care to enlighten me?”
She smirked, taking another sip, the whisky settling warm in her chest. Cillian exhaled a quiet chuckle, rolling the glass between his fingers. “I could.”
She tilted her head slightly, watching him, the tease still playing at the edge of her lips. “But?”
“But I think you already know,” he murmured.
Lucy let the words settle between them, the slow pull of something unspoken hanging in the air. She could feel it—the shift, the weight of his attention, the way he wasn’t just looking at her, but reading her.
She swallowed, the whisky lingering on her tongue, and smirked again. “You’re very sure of yourself, aren’t you?”
Cillian smirked right back, his fingers tapping lightly against his glass. “Not always.”
Lucy leaned forward slightly, resting her elbow on the table. “But right now?”
He held her gaze, his smirk softening, his expression turning unreadable.
“Right now,” he murmured, “yeah.”
The way he said it - slow, deliberate - sent something warm curling low in her stomach.
And for the first time all night, she wasn’t entirely sure she wanted to tease him anymore. Lucy tilted her head, eyes glinting with something teasing, something challenging - but beneath it, there was honesty.
“What do you want me to say?” she murmured, her voice smooth, controlled. “You want me to tell you that I want you? That I’ve wanted you since the minute I saw you on that carpet?”
She watched him carefully, waiting for a reaction. And she got one. It wasn’t obvious - not something anyone else in the room would pick up on - but she felt it. The way his body stilled just slightly, the way his grip on his glass tightened, the way his gaze darkened ever so subtly, sharpening with something heavier than amusement. Cillian exhaled slowly, setting his whisky down with deliberate ease. He leaned in, resting his forearm against the table, his voice lower when he spoke.
“No,” he murmured. “I don’t need you to tell me.”
Since the moment she had turned from him on that carpet, since the moment she had looked at him across the aisle in the theatre, since the moment she had let her hand linger over his - he had known. And the way he was looking at her now? Made her wonder if maybe, just maybe, he had felt it too.
Lucy nodded, the decision settling within her. Then, without breaking eye contact, she threw back the last of her drink in one smooth motion, the warmth of it burning down her throat.
She stood, slow and deliberate, reaching for her clutch. “I think I’m going to head upstairs,” she murmured, adjusting the strap of her dress slightly. “Might have a drink on the balcony.”
Cillian didn’t move, didn’t react - not outwardly, at least. But his eyes tracked her, watching as she stepped toward the bar.
She rested her fingers lightly on the counter, glancing at the bartender. “Can you just charge those drinks to room 648, please?”
The bartender nodded, and she turned back, meeting Cillian’s gaze once more.
There was nothing in her expression that was rushed, nothing uncertain. Just a quiet, knowing offer woven into the moment. Then, without another word, she moved toward the door of the bar. She didn’t look back again. She moved through the dimly lit hallway, her heels clicking softly against the polished floor as she reached the elevator. She pressed the up button, then stood there, exhaling slowly as she waited for the doors to open.
Her heart wasn’t racing - not quite - but there was a slow, steady anticipation curling low in her stomach. She could still feel him back in the bar. The weight of his gaze. The silence of his decision forming.
She hadn’t rushed. She hadn’t needed to look back. Because if this was going to happen, it wasn’t going to be because of a glance over her shoulder or a playful smirk. It was going to be because he chose to follow.
The elevator chimed softly, and the doors slid open. She stepped inside, pressing the button for her floor. She turned slightly, her eyes drifting across the lobby and there he was, standing at the edge of the bar’s entrance, his hands still in his pockets, his expression unreadable - but his eyes locked on hers.
For a second, neither of them moved. Then, slowly, deliberately, he pushed away from the doorframe and started toward her. Lucy’s fingers hovered over the close door button, teasing, but she didn’t press it. She just stood there, watching him approach, and just as the doors started to slide shut, his hand reached out, catching them. He stepped inside, the space suddenly feeling smaller, warmer. Neither of them spoke.
As they got off the elevator on her floor, she walked towards her room, pulling her key card from her bag as she opened it up. She moved inside and held the door open just long enough for him to follow before she let it swing shut behind him, the soft click of the lock settling into the quiet space between them.
She didn’t say anything. Didn’t look back as she moved toward the mini bar, slipping easily into the room’s low, golden light.
Cillian watched as she lifted two glasses, her movements smooth, practiced, before she reached for the whiskey. The rich amber liquid poured easily into each glass, the faint clink of ice against glass the only sound breaking the stillness.
Then, without a word, she stepped out of her heels, the soft sigh of her bare feet meeting the carpet making something flicker in his chest.
She lifted one of the glasses, turning toward him, her steps slow, deliberate. And then she was in front of him. Closer than they had been before. She held out the glass, and when he reached for it, their fingers brushed - just for a second, just enough for the warmth of her skin to press into his.
She took a slow step back, moving toward the balcony doors, the city lights casting faint shadows across the room. She reached for the handle, sliding it open. Without looking back, she stepped outside, the soft fabric of her dress shifting against her skin as she leaned against the railing. She felt him hesitate. Just for a second. But then, he stepped onto the balcony, the cool night air brushing against his skin as he let the door slide shut behind him. The distant hum of the city stretched out below, a quiet contrast to the stillness between them.
He placed his glass down on the small table beside them, but his focus wasn’t on the drink. It was on her.
Lucy stood at the railing, her fingers resting lightly against the metal, her gaze somewhere beyond the skyline. Then, in one slow, effortless movement, she reached up, gathering her hair and pulling it over one shoulder.
His breath slowed. The smooth expanse of her back, already lingering in his thoughts since the moment he saw her in that dress, was now right in front of him - bare, inviting, the silk of the gown dipping impossibly low, revealing the delicate curve of her spine.
His eyes drifted, drawn to the subtle way her skin caught the light, to the way the fabric clung in all the right places. He flexed his fingers, shoving his hands into his pockets, resisting the pull - the urge - to reach out. The tension between them was no longer unspoken. It was thick, palpable, stretching with every second that passed in silence. And Cillian wasn’t sure how much longer he could stand there without touching her.
Eventually, his hand lifted, fingers reaching out, hovering just above the smooth expanse of her back. He hesitated, just for a fraction of a second, before finally touching. His fingertips ghosted over her skin, barely a whisper of contact, tracing along the delicate ridge of her spine. Lucy inhaled sharply. Not loud, not exaggerated - just a small, barely perceptible hitch in her breath.
But he noticed.
His fingers trailed lower, slow and deliberate, tracing down to the base of where her dress dipped before dragging back up again, his knuckles brushing lightly against her skin as if memorising the feeling. She leaned into it - just the slightest shift, the kind of movement that wasn’t obvious but was felt.
Cillian swallowed, his gaze fixated on the way her skin reacted to his touch, the way goosebumps rose in the wake of his fingers. His voice, when he finally spoke, was low. Rough. “You knew I’d follow you up here, didn’t you?”
Lucy exhaled, turning her head slightly, just enough to glance at him over her shoulder, her eyes dark with something unreadable. “I hoped you would,” she admitted, her voice smooth, steady.
Cillian let his fingers drift higher, brushing the loose strands of hair at the nape of her neck, his thumb just barely tracing along her shoulder. Then, dipping his head slightly, his lips hovered – just- above her skin.
His breath was warm against her skin as he lingered, his lips lingering just above the nape of her neck. He had imagined this moment earlier - had felt the pull of it the second she turned away from him at the party, leaving him with the thought of tracing his mouth along the delicate curve of her spine.
And now, with her standing in front of him, her skin bare, exposed to the night air and to him, he finally gave in.
His lips grazed her skin - soft, deliberate. A barely-there kiss, more of a test than anything else, but the way Lucy inhaled, the way her body reacted to him, had something tightening in his chest. He felt the way she stilled beneath him, felt the way her breath came just a fraction sharper.
His hand, still resting against her back, splayed slightly, his fingertips pressing into the base of her spine as he traced another kiss, this time slightly lower. Lucy exhaled, tilting her head ever so slightly to the side, offering him more. It was all the invitation he needed. His lips moved along her skin, trailing down the exposed curve of her shoulder, his breath warm against the cool night air. His fingers skimmed upward, teasing along the silk strap of her dress, as if testing how easily it might fall.
Cillian let out a slow breath, his lips still hovering just above her skin. His fingers traced idle patterns against her spine, his other hand still teasing the strap of her dress.
He let his fingers drift lower, his palm pressing lightly against the base of her back, his thumb skimming along the dip of her waist. He pressed another kiss to her shoulder, letting his lips linger against her skin before pulling back just slightly.
“I thought the second I touched you,” he admitted, his breath warm against her skin, “I wouldn’t want to stop.”
Lucy turned in his hold then, slow and deliberate, until she was facing him, her back now pressed lightly against the railing. Her eyes searched his, dark with something unreadable.
“And do you?” she asked softly.
His jaw tensed, his fingers flexing slightly at her waist.
“Not even a little,” he admitted.
Lucy smirked, tilting her chin up slightly, her fingers trailing down the front of his shirt. “Then don’t.”
Cillian’s restraint snapped. His hand came up, cupping the back of her neck as he finally closed the space between them, his lips capturing hers in a kiss that was anything but careful. Lucy’s hands slid up over his shoulders, her fingers tracing the tense line of muscle beneath his shirt before curling around the fabric of his jacket. She didn’t rush - she savoured, feeling the way his body reacted beneath her touch, the way his breath grew heavier against her skin. The fabric slipped down his arms, and she caught it, gripping it for just a second before turning and dropping it onto the chair beside them, her movements fluid, controlled.
His hands found her waist again, his thumbs brushing slow, teasing circles against her skin where the dress dipped low at her back.
Lucy moved slowly, deliberately, beginning to undo each button of his shirt with a steady precision that made Cillian’s breath grow heavier with every passing second. She didn’t rush, didn’t fumble - just took her time, letting her fingertips graze against his skin as she parted the fabric of his shirt.
When the last button slipped free, she exhaled softly, her breath catching slightly as she took in the sight of him.
Her hands, unashamed now, travelled over the firm lines of his abdomen, her fingers tracing the defined muscles, the warmth of his skin beneath her palms making something tighten low in her stomach.
Her touch was soft but sure, her fingers pressing lightly against his ribs, dragging lower, memorising every ridge, every contour.
Lucy’s gaze flicked up to his, her lips parting slightly, as if she wanted to say something - but no words came. Instead, she turned away from him slowly, her body shifting as she placed her stomach against the cool metal railing. The night air kissed her skin, a contrast to the warmth still lingering between them. She reached up, gathering her hair in one fluid motion, pulling it over her shoulder to expose the bare expanse of her back once more. Then, just as smoothly, she glanced at him over her shoulder.
Inviting.
Cillian’s breath caught slightly. His fingers flexed at his sides as his eyes traced the exposed curve of her spine, the delicate slope of her shoulders, the way the silk of her dress clung to her waist. He pressed his lips to the nape of her neck once more, his breath warm against her skin as his hands found the small zipper at the base of her spine. Slowly, deliberately, he slid it down. The soft hum of the zipper lowering was the only sound between them, apart from the steady rhythm of their breaths.
Lucy remained still beneath his touch, her hands resting lightly on the railing, her body pliant, waiting.
His fingers slipped beneath the delicate straps of her dress, tracing over her shoulders as he touched her gently, coaxing her to turn back toward him. She did, moving effortlessly, until she was facing him once more, her eyes dark, expectant.
Cillian held her gaze as he gripped the straps, pausing for just a moment, giving her the chance to stop him. With one smooth motion, he pulled the straps down, letting the fabric slip over her skin, revealing her bare to him. His breath stilled. He had imagined - fantasised - about this moment in fragments all night, but nothing compared to the reality of her standing in front of him now, illuminated only by the soft glow of the city lights filtering through the balcony.
Lucy exhaled softly, her fingers lifting to rest lightly against his chest, waiting for him to say something, to do something. Cillian swallowed, his voice low, rough when he finally spoke.
“You are,” he murmured, his hands sliding up her sides, his touch reverent, “fucking breathtaking.”
Lucy kissed him deeply, her body pressing against his as she gently guided him backward. He let her, following the movement, his hands exploring every inch of exposed skin he could reach. His fingers reached behind him, fumbling for the sliding door, and with one firm push, he sent it open. The cool air of the balcony faded as they stepped inside, the dim glow of the hotel room wrapping around them. And then, just as smoothly, she pushed him onto the bed.
Cillian barely had time to react before he was sinking into the mattress, watching as she turned to the window. Her dress, still resting around her hips, swayed with the motion as she reached for the curtains, drawing them closed, sealing them in. When she turned back to him, her gaze was steady, unwavering. She stepped forward, slow and deliberate, stopping just in front of him. He instinctively rested his hands on her hips, his grip firm as his fingers curled into the silk gathered around her waist. He tugged the fabric down inch by inch, letting it glide over the curves of her body before finally letting it slip past her hips, falling in a whisper of silk to the floor.
He pulled back slightly, his breath still uneven, his hands still resting at her sides. But when he looked at her, really looked, his eyes widened, his breath catching in his throat.
The entire night.
On the carpet, in the theatre, walking the stage, standing beside him at the bar -
She had been completely naked beneath that dress.
His gaze dragged slowly down her body, taking in every inch of her now bare before him, before flicking back up to meet her eyes. Lucy smirked, watching the realisation settle over him, a quiet, knowing satisfaction dancing in her expression. Cillian let out a slow exhale, his jaw tightening as his hands flexed at her waist.
“Jesus Christ, Lucy,” he murmured, his voice rough, almost wrecked.
She tilted her head slightly, amusement flickering behind her darkened gaze. “Problem?”
Cillian let out a low, breathless chuckle, shaking his head as he traced his hands over her bare skin, possessive now, as if he needed to make up for the fact that he hadn’t known before.
“Not even a little,” he admitted, voice thick with something deeper.
Then, in one fluid motion, his hands gripped her thighs, lifting her effortlessly before laying her down onto the bed beneath him. Her legs parted slightly, a silent invitation, as she propped herself up on her elbows, watching him. Cillian moved to stand at the edge of the bed, his hands moving to the buttons of his trousers. He worked them open, his movements unhurried but deliberate, the weight of her gaze making his pulse drum harder beneath his skin. He pushed the fabric down, letting them fall to the floor.
Lucy’s eyes flickered downward, her breath catching just slightly as her teeth sank into her bottom lip. Her gaze lingered, dark with something raw, something undeniable.
Then, lifting her chin slightly, she met his eyes again and said, without a hint of hesitation -
“And those.”
A demand. Not a request. Cillian exhaled sharply, a low chuckle rumbling in his chest, but there was nothing playful in the way he looked at her now - only heat, only want, only her. He hooked his thumbs into the waistband of his boxers, his movements slow, measured, letting her watch, letting her wait.
Then, without breaking her gaze, he pushed them down.
And from the way her lips parted, from the way her breath hitched just slightly, he knew he had her exactly where he wanted. He moved, climbing onto he bed, his hand drifted slowly, deliberately, trailing down the soft curve of her body as he deepened the kiss. His fingers traced over the dip of her waist, the smooth expanse of her stomach, before sliding lower.
Lucy gasped against his lips as he found her, his touch firm but teasing, parting her legs with ease. He groaned softly, feeling just how ready she was for him, how her body responded instantly to his touch.
“Fuck, Lucy…” he murmured against her lips, his breath warm, voice thick with something wrecked, something desperate.
She arched into him, her nails scraping lightly down his back as he circled his fingers over her with slow, torturous precision. Her head tipped back, exposing her throat to him, and he took advantage of it immediately, his mouth moving to her neck, pressing hot, open-mouthed kisses against her skin. Her breath hitched, her hips shifting beneath him, chasing more, and Cillian smirked against her skin.
“Patience,” he teased, his voice rough but playful, even as he applied more pressure, coaxing another gasp from her lips.
He moved down her body with slow, deliberate intent, his lips leaving a trail of hot, open-mouthed kisses across her skin. His fingers never stopped moving, never stopped working her, keeping her on edge, keeping her breathless beneath him.
Lucy’s head tipped back against the pillows, her body arching as he pushed her legs further apart, settling himself between them. His mouth trailed lower, teasing along her stomach, his breath warm, possessive, as he pressed kisses down the soft inside of her thighs. She gasped, her fingers threading into his hair, tugging slightly, urging him on.
Cillian smirked against her skin, lingering, savouring, dragging out the anticipation until he felt her legs tremble slightly beneath his grip. Then, finally, his mouth found her. Lucy let out a sharp, choked moan, her back arching as he devoured her, his hands gripping her thighs as he pulled her against him. Cillian groaned low against her, the sound vibrating through her body, sending shockwaves of pleasure straight to her core.
“Oh my God, Cillian,” Lucy gasped, her voice breaking as pleasure surged through her.
Her fingers tightened in his hair, holding him exactly where she needed him, her hips shifting instinctively toward his mouth, toward the devastating rhythm of his tongue. Cillian groaned in response, the vibration sending another wave of sensation through her. His hands pressed firmly against her thighs, keeping her spread open for him, keeping her exactly where he wanted her. He was relentless, his mouth working her with expert precision, alternating between slow, teasing strokes and deep, consuming pressure that had her gasping, begging for more. Lucy writhed beneath him, her breath coming in short, uneven bursts, her body burning from the inside out.
“Cillian – fuck - ” she choked out, her back arching as she pulled at his hair, her thighs trembling against his grip.
He loved hearing her like this. Loved knowing that he was unravelling her completely, dragging her higher, pushing her closer. And when he finally slipped his fingers back inside her, curling just right, his name tore from her lips again, wrecked and desperate, as she shattered beneath him.
Cillian didn’t stop. Didn’t let up. Not until he had wrung every last drop of pleasure from her, not until she was gasping, trembling, her body completely undone beneath him.
Only then did he finally pull away, his lips trailing back up her body, his mouth brushing against her ear as he whispered, “Say it again.”
“Cillian,” Lucy whispered into his ear, her voice soft but wrecked, still breathless from everything he’d just done to her.
Cillian exhaled shakily, his forehead pressing against hers as he let himself feel the moment, the warmth of her skin against his, the rapid rise and fall of her chest, the way she still trembled slightly beneath him. His hands skimmed over her sides, slow and reverent, as if memorising every inch of her.
“Fuck, Lucy…” he murmured, his voice thick, raw. He exhaled sharply, his body tense above hers, his self-control dangling by a thread. But before he could respond, before he could even think, her hand slipped between them, wrapping around him, her touch firm, knowing.
Cillian groaned low in his throat, his forehead pressing against hers as his hips jerked slightly into her grasp, the sensation of her hands on him unravelling him completely.
“Lucy…” he breathed, his voice strained, wrecked, as he fought to hold onto the last shred of restraint he had left. She smirked, just slightly, her thumb stroking along his length, slow, teasing, torturous.
“Tell me you want me.” she murmured, her lips brushing against his, teasing but needing, too.
Cillian’s jaw clenched, his hands gripping her hips tight as he hovered over her, his breath heavy, uneven.
His lips barely ghosted over hers as he whispered, his voice low, possessive. “I need you, Lucy.”
Then, with one smooth, fluid motion, he guided himself against her, teasing her just enough to make her gasp, and then, he pushed inside. Lucy’s body reacted before she could even think - her hips lifting, meeting him halfway, her legs wrapping firmly around his waist, pulling him deeper. A gasp escaped her lips, pleasure shooting through her like wildfire as her body adjusted to the stretch of him, the perfect way he fit against her.
Cillian groaned, his forehead nearly dropping to her shoulder, the sensation of finally being inside her too much and not enough all at once. His fingers tightened against her hips, holding her there as he tried to steady himself. Her hand slipped up, finding his cheek, her fingers curling against his skin as she forced him to look at her.
“Cillian,” she whispered, her breath hot, her eyes burning with something deep, something real.
His blue eyes flickered open, dark, wrecked, locking onto hers. He felt everything in that moment - the way she held him, the way her body clung to him, inviting, demanding. The way she needed him just as much as he needed her. Lucy swallowed hard, her thumb stroking along his jaw, her voice softer now, but no less certain.
“I want to see you.”
Cillian swore under his breath, something breaking in him at her words, at the way she was undoing him completely.
Then, with a deep, measured breath, he pulled back slowly - just enough to make her feel it - before thrusting forward again, setting a rhythm that was deliberate, intense, unrelenting. Their bodies moved in perfect rhythm, Cillian’s thrusts deep and relentless, pulling soft cries from Lucy’s lips each time he hit exactly where she needed him. Her nails raked down his back, her legs tightening around his hips as she gasped, her breath breaking apart with every movement.
“Cillian…” she gasped, her voice breathless, desperate. “Keep going, God - harder.”
Cillian groaned, his jaw tightening, his control hanging by a thread as he obeyed, gripping her hips and driving into her with more intensity, more force, pulling another sharp, wrecked moan from her lips. He felt the exact moment she unravelled beneath him, the way her body tightened, clenched, her back arching as her release hit her like a wave. She cried out, gripping onto him, holding him there as she shattered around him.
“Fuck, Lucy,” he growled, his rhythm faltering as the sensation of her pulsing around him nearly undid him right then and there. But he held on, barely, chasing his own release, his breath ragged against her skin.
Lucy didn’t let him think, didn’t let him slow. Her lips found his, kissing him deeply, hungrily. Then his cheekbones, his jaw, trailing kisses along his skin as he groaned against her mouth.
And then, as his movements grew erratic, as his restraint slipped entirely, she nipped at his earlobe, tugging lightly with her teeth before whispering, “Let go, Cillian.”
That was it. His breath caught, his hands gripped onto her, and with one final, deep thrust, he broke. His release crashed over him like a tidal wave, a guttural groan tearing from his lips as he lost himself in her completely, his body tensing, then shuddering against hers as he gave in.
Lucy held him through it, her hands soothing over his damp skin, her lips still pressing soft, lingering kisses along his jaw as his breath slowed, his body still pressed perfectly against hers.
Cillian let out a slow breath, his body still pressed against hers as he reluctantly pulled out of her, the loss of contact making them both ache just slightly.
Lucy exhaled softly, shifting onto her side as she pulled the sheet up over herself, tucking it beneath her arms. The silk of it barely covered her, but she wasn’t in any rush to fix it. She was too warm, too wrecked, too content.
Cillian moved beside her, mirroring her position, one arm bent beneath his head as he watched her, his expression softer now, calmer.
Then, out of nowhere, she laughed.
Not forced, not exaggerated - just genuine.
She shook her head, glancing up at him, her eyes still heavy-lidded from pleasure but shining with something else.
“I don’t understand any of this night,” she murmured, amusement lacing her tone. “I woke up this morning on my own, getting ready for an awards show I’ve spent twenty years watching on TV… and now…”
She gestured vaguely between them, her fingers brushing over his bare chest before dropping to the mattress.
“I don’t know how I got here.”
Cillian leaned in, pressing his lips to hers again, slow and lingering. “Don’t overthink it. Just…be here.”
They lay there, her wrapped up alongside him as he trailed his fingers up and down her spine. They spoke, about the night, about life back in Ireland, about anything until his hand shifted down around her hip, pulling her to him, his grip firm but unhurried, his hand slipping into her hair, his fingers tangling in the soft strands as he kissed her. His other hand traced the curve of her waist, his palm warm against her bare skin, possessive in the way he held her.
He broke away just enough to murmur against her lips, his breath hot, voice thick.
“I knew from the minute I saw you,” he confessed, his forehead pressing lightly to hers, his fingers tightening in her hair, “I wanted you.”
Lucy’s breath caught, her hands sliding over his chest, holding him now, as if grounding herself. Her pulse thundered in her ears, her body still warm, still humming from the way he had touched her before.
Her fingers traced along his collarbone, her gaze locked onto his. “And now that you have me?”
Cillian smirked, but it was softer this time, something deeper lurking beneath it. His hand slid down, pressing firmly into the small of her back, pulling her flush against him.
“Now,” he murmured, his lips brushing against hers, “I’m not fucking done with you yet.”
Lucy laughed softly against his lips, the sound teasing, light, but cut off almost instantly when Cillian’s hand moved. He slid his fingers between her legs once more, finding her with ease, his touch confident, knowing exactly what she needed. Her breath hitched, the laughter melting into a sharp gasp as her body reacted instantly, her thighs parting just slightly to give him more.
Cillian smirked against her mouth, his fingers moving with slow, torturous precision, dragging through her heat before pressing exactly where she needed him.
“Not laughing now, are you?” he murmured, his voice rough, teasing, but full of something darker, something wrecked.
Lucy swallowed hard, her fingers gripping onto his shoulders as pleasure curled through her, wiping away every ounce of composure she had left.
“Cillian…” she gasped, her body arching into his touch, chasing the friction, chasing him.
His lips found her jaw, his breath hot against her skin as he worked her open again, pushing her closer, his control over her absolute.
“Christ, I love the way you say my name like that,” he growled, pressing deeper, curling his fingers inside her in a way that had her breaking beneath him.
Lucy let her body surrender completely to him as she lay back against the sheets, her legs falling open, welcoming him in a way that left no room for hesitation.She wanted this. Needed this.
Needed him.
Cillian saw it and felt it, and with a slow, deliberate smirk, he rewarded her by slipping in another finger, stretching her further, his pace steady but relentless as he began to move down her body.
Lucy gasped, her back arching as her hands clutched at the sheets, pleasure surging through her at the added pressure, the delicious way he worked her body with ease.
“Fuck, Lucy…” Cillian groaned, watching her fall apart beneath him, completely open, completely his. He loved seeing her like this - raw, undone, completely at his mercy. His lips found her thigh, kissing, nipping, teasing as his fingers continued their slow, devastating rhythm. Her breath came in short, desperate bursts, her body trembling, chasing the release he was so clearly holding just out of reach.
“Cillian…” she gasped, her hands reaching for him now, her voice thick, pleading.
Cillian exhaled a rough chuckle, dipping his head lower, pressing his lips just above where she needed him most.
“Tell me what you want, Lucy,” he murmured against her skin, his fingers curling inside her just right, making her cry out. Her hands tangled in his hair, nails scraping against his scalp as she pulled him toward her.
“I want you,” she breathed, her voice wrecked, desperate.
Cillian groaned, his self-control shattering. Lucy continued to tug him toward her with a need that was no longer restrained, no longer teased…it was demanding. Her hips lifted to meet his mouth, seeking more, chasing the pleasure he was giving her, and Cillian let her…let her guide him, let her take what she needed. And fuck, he loved it.
His grip on her thighs tightened as he anchored her, keeping her exactly where he wanted, exactly where she wanted. His tongue worked her expertly, with the same relentless precision as his fingers had, flicking, devouring, sending shockwaves through every inch of her. Lucy gasped, her body shaking, her fingers tightening in his hair as she tried to hold onto something, anything, but she was already slipping, already teetering on the edge.
“Cillian…fuck.” she gasped, her breath breaking, her thighs trembling against him.
Cillian groaned against her, the vibration sending another wave of heat rushing through her. He could feel it…how close she was, how her body was already tightening around him, already there. And when she cried out his name again, her back arched, her breath catching as pleasure consumed her.
Lucy barely let herself breathe before she moved, shifting with purpose, determination, flipping the moment entirely as she pushed him onto his back. Cillian let out a rough groan, caught off guard for half a second, but fuck, he let her. Welcomed it. His hands went to her hips instinctively, but she wasn’t waiting for him to take control. Her lips crashed into his, claiming, tasting herself on his tongue as she straddled him, pressing herself against him with no hesitation, no patience.
Her mouth moved from his, trailing down his neck, her lips and tongue dragging against his pulse, his collarbone, the firm lines of his chest, lower.
Cillian’s head tipped back against the pillows, his breath coming in short, sharp exhales, his fingers twitching against the sheets.
And then…
Her mouth took him. His control shattered. Cillian swore, his fingers tangling in her hair, his back arching slightly as her lips wrapped around him, her tongue tracing, working him with zero teasing, zero hesitation…just pure, deliberate intent.
His thighs tensed, his grip tightening in her hair, his head falling back again as he struggled to hold himself together.
“Jesus, Lucy.” he groaned, his voice completely wrecked, his breath ragged as she kept him on the very edge, pushing him just far enough before pulling back, before denying him his release.
Cillian let out a breathless, desperate laugh, shaking his head, his fingers trailing to her jaw as she moved back up his body.
“You’re gonna kill me,” he rasped, his lips crashing into hers again.
Lucy smirked against his mouth. “Not yet.”
And then, with one slow, smooth motion, she sank onto him, taking him completely. Cillian swore, his fingers gripping onto her hips as his breath vanished entirely. She moved with a slow, deliberate rhythm, rolling her hips in a way that sent sharp waves of pleasure spiralling through both of them. Cillian’s hands roamed over her body, his palms sliding across her stomach, up to her chest, feeling her, memorising her, his fingers tracing every curve as she moved on him.
His thumbs brushed over her as he groaned low in his throat, watching her completely lost in the moment, her body rocking against him with effortless, intoxicating ease. Lucy’s breath came heavier, her hands gripping onto his chest for support as she set her pace, her thighs tightening around him. Cillian exhaled sharply, his fingers digging into her hips, his head pressing back against the pillows as he let her take what she needed, let her control this moment, let her ruin him.
“Fuck, Lucy…” he groaned, his voice raw, strained.
She smirked down at him, her movements steady but unrelenting, rolling her hips in a way that made his jaw clench, his breath stutter.
“You like that?” she teased, breathless, her hands sliding up his chest, nails scraping lightly against his skin.
Cillian let out a strangled, breathless chuckle, his hands tightening at her waist. “Love it.” he admitted, his voice thick with need.
Lucy leaned down, her lips brushing against his jaw, her breath hot against his ear.
“Then don’t hold back.”
Cillian growled low in his throat, his control slipping entirely at her words.
And then, he flipped them, pinning her beneath him, taking her the way they both needed. Lucy gasped, her breath catching as Cillian hooked both of her legs over his shoulders, his grip strong, possessive, using her body for leverage as he drove into her. The angle sent a shockwave through her, pleasure shooting straight to her core, her back arching off the bed as she cried out, her fingers scrambling to grip onto something, anything.
Cillian groaned, his jaw clenching as he watched her unravel beneath him, completely open to him, for him. His hands gripped her thighs, holding her in place as he set a relentless rhythm, deep and devastating, pushing her higher, harder, refusing to let either of them breathe.
“Fuck, Lucy,” he growled, his voice wrecked, raw with need. “You feel so fucking perfect.”
Lucy couldn’t even form words, could only let out a strangled moan, her hands gripping onto his wrists, her nails biting into his skin as she took everything he was giving her. He shifted slightly, adjusting, and fuck, that was it.
Her head fell back, her body tightening around him, her thighs trembling as pleasure crashed over her like a tidal wave, ripping through her as she came apart beneath him, his name breaking from her lips.
Cillian felt it…the way her body clenched around him, dragging him closer to his own release. His grip tightened, his pace faltering as he chased it, his breath ragged, his rhythm turning desperate. With a strangled groan, his body shuddered, his grip on her tightening as he spilled into her, completely wrecked, his breath stuttering as he lost himself entirely.
He hovered over her, his forehead pressing to hers, his breath heavy, uneven, their bodies still tangled, still pulsing in the aftermath.
The room was silent except for the sound of their breathing, both of them spent, wrecked and ruined in the best possible way.













